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My Current Horoscope Says..

2012-02-10T06:40:00.012+11:00

Short Report
Forecast
Introduction
This report is a short edition of the Forecast Horoscope. It is meant as a sample and advertisement for the full version of the Forecast Horoscope which can be ordered from Astrodienst as a bound report of about 15 - 20 pages.n the short edition, only a few, but nevertheless important transits over your natal chart are considered. It is likely however that some important transits of this six month period have been omitted in this abbreviated report.

If you are interested in the full pattern of relevant themes, please order the full version of this report. Your best choice of report will be Liz Greene's Yearly Horoscope Analysis or Robert Hand's Transits of the Year. These reports will select the really relevant themes of a 12-month period for you, and deal with them in depth and style.

The report was generated for 6 months starting from February 2012 with the following birth data: male, born on 21 May 1965 at 4:42 am in Wagga Wagga, Australia.

Your sun sign is Taurus. This is the sign in which the Sun is in your birth chart. Your Ascendant is in Aries, and your Moon is in Capricorn.

In case you are wondering why you are addressed as Taurus in this report: If you had been born 12 hours 9 minutes later, you would be the subsequent sign Gemini. The exact hour at which the sun moves from one sign into the next is different every year.

Saturn square Moon:
A Time of Readjustment
Mid December 2011 until beginning of October 2012:This period can be quite a difficult time for your personal and domestic life. On the psychological level you may feel lonely and isolated from others. You may feel depressed and undeserving of love. Sometimes remembered past actions make you feel guilty that you have not lived up to your own expectations.

Externally this influence can create difficulties in personal relationships, especially with women, because your emotional communication seems to be cut off. Your job may make demands that conflict with your domestic responsibilities, so that you are forced to neglect one or the other. Your parents may also be a source of concern at this time.

The conflict at this time is between the structure of your ego, your sense of individuality and uniqueness and your need for connections and roots. Somehow it is difficult to be yourself and do what you must, to maintain your relationships and get much-needed emotional support and reinforcement from your loved ones.

These elements of your life are not truly in conflict, for they are complementary principles that need to be properly balanced with each other. The problem is that one element has got out of control at the expense of the other, so a time of readjustment is at hand. This situation is the underlying cause of the loneliness and depression that often accompany this influence.

You may have to make important changes in your life priorities. You may have to deemphasize your work in favor of your emotional and personal life, or you may have to break off a relationship that has interfered unnecessarily with your work. In either case, you must restore the balance between these two aspects of your life so that your life will run smoothly again.

Saturn conjunction Descendant:
Relationships on Trial
Mid January 2012 until mid October 2012:
This influence has two quite different meanings. First of all, it can indicate a period in which intimate one-to-one relationships become an area of great responsibility. Chief among these is your marriage or living with your partner, but it also refers to close partnerships of any sort. You must pay close attention to these relationships. Strains and tensions that have been developing in the recent past are likely to surface now and must be dealt with immediately! Sometimes the only way to handle these problems is to end the relationship, so this can be a time of great trial for a marriage. Even under the best of circumstances you will have to work harder on partnerships and try to solve as many problems as possible.

Related to this is another possible area of concern: namely, problems with people who oppose your interests in various matters. Such people can range from outright enemies to those who simply want to keep you in check for some reason. If this kind of problem arises, all you can do is try to understand the person's motivation and do what you can to eliminate their reasons for opposing you.

But aside from these two kinds of problems involving others, this influence means that at this time you are making a significant breakthrough in your life.

For several years now you have been working quietly to get ahead and make new beginnings, particularly in your professional life. Now the work you have been doing is beginning to bear fruit and you will be acknowledged. In fact, one of the reasons you are having conflict with enemies is that now you are really beginning to get somewhere in life, which is likely to be threatening to others.

At any rate, now you are ready for the upward climb to attain your goals in life. This is a very critical time, when you must work very carefully to get ahead. Do not take any shortcuts to success that violate what you believe to be right.

Jupiter opposition Neptune:
Wrapped Up
April 19 2012 until April 27 2012: During this time it is often difficult to keep the real and the ideal sorted out. This is an extremely spiritual influence, which may make the real world seem inadequate to you, causing you to seek an escape into a more ideal and perfect "reality." Normally this escape is not through drugs or alcohol, but if you have a predisposition toward them, it could work out that way. Usually, this influence indicates a mental state in which you become wrapped up in all manner of abstract speculations or high ideals that are difficult to actualize.

On another level, this influence may tempt you to become involved in unrealistic schemes that you could only believe if blinded by extreme optimism. You may want to gamble and take risks with your resources, and if you are not careful, wild speculations and gambling could leave you bankrupt. Oddly enough, some people are so geared that they can handle the gambling aspect of this influence very well and make seemingly wild investments pan out. Usually these people have a talent for calculating the risks, however. Remember that there is a difference between amateur and professional gamblers. The main point here is that if you are tempted to get into some investment scheme, make sure that it is within your area of personal expertise.

Under certain circumstances this influence can signify the beginning of a very idealistic kind of relationship, one in which you look to your partner as a kind of god or spiritual guide. This may or may not be an accurate picture. You must be careful here also, because you could idealize a person beyond all reason, even when she does not want you to do so.

And of course, you too could be the victim of an outright deception. Be careful to deal with people as they really are, by accepting them as they are and not demanding that they conform to an ideal in your mind.

Jupiter trine Moon:
With Little Effort
June 1 2012 until June 9 2012:
Usually you will feel very good with this influence, quite optimistic and generous. You will be concerned about the welfare of those around you and will want to protect the people you love. At this time you will attract favorable circumstances and resources with little effort, which will seem very pleasant now. But you should not expect this to keep on happening indefinitely. In particular, people may come after you to meet you for some reason, and these people could be quite beneficial to you in business or personal affairs. Regardless of your own sex, you may very well benefit from women during this time.

In some people this influence may stimulate an interest in religious and Spiritual thought, but your views would be more strongly concerned with ethics and morality than with a more mystical approach to religion.

At the very least you can expect to feel quite good at this time, and even if nothing tremendous comes out of it, you will have a feeling of satisfaction and of being at peace with yourself.

Jupiter conjunction Sun:
Exuberant Optimism
June 5 2012 until June 14 2012: Traditionally this is considered one of the most marvelous influences, and indeed it is quite good. At the very least, you will feel good at this time. Your health is good, and you feel very optimistic. For a while it may seem that everything is working out perfectly, and if you make an effort, it will. But if you simply sit back and enjoy this time, its beneficent influence will pass away with little to show for it afterward.

This is the beginning of a new twelve-year cycle of growth in your life. It is a time to initiate new projects and expand your activities so that you can experience life from a broader perspective. You may find that you can escape from some narrowing and inhibiting circumstance that has prevented you from realizing your full potential as a human being. Sometimes people travel under this configuration, but usually the traveling is more in the mind.

This is a good time to study a subject that raises your consciousness or expands your view of the world, and it is an excellent time for going back to school. You may also meet new people who expose you to aspects of life that you have never known before. Your freedom will certainly increase.

Even with this influence there are some pitfalls. First of all, your exuberant optimism can cause you to overdo or overreach yourself, so that when this time is over, you find yourself out on the proverbial limb. Exercise a certain amount of restraint and build upon what you have rather than trying to increase your holdings beyond your ability to handle them. Be careful of extravagance, and if you invest money, remember that today's luck is not permanent.

Jupiter conjunction Jupiter:
Wonderful Opportunities
Beginning of July 2012 until end of February 2013: This influence indicates the beginning of a new cycle of growth and progress. However, it is often the focus of exaggerated expectations. You may expect sudden windfalls, great wealth or luck, and all kinds of wonderful opportunities. And these things do happen sometimes with this influence, but most people should expect more subtle, but equally useful effects.

Events now, such as meetings with persons or even changes in your psyche, open the way for you to become wiser and more mature and to have a broader understanding of the world. At this time you will reach out consciously and unconsciously and ask more of the world, but at the same time you are willing to give more to the world.

This influence can make you feel either more demanding or more giving toward others, but you are not likely to get much out of it if you think only of what you can get. The law of conservation of energy in the universe says that you can transform the energies in your life from one form to another, but you cannot create them out of nothing. This influence represents a time when you should see whether you are doing that in your life.

Concretely, you can expect persons who are good for you to come into your life. Or circumstances will arise that give you increased freedom or an opportunity to do something that you have never done before. Educational opportunities may come to you at this time, or a chance to travel. Sometimes this influence does in fact bring about financial advantage, but you should not sit around passively waiting for it to happen. This is an excellent time to invest or expand in business as long as you are very careful not to overdo it or overextend yourself.

Short Report - Forecast
February 2012 to July 2012
Male: born on 21 May 1965 local time 4:42 am
in Wagga Wagga, AUSTL U.T. 18-42
147e22, 35s07 sid. time 20:24:17

Planetary positionsplanet sign degree motion
Sun Taurus 29°30'49 in house 2 direct
Moon Capricorn 28°27'04 in house 9 direct
Mercury Taurus 7°41'26 in house 1 direct
Venus Gemini 9°39'33 in house 2 direct
Mars Virgo 13°48'19 in house 5 direct
Jupiter Gemini 6°26'06 in house 2 direct
Saturn Pisces 16°01'25 in house 11 direct
Uranus Virgo 10°41'49 in house 5 stationary (D)
Neptune Scorpio 18°20'13 in house 7 retrograde
Pluto Virgo 13°41'04 in house 5 stationary (D)
True Node Gemini 13°51'13 in house 2 direct

House positions (Placidus)
Ascendant Aries 29°57'50
2nd House Taurus 28°31'01
3rd House Cancer 0°08'29
Imum Coeli Leo 3°45'24
5th House Virgo 6°29'02
6th House Libra 5°29'57
Descendant Libra 29°57'50
8th House Scorpio 28°31'01
9th House Capricorn 0°08'29
Medium Coeli Aquarius 3°45'24
11th House Pisces 6°29'02
12th House Aries 5°29'57

Transits
Saturn square Moon Mid December 2011
until beginning of October 2012
Saturn conjunction Descendant Mid
January 2012 until mid October 2012
Jupiter opposition Neptune 19 April 2012
until 27 April 2012
Jupiter trine Moon 1 June 2012 until
9 June 2012
Jupiter conjunction Sun 5 June 2012
until 14 June 2012
Jupiter conjunction Jupiter Beginning of
July 2012 until end of February 2013

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Astrology.. And Who Are We.. Versus Everyone Else, Our Family, & Friends etc.....

2012-02-07T13:06:00.015+11:00

And so I begin once again with some more notes from my ongoing daily journal.. While I also include this picture on Bjork that she posted on Facebook the other day.. along with the following quote.. ie. " there are certain emotions in your body that not even your best friend can sympathize with , but you will find the right film or the right book , & it will understand you"..

And yes, this is who I love her.. as an artist & a radically independent, yet ultimately sympathetic character.. being a fellow 1965 born Soul like myself.. born in the Year of the Wood Snake.. the Snake being the sign of Wisdom.. And all those born in the 1965 Generation also cooinciding with Uranus conjunct Pluto in Virgo.. both closely opposing Saturn, Ceres & Chiron in Pisces.. While all also forming a 'mutable grand cross' with the Gemini-Sagittarius Nth & Sth Nodes of the Moon.. The generation of Souls coming into the world right in the heart of the birth of The Age of Aquarius that was sweeping the globe in the 1960's...

While also reflecting on Bjork's quote about finding those who understand us in unusual places.. ie. in a book or whatever.. including a good astrology book may even help you feel understood.. Oh, that is why I have this dilemma or "issue" or "issues" in my life etc.. And what is the reason I have this or that aspect or unique configuaration in my birth chart etc.. Or even better getting a horoscope reading with a good or enlightened astrologer even.. like one of the world's leading evolutionary astrologers & teachers like Steven Forrest whom I often refer to in so many of my blogs.. or someone who has studied his work or methods etc.. All this perhaps allowing us to "see" that life indeed is no "accident" after all.. & that we do all indeed live in a deeply mysterious & meaningful Universe.... But we must all make to effort to remain open minded enough to consider what is the meaning of 'my life'.. as opposed to everyone else in the world etc.. in order to make our lives personally meaningful.. And tools like "astrology" are a Divine gift that we all have been given to study, if we take time to consider & reflect upon in our lives.. ie. What does this or that aspect say about me.. & what has been my life experience etc.. And so also as we look at the charts of friends & family too.. Perhaps all aimed at helping us understand our different strengths & weaknesses.. as we all graple to make sense of all the Universal truths of life.. along with or also at the same time trying to accomodate our own unique personal "Destiny" in this lifetime.....

31/1/12 Meanwhile it’ snow 9.50am.. & here I am also having just rang my brother Grant to tell him I could do an astrology “reading” for him if he likes to show him some of the current aspects in his chart that suggest he is indeed on the cusp of “sorting” out a few things in his life.. ie. thus explaining all the recent dramatic events coming to a head the other day etc etc.. ie. taking a number of pain killers & sleeping pills resulting in a major family drama etc.. And he said, that he might come over later.. Meanwhile all this too as I continue to listen to the mp3 recording titled *‘Healing Storm’.. While I also found myself thinking earlier again of the poem “Thoughts Are Things” once gain in regard to Grant & his life at this time etc.. ie. a poem that we all need to remember at times.. While I also note *the Sabian Symbol for the Ascendant at this time.. at *22degPis..

A PROPHET CARRYING TABLETS OF THE NEW LAW IS WALKING DOWN THE SLOPES OF MOUNT SINAI.. The need to bring down to the level of everyday existence the clear realisations made manifest in a great “peak experience”.. a Divine revelation.. a process to which pictures a religious God-given character has been attributed in the past.. The point is: what do you do after you have had a peak experience, an inner revelation.. The word mandate is appropriate; but the problem is how to fulfil it in the right Spirit.. MANDATE…

**All this with *the Pisces Ascendant.. in my 11^th house.. applying separating from *Venus in Pisces.. while both also applying to closely align with my natal Ceres-Chiron in Pisces.. while all also closely trine my *Sol-Arc Jupiter in Cancer along with Grants *Sol-Arc Cancer Ascendant.. in my 3^rd house.. while all also closely opposing & sextile Grant’s natal Pluto® in Virgo.. in my 5^th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile & forming a ‘Yod’ with my *prog Pallas® in Aquarius.. in my 10^th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. square.. part of a ‘Yod’ with & sextile Grant’s *prog Saturn in Aries.. in my 12^th house.. while all also closely square.. part of a ‘Yod’ with.. sextile & trine the midpoint of *the Sagittarian MC along with Grant’s *Sol-Arc Juno in Sagittarius.. in my 8^th house.. while....

Meanwhile it’s now 11.08am.. & here I am also having just finished talking to my brother Grant about his natal & *progressed astrology charts at this time.. ie. the meaning of his natal 1^st house Cancer Moon.. squaring his natal Sun-Saturn-Aries Nth Node.. along with the general advice for us all.. ie. “To thine own Self be true”.. but especially with an Aries Sun-Saturn-Nth Node.. While both also closely square & opposing his 4^th house Libra Sth Node.. along with also discussing his *prog Aquarian Moon.. conjunct his *prog 8^th house cusp.. the Pluto/Scorpio house or archetype.. ie. “a time for throwing out the garbage” is just beginning, I said.. with this *prog Aquarian Moon taking about 30 months to move through his *prog 8^th house.. While also talking about Mum& Dad.. ie. Dad not knowing it all etc.. as well as issues of ignorance & life in general etc etc.. ie. We are all learning as we go.. & we all have our own personal & generational “stuff” to deal with etc.. Along with also mentioning the idea of needing to express anger in a healthy way etc.. ie. being able to express ones feelings or be able to “disagree” with others.. While also recounting my feeling that it was totally “right” for me to talk about how I see the world through the lens of astrology & the mystic realms etc.. referring to my talking about all this stuff around “the family” at Christmas etc.. despite the “disapproval” against me for believing in all this “rubbish” as others put it etc.. proving of course to those who don’t understand that I really am a “weirdo” etc.. While also talking to Grant about my experiences with my boss, at work, & the “confrontation” with her & the resulting emotional breakdown that seemed to change her whole attitude to life etc.. ie. that perhaps other people have “stuff” going on in their lives too.. While Grant also mentioned having read one of Eckhart Tolle’s books a while ago.. along with Ange also talking about him before around Christmas time.. ie. the best selling author of ‘The Power of Now’ & ‘A New Earth’.. While of course also mentioning Grants natal Mercury-Venus in Pisces.. conjunct his Pisces MC.. while all also closely trine his natal Neptune® in Scorpio.. ie. the need to watch out for addictive behaviour.. And, rather all this represents the desire to connect with ‘the Divine’ or the Spiritual realms etc.. allowing some quiet time.. & to learn Self-discipline etc.. ie. Sun-Saturn.. And all this too while continuing to listen to the mp3 recording titled *‘Healing Storm’ still playing in the background.. While here I also include the meaning of having one's progressed Moon entering the 8th house.. ie. the Pluto/Scorpio/8th house archetype..

The 8th House
Traditional Name: House of Death.
Corresponding Sign: Scorpio.
Associated Planets: Mars & Pluto.
Terrain: Instinctive behavioral determinants universally present in human Consciousness: 1/Instinctive desire to form a sexual life bond; the mating instinct. 2/Instinctive awareness of one's own physical mortality; the way we cope with death. 3/Instinctive sense of invisible, transcendent dimensions of reality; life after death, the "Occult."
Successfully Navigated: Healthy, flowing, spontaneous sexuality. Acceptance of death & an integration of its reality into daily life. Sense of the immortality of one's Consciousness.
Unsuccessfully Navigated: Blocked sexual functioning or obsessive fear of sexuality. Inordinate fear of death; denial of death. Rigid denial of "religious," "Occult," or "mystical" feelings.

Pluto
The Gift: The ability to heal one’s Soul, recovering the energy needed to find an altruistic mission in life, thereby filling one’s Consciousness with a sense of ultimate purpose.
The Challenge: Can you face your deepest wounds & fears? Can you recognise some inner vision or gift that life has given you, & do you have the courage humbly to submit yourself to the task of exploring it?
Key Questions: Where can I find enduring significance in my life? Where in myself might I find wisdom for which there is a great need in the world around me? Where must I guard against dogmatic, unscrupulous, or tyrannical behaviour?

Scorpio, The Scorpion
Element: Water
Mode: Fixed
Archetypes: The Detective, The Sorcerer, The Hypnotist

The ally we must cultivate is the part of
our enemy that knows the truth.

Mohannes K. Ghandi

The Symbol
You lie in your sleeping bag, rigid as a corpse. The desert Sun creeps higher, threatening to turn the fillings in your teeth to molten gold.

One move & you die: a scorpion stands motionless on your belly.

Tension in your marriage. Critical politicking in your profession. Yesterday those thoughts crowded your world. Today, with that scorpion standing there, they seem as irrelevant as a dim red Star in a distant galaxy.

With that scorpion on your belly, only the awesome intensity of the present moment remains. Everything else - all pretence, all vanity, all ambition - is ripped away. Only essentials remain. And mind, naked & alert, focused sharp as a cut gem, stands ready to live or die.

That attitude or state of Consciousness is Scorpio.

While I also of course decide to look at the symbol for the Ascendant at this time of having a talk to my brother Grant.. at *8degAri..

A LARGE WOMAN’S HAT WITH STREAMERS BLOWN BY AN EAST WIND.. Protection & Spiritual guidance in the development of Consciousness.. Under protective guidance a still most receptive person is being influenced by Spiritual forces.. At this emotional-Cultural level the mental processes are still largely undeveloped.. produces results which require protective forms, which is what a Culture & ethical precepts provide, & sensitivity to Spiritual energies.. PROTECTIVE FORMS & SENSITIVTY…

While I also note the symbol for the Midheaven almost exactly aligned with *Pluto in Capricorn also at this time.. & so I read at *9degCap..

ANGEL CARRYING A HARP.. The revelation of the Spiritual meaning & purpose at the core of any life situation.. This picture simply says that “Heaven is within us”.. All we have to do is to be open & listen to the total harmony of life.. attunement to the rhythm of universal life.. Angels are to be considered personalisation’s of various aspects of life, & totally subservient to its rhythms & purposes.. ATTUNEMENT…

While I also note the symbol for the Part of Fortune at this time too.. at *6degCan..

GAME BIRDS FEATHERING THEIR NESTS.. An instinctual dedication of Self to new forms of life.. a preparation for rebirth.. What is being built is instinctively - but not yet Consciously - offered to a higher level of Consciousness.. ie. a deep unconscious cooperation between different levels of existence, the “animal” producing lives for the sake of the “human”.. SYMBIOSIS…

While I also note the symbol for the transiting Moon at this time also.. at *9degTau..

A FULLY DECORATED CHRISTMAS TREE.. The ability to create inner happiness in dark hours.. the vivid faith in a transformed future.. the ever-present possibility to transform the darkness & deprivation of the low point of a life cycle by incarnating in it the antiphonic response celebrating the ever remembered & always expected high moments in life.. undying faith in cyclic renewal.. FAITH IN CYCLIC RENEWAL…

**All this with *the Aries Ascendant.. in my 12th house.. separating from Grant’s *prog Vesta in Aries along with my *Sol-Arc Pallas in Aries.. while all also closely trine my *prog Venus-Mercury in Leo.. in my 4th house.. while all also closely sextile Grant’s *prog Mars in Gemini along with the midpoint of my natal Jupiter-Venus in Gemini.. in my 2^nd house.. while all also closely square & forming a ‘Yod’ with *the Capricorn MC along with *Pluto in Capricorn & Grants *Sol-Arc Neptune in Capricorn.. in my 9^th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. square & trine the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Ceres-Chiron in Taurus & my natal Mercury in Taurus & Grant’s *Sol-Arc Venus in Taurus along with *the Taurus Moon.. in my 1^st house.. while *the Cancer Part of Fortune.. in my 3^rd house.. also closely sextile Grant’s *prog Taurus MC along & *prog Mars in Taurus along with my *Sol-Arc Ceres-Chiron in Taurus.. in my 1^st house.. while all also closely semi-sextile the midpoint of my *prog Gemini Ascendant along with my natal Jupiter in Gemini.. in my 2^nd house.. while all also closely inconjunct.. square & trine *Mercury in Aquarius.. in my 10^th house.. meanwhile *the Aquarian Sun.. in my 10^th house.. also closely aligned at the focal point of a ‘Yod’ with the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Vesta in Cancer & my *prog Cancer Sun.. in my 3^rd house.. along with my natal Uranus in Virgo.. in my 5^th house.. while all also closely trine.. semi-sextile & square my natal Venus in Gemini along with my *prog Vesta in Gemini.. in my 2^nd house.. while all also closely sextile.. square & part of a ‘Yod‘ with Grants‘ *prog Aries Part of Fortune.. in my 12^th house…

1/2/12 Meanwhile it’s now 6.43pm.. & here I am having just come downstairs & logged on for another day…………

Meanwhile it’s now 7.10am.. & here I am listening to the start of another EA Radio podcast once again with evolutionary astrologer Deva Green at http://www.healthylife.net/RadioShow/archiveGS.htm talking about *‘The Nth Node in Taurus & the 2nd House’.. ie. echoing my natal 2nd house Nth Node of the Moon.. along with my 2nd house Taurus Sun.. also along with my 2nd house Jupiter-Venus in Gemini.. ie. Venus.. Taurus/2nd house.. getting down to the basic sense of our deepest sense of Self-worth & Self-reliance.. I am whole within myself etc.. ie. “To thine own Self be true”.. And all this as I also feel the need to return to the wisdom & teachings of Jeff Greens deep insights into astrology & the meanings of the archetypes of the planets, signs & houses etc.. While I also note the symbol for the Ascendant.. symbolising what is the meaning of the sign of Taurus.. the opposing the sign of Scorpio.. & so at *19degAqu..

A FOREST FIRE IS BEING SUBDUED BY USE OF WATER, CHEMICALS & SHEER MUSCULAR ENERGY.. The skill & courage necessary to bring under control the destructive potential of carelessness of karmic “visitations”.. Every individual - at least once in a lifetime, if not repeatedly - may have to face spectacular reactions to seemingly insignificant facts.. faith in oneself & in superior powers.. action in a crucial & potentially devastating situation.. There is a need for a total mobilisation of energy & a deep sense of indomitablility.. INDOMITABILITY…

**All this with *the Aquarian Ascendant.. in my 10th house.. separating from its square to my natal Neptune® in Scorpio.. in my 7th house.. meanwhile both also closely square & opposed by *the Taurus Moon along with my natal Vesta in Taurus.. in my 1st house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. trine & sextile *Vesta in Pisces along with my *prog Pisces MC.. in my 11th house.. while *the Scorpio MC.. in my 7th house.. also applying to closely trine my *Sol-Arc Pisces Moon.. in my 11th house.. while all also forming a ‘grand water trine’ with my *prog Cancer Sun.. in my 3rd house.. while all also closely sextile & opposing my natal Mars-Pluto in Virgo.. in my 5th house.. while all also closely inconjunct.. square & semi-sextile the midpoint of *the Gemini Sth Node along with my natal Gemini Nth Node along with my *Sol-Arc Gemini Ascendant.. in my 2nd house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. forming a ‘mutable grand cross’ with.. part of a ‘Yod’ with the midpoint of *the Sagittarian Nth Node along with my natal Sagittarian Sth Node.. in my 8th house.. while all also closely square.. semi-sextile.. forming a ‘Yod‘ with.. trine & sextile my *prog Juno® in Aquarius.. in my 9th house.. while *the Taurus Part of Fortune.. in my 1st house.. also closely sextile the midpoint of my *prog Chiron® in Pisces along with my *Sol-Arc Juno in Pisces.. in my 11th house.. while both also closely sextile & trine the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Venus-Cancer Nth Node.. in my 3rd house.. while all also forming a ‘Yod’ with & square the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Uranus-Mars-Pluto in Libra.. in my 6th house.. meanwhile *the Aquarian Sun.. in my 10th house.. also closely aligned at the focal point of a ‘Yod’ with the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Vesta in Cancer along with my *prog Cancer Sun.. in my 3rd house.. along with my natal Uranus in Virgo.. in my 5th house.. while all also closely trine.. semi-sextile & square the midpoint of my natal Venus-Gemini Nth Node.. in my 2nd house…

Meanwhile it’s now 8.39am.. & here I am once again listening to another EA Radio podcast with evolutionary astrology Deva Green at http://www.healthylife.net/RadioShow/archiveGS.htm titled *‘The Nth Node in Gemini & the 3rd house’.. While I also note the symbol for the Ascendant at this time.. ie. symbolising what this archetype of Gemini is all about.. ie. opposing the sign of Sagittarius.. & so at *8degPis..

A GIRL BLOWING A BUGLE.. A call to participation in service of the race, as an evolutionary crisis approaches.. the mother, or intuitive or “psychic” type of person.. The individual who envisions this evolutionary development “sounds the call”.. He or she is both Seer herald & mutant.. an individual true to their original nature.. a new form of consecration of the individual to the Whole.. Tomorrow acts through today.. A SUMMONS TO RE-BIRTH…

**All this with *the Pisces Ascendant.. in my 11th house.. closely sextile the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Ceres-Chiron in Taurus along with my natal Mercury in Taurus.. in my 1st house.. while all also closely sextile & trine *Pluto in Capricorn.. in my 9th house.. while all also forming a ‘Yod’ with & square my *prog Venus-Mercury in Leo.. in my 4th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. square & trine my *Sol-Arc Pallas in Aries.. in my 12th house.. while all also closely square.. semi-sextile.. part of a ‘Yod’ with & sextile the midpoint of my natal Jupiter-Venus in Gemini.. in my 2nd house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. square.. opposed by & trine *Mercury in Aquarius.. in my 10th house.. while *the Sagittarian MC.. in my 8th house.. also separating from its sextile to my natal Aquarian MC.. while both also forming a ‘Yod’ with my *Sol-Arc Vesta in Cancer.. in my 3rd house.. while both also part of a ‘Yod’ with.. square & sextile the midpoint of *Jupiter in Taurus along with my *Sol-Arc Ceres-Chiron in Taurus.. in my 1st house.. while all also closely trine.. sextile & square *Ceres in Aries.. in my 11th house.. while all also closely square.. semi-sextile.. trine & sextile *Chiron in Pisces.. in my 10th house.. while all also closely sextile.. trine.. square.. forming a ‘Yod’ with & opposing my *prog Mars in Libra.. in my 5th house.. while *the Gemini Part of Fortune.. in my 2nd house.. also separating from my *Sol-Arc Gemini Ascendant.. while both also closely trine my *Sol-Arc Libra Part of Fortune.. in my 6th house.. while all also closely square & semi-sextile my *prog Pluto in Virgo.. in my 5th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. square & sextile my *prog Cancer Sun.. in my 3rd house.. while all also forming a ‘grand air trine’ with & forming a ’Yod’ with my natal Juno in Aquarius.. in my 10th house.. meanwhile *the Taurus Moon.. in my 1st house.. also remains applying to closely align with my natal Vesta in Taurus.. while both also remain closely sextile *Vesta in Pisces along with my *prog Pisces MC.. in my 11th house.. while all also closely opposing & trine my natal Neptune® in Scorpio.. in my 7th house…

Meanwhile it’ snow 9.57am.. & here I am once again listening to the start of another EA Radio podcast titled with Rose Marcus titled *‘January Transits’.. featuring a discussion of *Mars in Virgo retrograde.. spending about 8 months in the sign of Virgo.. ie. moving back over my natal Uranus-Mars-Pluto in Virgo.. in my 5th house.. where Rose suggests that along with the current Uranus in Aries forming a waxing square to Pluto in Capricorn that this will be “triggering” off all those born under the Uranus-Pluto conjunct of the mid 1960’s.. Mars in Virgo retrograde is emphasising for all of us that it is time to get down to basics.. & throwing out all the “garbage” in our lives etc.. ie. all the bad habits.. things & or people in our lives that are not good for us & or no longer serving us & what we need to do in the world etc.. While I also once again turn to the symbol for the Ascendant at this time.. at *24degPis..

ON A SMALL ISLAND SURROUNDED BY THE VAST EXPANSE OF SEA, PEOPLE ARE LIVING IN CLOSE INTERACTION.. The need to consciously accept one’s own personal limitations in order to concentrate one’s energies & to live a centred & fulfilled life.. Every individualised person is a small island in the vast ocean of mankind.. the first duty of any man or woman is to be truly what he or she is as an individual.. But this individual has a particular dharma, ie. a place & function in a vaster Whole.. CENTRALISATION…

**All this with *the Pisces Ascendant.. in my 11th house.. separating from my *prog Chiron® in Pisces.. while both also closely opposing *Mars® in Virgo.. in my 5th house.. while all also closely square *the Sagittarian MC.. in my 8th house.. while all also forming a ‘mutable grand cross‘ with & opposing my *Sol-Arc Mercury in Gemini.. in my 2nd house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. part of a ‘Yod’ with.. sextile & trine my natal Pallas in Aquarius.. in my 10th house.. while all also closely trine.. sextile.. forming a ‘Yod’ with & semi-sextile the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Jupiter-Venus in Cancer.. in my 3rd house.. while all also closely inconjunct.. semi-sextile.. sextile.. forming a ‘grand air trine’ with my *prog Libra Moon.. in my 6^th house.. while *the Cancer Part of Fortune.. in my 3^rd house.. also applying to closely sextile *Jupiter in Taurus.. in my 1^st house.. while both also closely opposing & trine my *Sol-Arc Neptune in Capricorn.. in my 9^th house.. meanwhile *the Taurus Moon.. in my 1^st house.. also separating from my natal Vesta in Taurus.. while both also remain closely sextile *Vesta in Pisces along with my *prog Pisces MC.. in my 11^th house etc….

Meanwhile it’s now 11.30am.. & here I am having just finished reading an another article at The Age online titled *‘Why Teens Should Read Raunchy Novels & Straight-up Smut’.. at http://www.theage.com.au/opinion/society-and-culture/why-teens-should-read-raunchy-novels-and-straightup-smut-20120131-1qr97.html#ixzz1l5bKt2FM.. While also I of course turn to *the Sabian Symbol for the Ascendant at this moment as a symbol of what all this article is really all about.. at the core archetypal level.. at “the occult”, hidden or deepest level.. And all this from the book *‘An Astrological Mandala: The Cycle of Transformation & It’s 360 Symbolic Phases’ by Dane Rudhyar.. With the Ascendant moving from the 13th to the 14th degree.. And so I begin with what is being left behind.. or were all this is coming from.. at *13degAri..

AN UNEXPLODED BOMB REVEALS AN UNSUCCESSFUL PROTEST.. An immature evaluation of the possibility of transforming the status quo.. the result of an attempt to resolve the conflict between two concept-feelings of order.. a Consciousness which is not free, but can only react “wildly” to constraint.. A negative attempt at reconciling the Spiritual ideal & the very Earthly reality, denying the reality of the latter.. ADOLOESCENT FRUSTRATION…

While also noting what we are moving or evolving towards here in regard to all this etc.. & so at *14degAri..

A SERPENT COILING NEAR A MAN & A WOMAN.. Identification in bipolar relationship with the impersonal rhythm of natural energy.. Adam & Eve accepted the Presence, not of the tempter, but of the Individualiser, who sought to have them born out of the womb of unconscious passivity to Nature’s God.. the test of polarised Conscious participation.. the transpersonal way to the “Cosmification” of desire & the Conscious acceptance of polarisation as the solution to the problems generated by individualisation.. this need not mean what is currently meant by “sex” & the glorification of the orgasm.. RITUALISATION OF RELATIONSHIP…

While the following symbol also shows the next step or the ultimate evolutionary goal that we are all aiming for here.. both individually & Collectively.. And so I read at *15degAri..

AN INDIAN WEAVING A CEREMONIAL BLANKET.. Projecting into everyday living the realisation of Wholeness & fulfilment.. The man or woman who has attained the Spiritual state is figuratively robed in the Universe.. the ultimate kind of weaving.. a future state of fulfilment in Conscious harmony & unpossessive love.. every individual has as his or her Conscious task the weaving of their “immortal body,” the Gnostic Robe of Glory.. the fulfilment of desire is a possibility, at whatever level & however incomplete.. FULFILLMENT OF DESIRE…

Meanwhile it’s now 1.04pm.. & here I am having just posted a comment on the aricle I just posted on with the first two Sabian Symbols explaining what this is really all about.. while also then at 1.08pm.. I also added the last symbol in this series of 3 showing us all the ultimate goal we are aiming for here.. While I also noted the following comment by Jenny from Sex Education Australia that seemed very wise to me..

Why Teens Should
Read Raunchy Novels
& Straight-up Smut.
When we go into schools we refuse to fear-monger & judge. Our attitude is that statistically, at Year 10 approx half of students will have had sexual intercourse, & at Year 12, approx 3/4. We approach upper secondary school students thinking that many of them are sexually active, whether this is intercourse or other things like oral sex, kissing & touching. We talk about how to be sexually safe not just physically in terms of STIs & unplanned pregnancies but also *emotionally* in terms of avoiding unwanted sex, sexual assault & things like reputation, a negative rep can apply to guys as well as girls! We also talk about the importance of 'if you are having sex' or being sexual, how to make sure it is respectful, pleasurable & consensual. And legal in terms of age of consent, giving & getting consent. How what's good or right for one person may not be for the next; how everyone is different & that's okay. It's normal & healthy to be sexual; it's normal & healthy to not be that interested. What's normal & healthy is pretty broad.

Unpacking pornography is a complex matter but we do need to give young people credit in this area as well. We have to be careful about becoming 'anti-porn hysterics' because it's a fine line between that & 'anti-sex hysterics.'

Meanwhile it’s now 2.42pm.. & here I am having just read about one of my brother Grant’s long-term transits at http://www.astro.com/ on his transit of *Chiron in Pisces to his natal Cancer Moon.. And all this too with the opening preview music playing for the movie *‘Tuesdays’ With Morrie’ playing over & over on the DVD player.. And all this is rather interesting in light of the above comments on sex & sexuality since my brother's sexuality has been an issue he has been struggling with for some time..

Don't Panic!
Chiron Trine Moon
Mar 2011 until 4 Feb 2012:
This influence allows you to gain new insights into your feelings, hopes & desires. You will, however, need to keep an open mind & be willing to learn, because this influence does not really compel you in any way. It might be more a case of allowing something to happen than achieving it through your own efforts.

This influence is exclusively concerned with those feelings & desires which shame or embarrass you, or those which are somehow painful or a burden. You are now more able to recognize such feelings, both within yourself & in others. How you react to others will mainly depend on how you relate to yourself. You might find it easier to accept such feelings in others than in yourself, particularly if someone you trust confronts you with painful aspects of yourself. If this happens do not attempt to play the understanding advisor or therapist. You will best be able to help by revealing something about yourself. If you can do this, the other person could help you to gain a deeper understanding of your own inner pain.

In any case you should now find it much easier to recognize your own weaknesses & vulnerabilities. A discussion with your mother, or someone with whom you have a similar relationship, could help you to find new ways of overcoming old emotional pain or sensitivity.

**All this with *the

While here is another long-term transit that I read at http://www.astro.com/ on my bother Grant's horoscope the other day.. also relating intinlately to what he is going through at this time.. And who also recently packed up from Sydney & moved back home to live with Mum & Dad until he sorts out what he wants to do.. ie. 29/1/12 Meanwhile it’ snow 8.22am.. & here I am awake & showered having just come downstairs to log on for another day.. as I also listen to the sound of the watching machine as it washes my clothes etc.. While I also just finished reading from my brother Grant’s first featured long term transit at this time in his life at http://www.astro.com/.. ie. Uranus in Aries.. in the 10th house.. squaring his natal Cancer Moon.. in the 1st house..

"Crazy"
Uranus square Moon
Mid April 2011 until mid March 2012:
This influence will create tensions & sudden changes in your personal & emotional life. Every little tension that you have suppressed over the last several years will suddenly seem to surface & demand to be released in some way. In your close relationships, such as to parents & partner or others, problems that you have been ignoring may reach the point that you have to deal with them. In an intimate relationship, this influence can have the effect of either you or your partner suddenly breaking away & seeking a relationship elsewhere. But that would happen only if the tension between you has been very severe & neither of you has been doing anything about it. In any case, you may have to make some changes in the demands you have been making upon each other.

Your domestic life may be the source of considerable upsets now. There may be accidents in the home, a sudden need for house repairs, or other sudden problems on this front. Certainly this is not a good time to buy a home, because what you look for now will not reflect your usual needs. If you are forced to buy a new home or to change residence at this time, go ahead, but be very careful. The energy of the influence has already worked itself out by disrupting your previous home & forcing you to move.

In general, you are seeking more emotional freedom at this time. If you can, change your existing relationships so that they embody what you are looking for. Otherwise, if you seek out new relationships, your personal life may be more disrupted than you want. Men in particular should be wary of this influence, because their attitudes toward women may be rather unstable now, which can result in upsetting relationships.

Whatever you do, you will probably find that your emotional wants & needs are not consistent with those of the people around you. Others may think you are "crazy" (not clinically insane, of course), because of your actions at this time. But this is only a temporary period of instability, during which you will come to a new understanding of your emotional needs.

3/2/12 Meanwhile it’s now 2.06pm.. & here I am sitting here still listening to the mp3 recording titled *‘Healing Storm’ as an episode of ‘The A-Teams winds up on 7Mate.. And all this too rather interestingly as an episode of ‘Baywatch’ also starts playing a few minutes later.. While I also decide to ask *the Sabian Oracle what this year is all about for Grant.. I got *18degSag..

TINY CHILDREN PLAYING IN SUNBONNETS.. You may feel that you are being overprotected at the moment, but it is most likely for your own good. Don't be distracted by efforts being made on your behalf, sometimes we need to be shielded by others from harmful elements. Remember to play and to have fun, but don't let people hoodwink you!

Protection or blinkering of others. Censorship. Innocence. Being treated like a child.

The Caution: Overprotection by institutionalised procedures that can lead to not being able to see the whole picture. Infantile behaviour. Being left in the dark without a clue as to what's going on.

While here is Dane Rudhyars interpretation of the same symbol..

CHILDREN PLAYING ON THE BEACH THEIR HEADS PROTECTED BY SUN BONNETS.. The protection Society affords to as yet immature individuals as they begin to deal with the powerful energies of their unconscious nature.. Overprotection & hypocritical behaviour by supposed grown-ups defeat this purpose, & today we are witnessing a partially healthy rebellion against this.. It brings to us a realisation of the value of protectiveness, yet also evokes the negative possibility that too much protection may be unhealthy & defeat its purpose.. PROTECTIVENESS…

5/2/12 Meanwhile it’s now 11am.. & here I am up in my room having just spent the last 15 minutes or so reading from the astrodienst Psychological Horoscope Reports for my brother Grant.. my sister Angela & myself.. While giving some thought to the aspects in each birth chart that would relate to the differing psychological dynamics for each of us.. along with also noting the differing psychological orientation or experience we each have in relation to Mum & Dad.. also indicated by the aspects of the planets we each have in our own birth charts.. And yes, it has been a long time since I have read from these reports.. And all this too while also working earlier today on my next blog titled *‘Astrology.. Who We Are.. & The Family We Are Born Into’.. though I later changed the title a bit.. Meanwhile all this too with *the Cancer Moon.. in my 3^rd house.. applying to almost exactly trine my natal Saturn in Pisces.. in my 11^th house.. while both also closely inconjunct & semi-sextile the midpoint of *Mercury in Aquarius along with my natal Juno in Aquarius & *the Aquarian Sun.. in my 10^th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. square & trine the midpoint of my natal Gemini Nth Node along with my *prog Jupiter in Gemini.. in my 2^nd house.. while all also closely square.. inconjunct & forming a ‘grand air trine’ with my *Sol-Arc Libra Part of Fortune.. in my 10th house…

While here are some notes from the introduction to the Psychological Horoscope by Liz Greene available at http://www.astro.com/..

Your Psychological Horoscope
Once upon a time, in a less scientific age than ours, astrology was a respected study, based on ancient & empirically compiled principles & used by the learned for greater insight not only into the future, but also into the Soul. With the coming of the Age of Enlightenment, & the increase in man's knowledge of the material universe, is seemed for a time that studies such as astrology, in company with other symbolic maps of the Cosmos, had become anachronisms - pieces of superstitious nonsense which reflected a more ignorant & gullible era. But surprisingly, astrology, despite its detractors, has refused to go the way of the flat Earth, the conjuring of demons, & the turning of lead into gold. It is alive & well, growing in popularity, & once again meriting the respect of intelligent minds - for it has been brought into the modern era through our increasing knowledge of psychology & of the inner nature of man. Subjected to many centuries of suppression & ridicule, astrology has outproven & outlasted its opponents, & eloquently demonstrates that it has something to offer the modern individual seeking Self-understanding.

Shakespeare once wrote that all the world is a stage, & all the men & women merely players. In a sense, your birth horoscope is a metaphor for the individual play, complete with stage set, cast of characters, & story, which lies at the core of your life journey. It might be useful for you to remember the metaphor of the theatre as you read through the various sections of your astrological portrait, because it can help you understand the real meaning of fate as it is reflected in astrology. Fate does not lie in your being subjected to random preordained events. It lies in the cast of characters which represent the deepest needs, conflicts & aspirations which lie within you. No person can be other that himself or herself; & every life experience whether tiny & transient, or major & transformative, reflects in some way the character of the individual.

Your Psychological Type
The rich array of individual attributes portrayed in your birth horoscope is set, as it is with everyone, against a backdrop of a certain temperament bias. We might call this bias your psychological "type", for it is a typical characteristic was of responding to the situations life brings you. No one begins life whole or perfect, & all people have certain areas of strength - sophisticated & well-adapted inner characters - to help them deal with challenges, conflicts & problems. Likewise, all people have certain areas of weakness - inner characters who are underdeveloped, neglected & troublesome.

Your psychological type does not remain static & unchanging through your whole life. There is something within all of us - whether we call it the unconscious, the Self, or the Soul - which strives towards balance & completeness, & which tries to integrate into our lives all those qualities or inner characters which have been neglected or undervalued. At certain important junctures in life, it is as though some central core, deeper & wiser that the Conscious "I", draws us into conflicts which enable us to develop our weaker areas, so that we can become more complete as human beings. Thus, in the following paragraphs about your psychological type, are some suggestions about how you might facilitate this inner movement toward a more balanced perspective on life. Life does this for us, sooner or later. But sometimes it is more rewarding & less problematic if we cooperate with the process.

Meanwhile here is a summary of my Psychological Horoscope

Your Psychological Type
The gifts of realism & sensuality. *Realism
blocks the flow of imagination. *Learning to
play. *Clarity of intellect combines with a
realistic worldview.

Character & Shadow
A natural capacity to appreciate material
pleasures. *Passion is contained & intensified
by pride & Self-control. *Powerful physical
attractions bring both pleasure & problems.
*The problems of possessiveness &
manipulativenss. *The challenge of romantic
conquest makes commitment problematic.
*The contest is more exciting than the prize.
*Tenacity, pride & sensuousness combine to
create personal magnetism.

A hidden longing for the intangible. *The
craving to find higher meaning in mundane
reality. *The need to acknowledge the Spirit
as well as the flesh.

A direct & honest approach to life. *The
importance of beauty & Culture must be
acknowledged.

The Family Background
Family myths & psychological inheritance.
*The image of the father in a mans chart.
*A boy instead of a man. *Dealing with a
wandering Spirit.

The image of the mother in a mans chart.
*A force of nature. *Differentiating your
own feelings from your mother's.

The Parental Marriage. *An appearance of
harmony masks differences.

Relationship Patterns
The attraction of a partner with Spirit &
imagination. *Attractions of a sophisticated
partner. *Security & continuity come first.
*A need for unpredictability.

Paths Towards Integration
Acquiring Self-sufficiency. *The
dilemma of the outsider.

While here is a copy of my birth chart..

Meanwhile it’s now 11.23am.. & here I am once again listening to the start of another EA Radio podcast with Deva Green titled *‘The Past Meets the Future: Nth Node in Aries/1st House’.. With all this echoing my natal 5th house Mars-Pluto, in Virgo, almost exactly squaring my natal 2nd/8th house Nth-Sth Nodes of the Moon, in Gemini-Sagittarius.. along with my *prog Nth Node-Jupiter, in Gemini.. in my *prog 1st house.. While my natal 9th house Capricorn Moon, also tighlty squares my natal Aries Ascendant & Libra Descendant Axis.. ie. All emphasising the Aries/Mars1st House archetype.. a brand new cycle of evolutionary becoming...

**All this with *the Aries Ascendant.. in my 12th house.. closely sextile *Mercury in Aquarius along with my natal Juno in Aquarius & *the Aquarian Sun.. in my 10th house.. while all also closely

7/2/12 Meanwhile it’ snow 3.11am.. & here I am up at this ridiculous hour having just come downstairs to get a drink of water.. as I also feel myself feeling really terrible about myself for some reason.. And all this coinciding with my not wanting to answer a call from work late yesterday afternoon as I feared they wanted me to work.. And I don’t like saying “no” or letting people down etc.. While I also am feeling guilty for not going to visit Mum & Dad & Grant etc after Mum rang up a couple of nights ago to say that Grant had cooked something for tea.. although I was at work.. While only discovering this after calling Mum yesterday to find out why she rang the night before.. And so she suggested that there was still some of the dish Grant cooked for tea leftover if I wanted some……….. And so all of this making me feel really guilty for letting others down etc.. Mmm.. all this guilt building up in me at this time with *the Aquarian Sun.. in my 10th house.. applying to closely square my *prog Neptune® in Scorpio.. in my 7th house.. while both also closely trine & inconjunct my *prog Jupiter in Gemini.. in my 2nd house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. trine & square my *prog Saturn® in Pisces.. in my 11th house.. meanwhile of course I also then decide to ask *the Sabian Oracle what *the Universe wants to say to me about all this guilt I am feeling at this time.. I got *18degCan..

A HEN IS SCRATCHING FOR HER CHICKS.. The essential need for nourishment must be satisfied in order to proceed in life. There are those around you who also depend on your ability to provide nourishment - both the literal - food, & the symbolic, Spiritual caring. Getting down to business & finding what nourishes will bring improvement & growth.

Searching for sustenance. Being devoted to the nurturing of small beginnings. Concern for the essential, small details. Repetitive cycles of things that have to be done.

The Caution: Pointless searching where there is no nourishment left. Fussing around. Not letting people grow up & take responsibility for themselves.

While here is Dane Rudhyars interpretation of the same symbol..

A HEN SCRATCHING THE GROUND TO FIND NOURISHMENT FOR HER PROGENY.. The practical concern with everyday nourishment necessary to sustain one’s outreaching activities.. all the activities into which one has poured his or her energy are his symbolic children.. The tender stem consolidates into the tree trunk, the infant into the theoretically Self-reliant & Socially wise adult.. Seed, germ & the growing plant requiring the chemicals of the soil for its daily growth form a clear sequence.. FULFILLING OF LIFE’S RESPONSIBILITIES…

While of course I also turn to the previous symbol to see where all this is coming from.. at *17degCan..

THE UNFOLDMENT OF MULTILEVEL POTENTIALITIES ISSUING FROM AN ORIGINAL GERM.. The life urge to actualise one’s birth potential.. the process of germination.. the plant pierces the crust of the soil & reaches up towards the light.. Action polarises meditation.. The expanding process of actualisation - which may mean nothing more than Ego-expansion through conquest - contrasts with the introspective study of the relationship between, & the meaning of, the various energies & potentialities of one’s nature.. GROWTH…

With the previous symbol or stage in the evolutionary step also reading.. at *16degCan..

A MAN STUDYING A MANDALA IN FRONT OF HIM, WITH THE HELP OF A VERY ANCIENT BOOK.. A deep concern with the problems raised by the process of personality integration.. a deep effort on the part of the individualised Consciousness to reach a solid basis of understanding which will allow it to perceive the relationship of every part of the personality to every other part.. a mental process implying study & an inward turning of attention.. ie. a profound & stabilising sense of form, of one’s own individual form, not an external Socio-cultural pattern.. CONCENTRATION & CONFORMATION…

While I also ask the what *the Universe wants to say to me about my life overall at this time.. ie. what is it I really need to focus on etc.. I got *6degTau..

A BRIDGE BEING BUILT ACROSS A HIGH NARROW GORGE.. There may seem to be no way of overcoming the distance between you & the answer. There is, but to build a bridge takes time, energy & help. Once it is completed, then the dangers that it spans are no longer of any concern.

Overcoming distance & separation. Endeavouring to build continuity. Solving problems. Bridging emotional chasms.

The Caution: Taking the long way round to avoid asking for help or using shortcuts to cut across the real issue.

While here is Dane Rudhyar's interpretation of the same symbol..
A CANTILEVER BRIDGE ACROSS A DEEP GORGE.. The conquest of seperativeness through group cooperation.. All great evolutionary challenges imply the overcoming of difficulties.. the first stage of “Substantiation”.. The man-made bridge built with Collective skill gives substance to & demonstrates man’s capacity to conquer obstacles & to achieve evolutionary continuity as well as expansion in space.. TO CONQUER OBSTACLES…

While the previous symbol also shows where all this is coming from.. at *5degTau..

A WIDOW AT AN OPEN GRAVE.. The impermanence of all material & Social bonds.. “All natural compounds decay,” the Buddha said.. The most beautiful & most enjoyed substance loses its potential energy through continuous actualisation & the principle of integration & form is withdrawn, leaving the Void - “the open grave” that ends all attachments.. root elements & basic actions which may seem negative, yet it opens the door to Self-renewal.. the possibility of participating in a larger sphere of existence.. TO DISCARD THE PAST…

While the following symbol then also shows the way forward from this point.. ie. the same degree as my current *Sol-Arc Ceres-Chiron in Taurus.. at *7degTau..

THE WOMAN OF SAMARIA AT THE WELL.. The meeting of the traditional past & of the creative Spirit pointing to the future.. Jesus, as the Avatar of the Christ-Impulse, came to replace the old tribal order with a new order based on Universal Love.. It is no longer a Collective-Cultural effort based on past knowledge - but a “meeting” that introduces into the Collective situation a totally new factor which transcends it.. A new quality of being is revealed which renders the old patterns obsolete.. A NEW QUALITY OF BEING…

While the next symbol also shows the next step forward in the evolutionary journey.. conjunct my natal Gemini Nth Node ruler.. ie. Mercury in Taurus.. at *8degTau..

A SLEIGH ON LAND UNCOVERED BY SNOW.. The value of anticipating & preparing for expectable conditions.. This ability relates this symbol to Taurus 7, because the woman of Samaria had the capacity to receive a revelation of the future state of human evolution, though in a different & subconscious sense.. the value of future-oriented imagination, but also of relying upon the natural unfoldment of all life processes.. FUTURE-ORIENTED IMAGINATION…

While the next evolutionary step or symbol then reads.. at *9degTau..
A FULLY DECORATED CHRISTMAS TREE.. The ability to create inner happiness in dark hours.. the vivid faith in a transformed future.. the ever present possibility open to man to transfigure the darkness & deprivation of a low point of a life cycle by incarnating in it an antiphonic response celebrating the ever remembered & always expected high moments in life.. It evokes mans undying faith in cyclic renewal.. FAITH IN CYCLIC RENEWAL…

Meanwhile it’ snow 4.40am.. & here I am having just finished reading & writing all this out about what is going on for me at this time.. giving me some much needed clarity on what all this guilt has been all about for me.. after spending more time with myself.. again.. almost all of yesterday.. reading from my long-term astrology reports etc.. However all this was only my trying to do what feels “right” for me etc.. But perhaps I needed to take a break at leat occasionally & see some other people etc.. like my family.. who I don’t see that much of any more.. along with other people perhaps too that is etc.. While all this too also begs the question.. who are my friends & or my kind of people.. & how do I connect with them.. And all this too with a Leo Full Moon approaching in my natal 4th house.. ie. occurring on early Wednesday morning.. closely opposing *the Sun in Leo conjunct *Mercury in Leo.. in my 10th house.. while all also forming an almost exact square to my natal Neptune® in Scorpio.. in my 7th house.. while all also forming a ‘fixed grand cross’ with my natal Vesta in Taurus.. in my 1st house.. While I also note *the Sabian Symbol for the Ascendant at this time.. ie. moving from the 23rd to the 24th degree.. & so beginning with *23degCap..

A SOLDIER RECEIVING TWO AWARDS FOR BRAVERY IN COMBAT.. The reward offered by Society for the fulfilment of individual responsibility.. the recognition by the community that, whether he or she has succeeded or failed, an individual who discharged his duty nobly & under unusual circumstances is entitled to the respect & appreciation of the Collective he or she has served so well.. a compensation for a well-done performance.. RECOMPENSE…

While the following symbol reads.. at *24degCap..

A WOMAN ENTERING A CONVENT.. Total commitment to a transcendent goal.. the relationship between the Society, its religion & Culture, & the individual.. Society accepts the fact that beyond its daily normal patterns of behaviour & commitments, another way of life exists, which, in a higher sense, also has a Social value.. the paradoxical nature of the Social process.. man’s nature contains the possibility of overcoming & transcending itself in acts of complete denials & of surrender to a “higher” Law or quality of being.. All Spiritual techniques are indeed paradoxical.. Rigid discipline conditions pure inner freedom.. TRANSECENDENT SECURITY…

Meanwhile it’ snow 8.48am.. & here I am having just come downstairs & logged on again for today.. And all this after waking up a bit after 3am earlier this morning & coming down here to try & figure out why I was feeling the way I did about myself etc.. And all this too as I continue to listen to the mp3 recording titled Beach Waves once again.. & have been doing so since I went back to bed at about 4.56am or so as I decided I needed to listen to the sounds of the ocean once again to help me sleep & process what was going on for me…

While it’s now 9.35am.. & I also decide to ask the Universe then about my following my intuitions about needing to spend all this time with myself.. my feelings & my thoughts etc etc.. instead of giving in to feelings or guilt about not visiting my family & friends more often.. when I know that this is right for me.. ie. going against all this Societal guilt or expectation etc.. I got *18degTau..

A WOMAN AIRING AN OLD BAG THROUGH A SUNNY WINDOW TO GIVE IT AIR & SUNSHINE.. There is a need to clean out some old habits & routines. By keeping everything in your inner Self, you can cause a clutter that is restricting. Bring these things to the outer world & see if they are still relevant in the light of day, discarding those that don't measure up.

Bringing air & light to a situation. Psychoanalysis. Past life regressions or memories.

The Caution: Expecting others to take responsibility for cleaning up & airing out. Hanging onto old, outworn things & memories. Endless chatter about things that need to be forgotten.

While here is Dane Rudhyar's interpretaion of the same symbol..
A WOMAN AIRING AN OLD BAG THROUGH THE OPEN WINDOW OF HER ROOM.. The cleansing of Ego-Consciousness.. The traditional teachings concerning man’s nature are somehow reconciled with the youthful enthusiasm that sees in every problem of growth an issue between “good” & “bad”.. the real enemy is within the mind; it is the go & its attachment to possessions.. The mind is shown as a “bag,” now empty & needing to be aired in the Sunlight.. But the “window” must first be opened & the bag emptied.. PURIFICATION…

While I also note the pervious symbol to see where all this has come from.. at *17degTau..

A SYMBOLIC BATTLE BETWEEN “SWORDS” & “TORCHES”.. Refusing to depend upon the past, the Seeker turns warriors, fighting anew the eternal “Great War”.. The Spiritual light within the greater Soul must struggle with the Ego-will that only knows how to use the powers of this material & intellectual world.. it is the energy that arises out of the present moment, that the daring individual has to use in his struggle.. salvation is attained through the individual‘s readiness to face all issues as if there were only two opposing sides.. the dharma of this stage of human evolution.. POLARISATION OF VALUES…

While I also of course not the symbol for the Ascendant at this time.. at *24degPis..

ON A SMALL ISLAND SURROUNDED BY THE VAST EXPANSE OF THE SEA, PEOPLE ARE SEEN LIVING IN CLOSE INTERACTION.. The need to consciously accept one’s own limitations in order to concentrate one’s energies & to live a centred & fulfilled life.. Every individual person is a small island in the vast ocean of mankind.. the first duty of any man or woman is to be truly what he or she is as an individual.. But this individual has a particular dharma, ie. a place & a function in a vaster Whole.. The islands inhabitants get subsistence from the sea, & in time learn to navigate this sea & interact with other islanders - & all will eventually realise their oneness within the Whole.. CENTRALISATION…

While I also note then the symbol for the previous degree showing us what came before the current symbol or situation.. the same degree as my *prog Chiron® in Pisces.. ie. at *23degPis..

A MATERIALISING MEDIUM GIVING A SÉANCE.. The ability to give of one’s vital energy to substantiate one’s Conscious ideals or unconscious desires.. The person who believes he or she has a mission or mandate, or any special gift that can be of use to their community, must substantiate this belief.. Something precious involved in a deeply personal experience has to be surrendered, offered to others.. The display of psychic power can be interpreted positively or negatively according to the motives the induced the “medium” to give the séance.. SUBSTANTIATION…

While the following symbol in this sequence shows the next evolutionary step forward from the moment of my asking this question above.. at *25degPis..
A RELIGIOUS ORGANISATION SUCCEEDS IN OVERCOMING THE CORRUPTING INFLUENCE OF PERVERTED PRACTICES & MATERIALISED IDEALS.. The power of the Soul to intervene in the personal life & to induce necessary catharses.. The necessary process of the Conscious attention & will most often bring negative results - exclusivism, pride, jealousy, greed etc.. A purging or catharsis is needed.. the final consummation of the process of actualisation of the potency inherent in the original Creative Act requires moments of crisis & purification.. PURIFICATION…

While the following symbol or the next evolutionary step then reads.. at *26degPis..

WATCHING THE VERY THIN CRESCENT MOON APPEARING AT SUNSET, DIFFERENT PEOPLE REALISE THAT THE TIME HAS COME TO GO AHEAD WITH THEIR DIFFERENT PROJECTS.. A keen appreciation of the value of individualised responses to any life challenge.. In any Society that glorifies individualism, everyone should accept this fact & try not to compel other individuals to conform to a single pattern of response.. the essential nature of the cyclic process of actualisation of human potential.. ie. the emergence of the individual.. THE FALLACY OF TOTALITARIANISM…

While here I am making my first post for this month with *Mercury in Aquarius almost exactly aligned with *the Aquarian Sun.. And here we all are moving further & further into the Age of Aquarius.. While here are some notes on the meaning of the sign of Aquarius once again & what beginning of this roughly 2000 year 'New Age' is all about for us.. ie. the sign of Aquarius.. along with its chief ruling planet.. ie. Uranus, & it corresponding astrolgical house.. ie. the 11th house.. all from the book 'The Inner Sky' by Steven Forrest..

Aquarius, The Water Bearer
Element: Air
Mode: Fixed
Archetypes: The Genius, The Revolutionary, The Truth Sayer, The Scientist, The Exile.

If you meet the Buddha
in the road, kill him.

Zen Buddhist saying

The Symbol
The Aquarian glyph - a pair of parrallel wavy lines - is often mistaken for water. That is not the case. Those lines are serpents, symbols of knowledge.

In Eden, the serpent tempted Eve to eat of the fruit of the Tree of Knowledge. She did, & God threw her & Adam out of the garden for it, setting into motion the history of the world.

But in acquiring that knowledge Eve did something more. In that single rebellious Aquarian act, she gave birth to a quality far more precious than safety, far more precious even than wisdom.

She gave birth to human freedom.

Uranus
The Gift: The ability to distinguish our true individuality from the desires & fantasies about us held by our family, friends, & close associates.
The Challenge: Can you stand up to the pressures of conformity, asserting your right to be yourself in the face of censure & rejection - & in the face of whatever Social conventions you may have unwittingly internalised?
Key Questions: In what area of my life must I learn to function without Social approval? Where must I learn to break the rules & follow my own path? Where will I consistently receive the most misleading advice? Which authorities am I destined to offend?

The 11th House
Traditional Name: House of Friends.
Corresponding Sign: Aquarius.
Associated Planets: Uranus & Saturn.
Terrain: The future; plans, goals, life themes. Identification with groups, organisations, movements, associations, one's crowd.
Successfully Navigated: Concrete, specific sense of direction in life. Realistic yet inspiring goals, rooted in Self-knowledge. Network of relationships that enhance & support the realisation of personal goals.
Unsuccessfully Navigated: Vagueness of purpose; drifting. Inability to make a committment at any level. Unrealistic, quixotic, whimsical goals. Friends & associates who only contribute to one's confusion & drifting.

**NB: Sabian Oracle used at http://www.sabiansymbols.com/pagea7a7.html.. along with secondary or shorter interpretations from the book 'An Astrological Mandala: The Cycle of Transformation & It's 350 Symbolic Phases' by Dane Rudhyar.. along with notes on the planets signs & houses from the book 'The Inner Sky' by Steven Forrest.. at http://www.forrestastrology.com/.. along with Pychological Horoscope Reports & more avaialable at http://www.astro.com/...

More Notes From My Journal.. & More Sabian Symbol Answers.....

2012-01-27T10:31:00.022+11:00

And so here we all are spinning around on a little blue planet we call Earth.. orbiting around the Sun, in a Solar System in the outer edge of a Galaxy we call The Milky Way.. just one of billions of galaxies in the known Universe..... Yes, "whatsitallmeanthen" indeed.. While here are some more notes from my daily journal.. preceded by a quote from Linda Hill's book on Sabian Symbols..

Oracles
The word "Oracle" comes from the Latin word meaning "to pray". It is also connected to the word for mouth. An oracle is described in Webster's Dictionary as being 'a Divine announcement' & 'the medium by which a God reveals hidden knowledge or makes known the Divine purpose'. Further, it is said to be 'an authoritative or wise statement or prediction'. In essence an oracle is a tool that allows a conversation with Divine forces.

They give us signposts & maps so that we can make better, more informed choices in life. In truth, we have the answers to the questions we ask inside of us; however we often need the answers to come through a vehicle outside of ourselves. Oracles have been 'read' from an incredible array of objects including stones, bones, tea-leaves, coins, sticks, the backs of tortoise shells & cards. Now we have the Sabian Oracle, which gives us a direct route into issues that reflect our modern era.

360 Degrees of Wisdom
by Linda Hill

21/1/12 Meanwhile it’s now 8.13am.. & here I am having just come downstairs to log on for another day.. While I also just thought of transferring my credit card over to St George Bank to take advantage of their 12 month low interest rate credit card of 0.99 percent on all balances transferred over $5000- dollars.. And that sounds Ok me.. instead of paying 13.49 percent.. However the trick is to not use the card at all & switch over to using a debit card if I do have to buy stuff online or whatever.. But can I budget myself enough to do that though.. that is the question.. Well, yes Ok then.. but what about the symbolism & synchronity of the symbol of the dragon for me in all this at this time, ie. with the symbol for StGeorge Bank being 'the dragon'.. With my currently undergoing my half natal Moon's Nodal return.. ie. with the transiting Gemini Sth Node.. transiting over my natal Gemini Nth Node.. along with the Sagittarian Nth Node also transiting over my natal Sagittarian Sth Node.. With the Nodes of the Moon in astrology known as 'the dragons' tail'.. ie. the Sth Node of the Moon.. ie. one's past life orientation.. ie. Sagittarius for me.. along with the Nth Node of the Moon, known as 'the dragons' head'.. or our intended evolutionary direction in this lifetime.. ie. my natal Nth Node in Gemini.. But here I am seemingly being asked to draw on all my past expereinces at this time.. & also take what I have learned in this lifetime, so far back into my past life experience or natural orientation.. ie. a time of balancing my karmic 'bank account'.. all my debits & credits etc.. And here is the meaning of the signs Gemini & Sagittarius along with the meaning of having my natal Nodal & current transiting Nodes of the Moon for me in regard to all this in my life in the larger or broader sense of its meaning for me at this time.. ie. my natal Gemini Nth Node, in my natal 2nd house.. & my natal Sagittarian Sth Node, in my 8th house.. remembering that the Nodes of the Moon deal with the main or 'bottom line' evolutionary themes of our Soul's development in this lifetime.. ie. moving away from the Sth Node, & moving towards the Nth Node..

Sagittarius, The Archer
Element: Fire
Mode: Mutable
Archetypes: The Gypsy, The Student, The Philospher.

It is not entertainment I am seeking. It is
understanding. Understanding, understanding,
& more understanding. I will stuff myself with
it, sniff it up with every pore, cram it into every
orifice. Someday it will pay off. Everything
will fall into its proper place, & I will, at
last, understand.

Laurel Goldman

The Symbol
Not the archer but the arrow. Fingers quivering with tension, the marksman releases the taut string. The curve of the bow snaps back, sending the feathered shaft darting into space.

The arrow. It flies faster than sight, whipping through the air, speeding towards the clouds. If it had eyes, it would see the archer's form grow tiny, fading to an insignificant speck in the landscape laid out like a map, simple & schematic.

If that arrow were suddenly given a mind, what thoughts would occupy it? Like a man on mountain peak, it would think thoughts of perspective & experience, driven by exuberance. Who fired me into this luminous sky & for what purpose? What is my place here? Where am I Going? What is the reason for my existence?

The 8th House
Traditional Name: House of Death.
Corresponding Sign: Scorpio.
Associated Planets: Mars & Pluto.
Terrain: Instinctive behavioral determinants universally present in human Consciousness: 1/Instinctive desire to form a sexual life bond; the mating instinct. 2/Instinctive awareness of one's own physical mortality; the way we cope with death. 3/Instinctive sense of invisible, transcendent dimensions of reality; life after death, the "Occult."
Successfully Navigated: Healthy, flowing, spontaneous sexuality. Acceptance of death & an integration of its reality into daily life. Sense of the immortality of one's Consciousness.
Unsuccessfully Navigated: Blocked sexual functioning or obsessive fear of sexuality. Inordinate fear of death; denial of death. Rigid denial of "religious," "Occult," or "mystical" feelings.

Gemini, The Twins
Element: Air
Mode: Mutable
Archetypes: The Witness, The Teacher, The Storyteller, The Journalist.

Behead yourself! Disolve your whole
body into Vision; become seeing,
seeing, seeing!

Jalalu'l Din Rumi

The Symbol
The Twins. Who are they? Brothers. Sisters. Soul mates. Lovers. Two beings, irrevocably bound together, fascinated with each other. Two beings, each hell-bent on unravelling the others mystery, yet seperated by an impenetrable wall of misunderstanding.

What do they do? They talk. They listen. They scan each other for clues, for meaningful gestures, for half-hidden innuendos. Nothing escapes them. No detail is too minute. No trail is too cold.

A bomb goes off in a puzzle factory. A thousand puzzles, blasted to smithereens. A million pieces, scattered like confetti. Two mad geniuses, both on Methedrine, attack the problem, each one swearing to have five hundred puzzles assembled by dawn.

Imagine it. That's Gemini.

The 2nd House
Traditional Name: House of Money.
Corresponding Sign: Taurus.
Associated Planet: Venus.
Terrain: Challenges to Self-esteem. Money & possessions.
Successfully Navigated: Confidence & Self-esteem based on concrete Self-adjustement & Self development. Effective worry-free management of resources.
Unsuccessfully Navigated: Materialism & equation of Self-worth with the value of one's possessions. Lack of Self-respect. Fear of risk. Collapse of willpower leading to failure in the world. Life limiting concern with material reality.

Meanwhile I also had a strange dream of meeting a wealthy farmer & landowner who I thought was totally materialistic & didn’t care about the other bigger things in life etc.. however after telling him life was not all about money or possessions etc.. but rather it was about believing in yourself & your own dreams or vision in life.. And “living it”.. ie. I am “poor,” perhaps by other peoples standards.. but I am following what feels right for me in my life anyway.. ie. I am a writer & blogger.. investigating the mysteries of life through the lens of astrology.. oracles & other various Divinatory tools etc.. & my idea is to make a film about my life.. astrology & the mystery of life & the Universe etc.. And he totally shocked me & said that he knows a film maker & wanted to help me but putting me onto a publisher to write my life story first.. meanwhile I also woke up hearing the words from the song “Oh Children” by Nick Cave.. ie. the words “Lift up your voice”.. going round & round in my head…

Meanwhile it’s now 10.44am.. & here I am having just posted a comment on my latest blog at http://whatsitallmeanthen.blogspot.com/2012/01/looking-back-over-my-life-new-years.html..

Looking Back Over My Life..
And.. then of course there is the traditional way of looking back or forward through the years of one's life by looking at our annual Solar Return charts for extra analysis on what that year was all about for us etc.. Perhaps all we can do, as any 'modern' more enlightened astrologer would say, is that we can know the themes we will be focusing on.. but not the exact details of what the actual events will be.. or how 'deal' with those energies.. ie. a highlighted Jupiter or Saturnian theme.. Jupiter suggesting a time of expansion & Self-confidence etc.. While Saturn suggests a more 'realistic' & down to earth approach to the issues at hand for that year.. And of course each Solar Return chart we have each year highlighted the themes we are working on in our lives that year all also relates back to our birth charts of course.. ie. our original evolutionary intent etc.. ie. I am an Aries Ascendant, boldly stepping out into life, although also being ruled by Mars in Virgo.. suggesting using caution & discernment as to what activities I enter into in the world etc.. although its also conjunct Uranus & Pluto in Virgo.. Lots of intense analysis indeed.. along with also having a natal 9th house Capricorn Moon, yes stepping out into the wider world, but with some caution & respecting the need to stay detached in some way.. also allowing much time for being with myself etc.. Or respecting only the best & greatest teachers etc.. What is best for all etc.. ie. Capricorn.. along with also having a 2nd house Taurus Sun.. also suggesting allowing more quiet time to just "be" in the world etc.. And yes, as usual, looking back is always much easier that predicting exactly what will unfold for us in the future years, according to the planetary alignments alone.. ie. Since we all have "free will" to choose this or that, or chicken out on following our inner guide etc.. And so we may need a "corrective event" to get us thinking about getting on with what we must do in this life etc.. And we all have our own "stuff" to deal with etc.. as usual.. While also some of us of course are just born with more dramatic birth charts than others.. And yes, we each have our own individual "Destinies" to live out.. large, small or in between.. as we journey through the mystery of our Consciousness.. Yes, the mystery continues indeed.. And regardless of our "differences" etc, hopefully we can eventually gain a little "wisdom" & Self-understanding.. as well as some forgiveness, for ourselves & others, along the way.. ie. 'the Yoga' is easy to say, harder to live, of course, as my favourite astrologer Steven Forrest would say.. And yet..... While I also turn once again to read *the Sabian Symbol for the Ascendant at this time.. at *25degPis..

A RELIGIOUS ORGANISATION SUCCEEDS IN OVERCOMING THE CORRUPTING INFLUENCE OF PERVERTED PRACTICES & MATERIALISED IDEALS.. The power of the Soul to intervene in the personal life & to induce necessary catharsis.. Every individual is a Church that has its Soul as its God, but most forget the Soul & live according to dogmatic rules & habits which not only have become empty of inner meaning, but very often perverted by the demands of the senses & the emotional nature.. the process of actualisation requires moments of crisis & purification.. PURIFICATION...

**All this with *the Pisces Ascendant.. in my 11th house.. separating from its square to *the Sagittarian MC.. in my 8th house.. while both also closely semi-sextile & sextile *the Aquarian Part of Fortune.. in my 10th house.. while all also closely trine & forming a ’Yod’ with my *Sol-Arc Venus in Cancer.. in my 3rd house.. while both also closely inconjunct.. sextile.. trine & square my *Sol-Arc Uranus in Libra.. in my 6th house.. meanwhile *the Capricorn Moon.. conjunct my 9th house cusp.. also applying to closely trine my *Sol-Arc Saturn in Taurus along with *Jupiter in Taurus.. in my 1st house.. while all also closely semi-sextile & square *the Aquarian Sun.. in my 9th house.. while all also closely square.. semi-sextile & sextile *Ceres in Aries along with *Uranus in Aries & my *prog Ceres in Aries.. in my 11th house.. while all also forming a ‘grand earth trine’ with & forming a ‘Yod’ with my natal Virgo Part of Fortune.. in my 4th house…

AND.. meanwhile it's now 11.11am.. & here I am listening to the start of Nick Cave & his album 'The Lyre of Orpheus'.. beginning with 'Breathless'.. a music legend.. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nick_Cave.. also noting the significance of the time being a double “11”.. a master number in numerology.. also adding up to “22” another master number.. the number of the master builder.. While once again I also turn to read *the Sabian Symbol for the Ascendant at this time once again.. at *1deAri..

A WOMAN JUST RISEN FROM THE SEA. A SEAL IS EMBRACING HER.. Emergence of new forms & of the potential of Consciousness.. To be individually Conscious means to emerge out of the sea of generic & Collective Consciousness.. The possibility of success or failure is implied throughout the entire process of actualisation.. Every release of potentiality contains this two-fold possibility.. one leads to “perfection” in Consciousness, the other to “disintegration” - the return to the undifferentiated state.. IMPULSE TO BE…

**All this with *the Aries Ascendant.. in my 11th house.. applying to closely align with *Ceres in Aries along with *Uranus in Aries & my *prog Ceres in Aries.. while all also closely sextile *the Aquarian Sun.. in my 9th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile *the Pisces Part of Fortune.. in my 10th house.. meanwhile all also closely square & semi-sextile *the Capricorn MC along with *the Capricorn Moon.. conjunct my 9th house cusp.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. square.. sextile & trine my *Sol-Arc Saturn in Taurus along with *Jupiter in Taurus.. in my 1st house.. while all also forming a ‘Yod’ with.. opposing & forming a ‘grand earth trine’ with my natal Virgo Part of Fortune.. in my 4th house…

Meanwhile it’s now 1.15pm.. & here I am having just helped the Chinese people in flat 2.. ie. Bing & his family, set up their new TV to a computer after John next-door didn’t know what to do.. And so I got to see what Chinese Windows looks like for the first time.. While I also once again note *the Sabian Symbol for the Ascendant at this time.. ie. as another symbol of what this is symbolising for me in my life at this time.. at *26degAri..

A MAN POSSESSED OF MORE GIFTS THAN HE CAN HOLD.. Obsession by potentiality.. The mind finds itself confronted with a totally unfamiliar & as yet unexperienced type of potency finds it difficult to adjust to its new world of perception & possibilities.. He or she should try to reach a calm state of watchfulness.. one has to move carefully in this new realm, for the Consciousness is not fully able to operate in it, except within closely defined limits.. WARNING…

**All this with *the Aries Ascendant.. in my 12th house.. separating from its opposition to my *Sol-Arc Uranus in Libra.. in my 6th house.. while *the Capricorn MC.. in my 9th house.. also separating from my *Sol-Arc Capricorn Sth Node along with my natal Capricorn Moon.. in my 9th house.. while all also closely trine my natal Taurus Sun.. in my 2nd house.. while all also closely opposing.. sextile & trine my *Sol-Arc Cancer Nth Node.. in my 3rd house.. while all also closely sextile & trine the midpoint of *the Pisces Part of Fortune along with my *Sol-Arc Juno in Pisces.. in my 11th house.. meanwhile *the Capricorn Moon.. in my 9th house.. also closely semi-sextile.. square & inconjunct the midpoint of my *prog Aquarian Part of Fortune along with *Neptune in Aquarius.. in my 10th house.. while all also closely square.. forming a ‘Yod’ with & trine the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Mars-Pluto in Libra along with *Saturn in Libra & my natal Libra Descendant.. while all also forming a ‘cardinal grand cross’ with.. semi-sextile & sextile my natal Aries Ascendant.. meanwhile *the Capricorn Moon.. in my 9th house.. also applying to closely align with my *Sol-Arc Neptune in Capricorn.. while both also closely sextile *Chiron in Pisces.. in my 10th house…

Meanwhile it’s now 1.39pm.. & here I am having just logged onto & started reading another article at The Age online at http://www.theage.com.au/technology/sci-tech/new-light-on-nebulas-20120119-1q87n.html.. about astronomers just capturing the best image yet of the Helix Nebula in the constellation of Aquarius.. also known as the “Eye of God”.. Yes, the Age of Aquarius indeed.. While here I once again turn to read *the Sabian Symbol for the Ascendant at this time.. at *1degTau..

A CLEAR MOUNTAIN STREAM.. The pure, uncontaminated & spontaneous manifestation of one’s own nature.. the mountain stream is conditioned by the nature of the soil & by all the forces which in the past have formed the mountains' rock strata: ie. by past history.. Yet, out of this past a new, pure release of potentiality has emerged.. It is ready to perform whatever work its dharma is to accomplish.. Matter is still imbued with great potential energy, energy being matter at it’s Source.. It is following irresistibly towards it own destiny.. IT’S OWN NATURE…

**All this with *the Taurus Ascendant.. in my 1st house.. closely aligned with my *Sol-Arc Saturn in Taurus along with *Jupiter in Taurus.. while all also closely square *the Aquarian Sun.. in my 9th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile & sextile *Ceres in Aries along with *Uranus in Aries & my *prog Ceres in Aries.. in my 11th house.. while all also closely trine & forming a ‘Yod’ with my natal Virgo Part of Fortune.. in my 4th house.. while *the Aries Part of Fortune.. in my 11th house.. also separating from its square to my *Sol-Arc Neptune in Capricorn along with *the Capricorn Moon.. in my 9th house.. while both also closely semi-sextile & trine the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Saturn in Taurus along with *Jupiter in Taurus & my *Sol-Arc Ceres-Chiron in Taurus.. in my 1st house.. semi-sextile & sextile *Chiron in Pisces.. in my 10th house.. while *the Aquarian MC.. in my 10th house.. also applying to closely trine my *prog Gemini Ascendant.. in my 2nd house…

Meanwhile it’s now 3.11pm.. & here I am sitting here listening to the start of the album *‘The Lyre of Orpheus’ by Nick Cave once again as it all begins with the song *‘Carry Me’.. While I also turn once again to read the symbol for the Ascendant at this time.. at *20degTau..

WISPS OF WINGLIKE CLOUDS STREAMING ACROSS THE SKY.. The awareness of Spiritual forces at work.. The individual who has taken the next step in his or her evolution should look for the "Signatures" of Divine powers confirming ones progress.. subtly blessing & revealing the direction to take, the direction of “the wind” of destiny.. It concludes a process, having experienced which the individual should find themselves more securely established in his or her own original nature, receiving the blessings from supernatural forces.. BLESSINGS...

**All this with *the Taurus Ascendant.. in my 1st house.. separating from my natal Vesta in Taurus.. while both also closely trine *Mercury in Capricorn.. in my 9th house.. while *the Aquarian MC.. in my 10th house.. also closely aligned at the midpoint my *prog Aquarian Part of Fortune along with *Neptune in Aquarius.. while both also closely trine the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Mars-Pluto in Libra along with *Saturn in Libra.. conjunct my natal Libra Descendant.. while *the Aries Part of Fortune.. in my 12th house.. also closely sextile my *Sol-Arc Mercury in Gemini.. in my 2nd house.. while both also closely sextile & trine my natal Pallas in Aquarius along with *Pallas in Aquarius.. in my 10th house.. while all also closely opposing & forming a ‘grand air trine’ with my *prog Libra Moon.. in my 6th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. square & inconjunct my *prog Chiron® in Pisces.. in my 11th house.. meanwhile *the Capricorn Moon.. in my 9th house.. also separating from my *Sol-Arc Neptune in Capricorn.. while both also remain closely trine the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Saturn in Taurus along with *Jupiter in Taurus & my *Sol-Arc Ceres-Chiron in Taurus.. in my 1st house.. while all also remain closely sextile *Chiron in Pisces.. in my 10th house.. while all also closely opposing.. sextile & trine my *Sol-Arc Vesta in Cancer.. in my 3rd house.. while all also closely square & forming a ‘Yod’ with my *prog Mars in Libra.. in my 5th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. square.. inconjunct & trine my natal Aquarian MC…

22/1/12 Meanwhile it’s now 9.25am.. & here I am having just come back inside again after just getting a knock on the door from Bing in flat 2 again to help him reset his TV to his computer again after his wife had accidentally changed the settings.. And so here I am once again having reset the TV back to the computer for them.. while showing Bing what to do it if happens again.. ie. “being useful or of service to others” once again.. giving one a sense of satisfaction & Self-worth etc.. a real Mercury/Virgo & 6th house experience.. Meanwhile all this too after also wondering about the idea of leaving work & my home town again etc & setting sail into the unknown once again to see what new experiences life may bring me etc.. also perhaps contacting a publisher & or film maker etc to see about publishing & sharing my life story with the wider world.. ie. along with the great story of life itself.. within all its great mysteries etc.. as evidenced & revealed by the occult & divinatory arts like astrology.. numerology & oracles.. along with all this in parallel to what science has shown us about the mysteries of life & the Universe etc as well.. like the fact that everything in the Universe is made of the same basic elements produced in the life & death of Stars.. along with the images from our own Universe & on into deep interstellar time & space etc.. along with people like Carl Sagan & Albert Einstein etc presenting the wonders of the Universe to us all.. And all this too with my work hours being cut back this week.. after I requested that I not do any more late shifts if possible.. with all this making me think about the whole idea that perhaps this is also a “sign” that it is time for me to leave Eagle Boys again.. perhaps for the last time.. Meanwhile all this too as I also find myself watching another episode of ‘The Love Boat’ on Channel Eleven.. And so I decide to once again ask *the Sabian Oracle what *the Universe wants to say to me about my life at this time.. once again.. I got *7degCap..

A VEILED PROPHET SPEAKS, SEIZED BY THE POWER OF A GOD.. Information or knowledge is coming through, & it is difficult to know whether to trust it. Look carefully for the signs - is it truth that you are being fed? With such power in one's words, we have to be careful about what we say as well as what we hear. This energy can be used for the good of all involved, or it can just lead people astray.

Hypnotherapy or hypnotic suggestion. Changeling & mediumship. Having insights that transport to a higher level.

The Caution: Conscious manipulation. Propaganda. Mind control. Not owning up to all the elements of one's personality. Barging into other people's space or conversations.

While here is Dane Rudhyar's interpretation..

A VEILED PROPHET SPEAKS, SEIZED BY THE POWER OF A GOD.. The ability to act as a mouthpiece for the revelation of a transcendent will & truth determining further action.. the future interacts with the present to release it from the inertial power of the past.. At the threshold of tomorrow man is allowed to have a vision or revelation of the essential elements of the as-yet-unknown next step in evolution.. MEDIATORSHIP…

While also asking the question considering who I am & who I am destined to become.. what is the right move for me in my life at this time.. also rather interestingly also being the same degree of my *Sol-Arc Saturn in Taurus.. I got *1degTau..

A CLEAR MOUNTAIN STREAM FLOWS STEADILY DOWNSTREAM.. You can be fresh & vibrant & revitalized from your Spiritual source. Concentrate on the direction you're heading in & don't deviate from it. Perform your tasks with an untainted vitality & you will enrich those around you. Realize that many came before you, & you are a part of their product. There is tradition & strength behind you.

Flowing energy. Refreshment. Sure sense of direction. Remaining fluid.

The Caution: Aimlessness. Feelings of physical, Spiritual or intellectual purity that can lead to smugness, bigotry or a false sense of superiority. Being so one-eyed about a goal that other people's needs go unnoticed. Cold & heartless.

While here is Dane Rudhyar's take on the same symbol..

A CLEAR MOUNTAIN STREAM.. The pure, uncontaminated & spontaneous manifestation of one’s own nature.. Matter is still imbued with great potential energy, energy being matter at it’s Source.. It is following irresistibly towards it own destiny.. IT’S OWN NATURE…

Meanwhile it’ snow 12.03pm.. & here I am having just written all this out on the symbol for Taurus 1 from the book ‘An Astrological Mandala’ as an episode of ‘Charmed’ also begins after ‘The Love Boat’ just finished on Channel Eleven.. Yes, Charmed & the “the power of three” indeed.. perhaps this is relating to my ability to see into the mystery behind all kinds of things & events in this world etc.. ie. to read the “signs” & symbols in the world around us.. the hidden world of “Magic”.. also through astrology & the tarot.. my intuition.. & the Sabian Symbols etc.. connecting with the unseen Spirit world etc.. Spirit always speaking through “signs” & symbols etc.. Yes, a natural “gift”.. just like the sisters on ‘Charmed’.. ie. as portrayed in my Whole birth chart.. along with my also being an “11” master number etc.. ie. my “Life Path” number.. While I also noticed the previous page from Dane Rudhyar’s book also just came out with on the preceding symbols.. at Aries 28, Aries 29 & Aries 30.. A clear message highlighted by the Cosmic highlighter pen.. ie. “Look here”.. And so naturally I also see this as another “sign” for me at this time.. ie. where I am coming from, & what has led me to the current symbol at Taurus 1.. ie. “A CLEAR MOUNTAIN STREAM”.. beginning with *28degAri.. “A LARGE AUDIENCE CONFRONTS THE PERFORMER WHO DISAPPOINTED IT’S EXPECTATIONS”.. then to *29degAri.. “THE MUSIC OF THE SPHERE’S”.. then to *30degAri.. “A DUCK POND & IT’S BROOD”…

With this series of preceding symbols culminating in the symbol for Aries 30.. preceding or what led me to my current situations.. ie. Taurus 1.. While also rather interestingly the same symbol for my natal Aries Ascendant.. And so I read the following at *30degAri..

A DUCK POND & IT’S BROOD.. The realisation of natural boundaries.. ie. the Consciousness that has been able to get a glimpse of universal order has to bring down the message of harmony it has heard inwardly.. Peace & inner contentment with one’s essential destiny or “dharma” is required.. Potency has to become substantiated - to mate with substance - in order to be effective.. FOCALISATION…

While I am also then directed by my inner voice to also look to the meaning of the way forward in the next 2 Sabian Symbols following Taurus 1.. ie. beginning with *2degTau.. the same symbol for the degree of the current transiting *Jupiter in Taurus..

AN ELECTRICAL STORM.. The Cosmic power able to transform all the implications of natural existence.. a stage of existence in which revelation” is implied, as least as potentiality.. The Consciousness may be deeply disturbed by The Visitation, but the substance of the individual being can be fecundated by the experience.. THE VISITATION…

While the following symbol also reads.. at *3degTau..

NATURAL STEPS LEAD TO A LAWN OF CLOVER IN BLOOM.. The gradual expansion of the individual Consciousness after a fecundating experience.. a stage in which one should seek with diligence & determination, but in humility & faith, to reach natural fulfilment.. NATURAL FULFILLMENT…

Meanwhile it’ snow 1.29pm.. & here I am watching an episode of the *‘7.30 Select’ program on ABC1 about a Sydney filmmaker who recorded the lives & artistic expressions of his artistic friends in 1960’s Sydney.. the Era of the Dawning of the Age of Aquarius etc.. the experimental films of Gary Shead capture the sex, drugs& rock'n'roll of the 1960s Sydney art scene.. involving people like Richard Neville & Bret Whitely.. with all this encouraging me to somehow continue with my own Path.. at http://www.abc.net.au/bestof/?WT.svl=bestOfScroller#s3411964.. Yes, ‘The Artists Way’ indeed.. And so once again I also turn to read *the Sabian Symbol for the Ascendant at this time.. the same degree as my natal Ascendant that I was just drawn to earlier in this journal.. at *30degAri..

A DUCK POND & IT’S BROOD.. The realisation of natural boundaries.. ie. the Consciousness that has been able to get a glimpse of universal order has to bring down the message of harmony it has heard inwardly.. Peace & inner contentment with one’s essential destiny or “dharma” is required.. Potency has to become substantiated - to mate with substance - in order to be effective.. FOCALISATION…

**All this with *the Aries Ascendant.. conjunct my natal Aries Ascendant.. separating from its sextile to *Neptune in Aquarius.. in my 10^th house.. while both also closely semi-sextile my *Sol-Arc Juno in Pisces.. in my 11^th house.. while all also closely square.. inconjunct & trine my *Sol-Arc Cancer Nth Node.. in my 3^rd house.. while all also closely square.. semi-sextile.. sextile & opposing my *Sol-Arc Capricorn Sth Node along with my natal Capricorn Moon.. in my 9^th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. square.. sextile & trine my natal Taurus Sun.. in my 2^nd house.. while all also forming a ‘cardinal grand cross’ with.. trine & forming a ‘Yod’ with the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Mars-Pluto in Libra & *Saturn in Libra along with my natal Libra Descendant.. while all also closely inconjunct.. square.. forming a ‘grand water trine’ with.. sextile.. opposed by & semi-sextile *Juno in Scorpio.. conjunct my 8^th house cusp.. while *the Aquarian MC.. conjunct my natal Aquarian MC or 10^th house cusp.. both also closely square the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Saturn in Taurus & *Jupiter in Taurus along with my *Sol-Arc Ceres-Chiron in Taurus.. in my 1^st house.. while all also closely semi-sextile & trine my *Sol-Arc Neptune in Capricorn.. in my 9^th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile & sextile *Chiron in Pisces.. in my 10^th house.. while all also closely trine.. forming a ‘Yod‘ with & square my *prog Mars in Libra.. in my 5^th house.. while *the Aries Part of Fortune.. in my 12^th house.. also separating from a trine to *the Sagittarian Nth Node along with my natal Sagittarian Sth Node.. in my 8^th house.. while all also closely sextile my *prog Juno® in Aquarius.. in my 10^th house.. while all also closely sextile.. opposing & trine *the Gemini Sth Node along with my natal Gemini Nth Node.. in my 2^nd house.. while all also forming a ‘Yod’ with & square my natal Mars-Pluto in Virgo.. in my 5^th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. forming a ‘mutable grand cross’ with my *Sol-Arc Pisces Moon along with *Vesta in Pisces.. in my 11^th house.. while all also closely square.. forming a ‘Yod’ with.. semi-sextile.. sextile & trine my *prog Cancer Sun.. in my 3^rd house.. meanwhile *the Capricorn Moon.. in my 9^th house.. also separating from & applying to sextile to my natal Saturn in Pisces along with my *prog Saturn® in Pisces.. in my 11^th house.. while all also closely sextile & trine my *prog Neptune® in Scorpio.. in my 7^th house.. while all also forming a ‘Yod’ with & square my *prog Jupiter in Gemini.. in my 2^nd house.. meanwhile *the Aquarian Sun.. in my 9^th house.. also closely square my *Sol-Arc Saturn in Taurus along with *Jupiter in Taurus.. in my 1^st house.. while all also closely sextile & semi-sextile *Ceres in Aries along with *Uranus in Aries & my *prog Ceres in Aries.. in my 11^th house.. while all also forming a ‘Yod’ with & trine my natal Virgo Part of Fortune.. in my 4^th house…

23/1/12 Meanwhile it’s now 3.38am.. & here I am having just woken up from a strange dream where I was stuck on a strange flying device with a group of others westerners on a communist or totalitarian flying machine of some sort.. where we were all being tested & questioned.. then killed or rather I should say executed by some kind of rocket engine under our seats, if we failed the test or something etc.. meanwhile I became part of an escape attempt on this flying device by knocking out most of the crew.. as we were flying somewhere over Asia.. while there was also a ceiling directly above us too.. And while we were now seemingly flying at high speed out of control I asked & persuaded one of the Russians still aboard to help us in our escape attempt.. as he seemed sympathetic & seemed to like us westerners earlier.. with one of us performing a rather spectacular high stuntman show rolling & falling off a high building or something earlier as we stopped somewhere.. While I also recall as we got onto this high speed “maglev” train how the magnets were incredibly strong & gave us headaches or something etc.. although we couldn’t say anything or complain as we were on some kind of diplomatic mission etc.. So here we were experiencing life in a totalitarian Society.. & we had to try & pretend it was great & wonderful etc.. And all this too as I also thought of just taking off & leaving Eagle Boys all of a sudden to follow my dreams.. or at least plunge ahead into the unknown by leaving & doing whatever it is I felt I had to do in my life at this time.. ie. talk to publishers & or film makers etc about telling “My Story”.. which is really just a very human story.. about one person trying to make sense of the enormous & seemingly miraculous existence of our lives in a strange Universe that seems to exist in order to give us LIFE & a sense of MYSTERY & the GREAT UNKNOWN.. despite our great intelligence & ALL THAT WE KNOW or HAVE EVER LEARNED.. THE MYSTERY STILL CONTINUES????????????????????????

While I also decide to ask *the Sabian Oracle what the Universe wants to say to me about what this dream is trying to tell me about my life at this time.. I got *10degCan..

A LARGE DIAMOND IN THE FIRST STAGES OF THE CUTTING PROCESS.. Your position is just beginning to take shape & the potential is enormous, but there needs to be care & accuracy taken or all the work to date could be spoilt. This situation has taken a long time to develop & comes from a deep organic essence. Keep cutting away the unnecessary & the flawed & you'll emerge with a wonderful gem!

Coming to terms with inner worth. Emerging perfection. Enormous beauty that is still a bit 'rough around the edges'. The ability to chop or grind away at something to get to the essential truth, potential or reality.

The Caution: Leaving an important job unfinished. Being afraid to take the first stab at a project or issue. Only seeing the flaws.

While here is Dane Rudhar's take on the same symbol..

A LARGE DIAMOND IN THE FIRST STAGES OF THE CUTTING PROCESS.. The arduous training for perfection in order to fully manifest an ideal.. an operation which when completed will acquire a Social value.. When fully grown, the “game bird” may satisfy a hungry stomach; once cut to perfection, the “diamond” may fill a man or with pride.. the training for prefection.. CRAFTSMANSHIP...

While I also ask then what the Universe wants to say to me about my life at this time & my sudden idea to leave my home town & Eagle Boys etc to seek out like-minded others & just follow my nose etc etc.. ie. to just see what happens.. I got *21degSco..

OBEYING HIS CONSCIENCE, A SOLDIER RESISTS ORDERS.. You may find yourself in a situation where what you are expected to do is against your inner values & Conscience. You must make the difficult choice between allegiance to duty & your own inner truth. True freedom can only be found within when one faces situations with a sense of integrity & a preparedness to face the consequences.

Personal morality. Doing what one's Conscience dictates. Longing for a return to a state of love that freezes you & confines.

The Caution: Cowardice or lack of courage to act. Not doing what one is expected to do. `Going over the top' in a wild & crazy way.

While here is Dane Rudhyar's interpretation of the same symbol again..

OBEYING HIS CONSCIENCE, A SOLDIER RESISTS ORDERS.. A readiness to face the results of a refusal to follow the authoritarian patterns of an aggressive Society.. The issue it presents is clear.. Society in this situation seems to be all-powerful; yet the individual NEED NOT BE Spiritually bound, even if imprisoned.. He or she can still display inner freedom & prove themselves an individual.. INNER FREEDOM…

While of course I also go on to note *the Sabian Symbol for *the Ascendant or Rising sign at this time also as a symbol of what this moment is really all about.. & so at *27degSag..

A SCULPTOR AT WORK.. The ability to project one’s vision upon & to give form to materials.. in contrast to the first.. The “Flag Bearer” symbolises the Selfless representative of a Collective tradition or of unity; the “Sculptor,” on the contrary, represents man as a creative individual intent on making his or her mark upon Society.. the capacity to transform raw materials according to his or her personal vision.. ie. SELF-PROJECTION INTO A WORK…

**All this with *the Sagittarian Ascendant.. in my 8th house.. applying to closely sextile the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Mars-Pluto in Libra.. in my 6th house.. while *the Virgo MC.. conjunct my 5th house cusp.. also separating from its trine to my *Sol-Arc Ceres-Chiron in Taurus.. in my 1st house.. while both also closely square & semi-sextile my natal Jupiter in Gemini.. in my 2nd house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. square & sextile my *prog Venus-Mercury in Leo.. in my 4th house.. while all also forming a ‘grand earth trine’ with & forming a ’Yod’ with the midpoint of *the Capricorn Part of Fortune along with *Pluto in Capricorn.. in my 9th house.. while all also closely inconjunct.. semi-sextile.. sextile.. trine & square my *Sol-Arc Pallas in Aries.. in my 12th house.. while *the Capricorn Part of Fortune.. in my 9^th house.. also separating from my *Sol-Arc Neptune in Capricorn.. while both also closely opposing my *Sol-Arc Vesta in Cancer.. in my 3^rd house.. while both also closely square my *prog Mars in Libra.. in my 5^th house.. while all also closely sextile.. trine & inconjunct *Chiron in Pisces.. in my 10^th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. inconjunct & trine my natal Aquarian MC.. meanwhile *the Capricorn Moon.. in my 9^th house.. also applying to closely oppose my *Sol-Arc Venus in Cancer.. in my 3^rd house.. while both also closely square my *Sol-Arc Uranus in Libra.. in my 6^th house…

25/1/12 Meanwhile it’s now 9.08am.. & here I am having just finished reading from the first few paragraphs of an interesting article from the Kepler College website about interpreting Solar Returns.. ie. ‘Solar Returns: Part 1’.. at http://www.kepler.edu/home/index.php/components/giving/modules/mod_jw_ts/templates/life_journey/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=330:solar-returns-part-i&catid=60:newsletter-articles&Itemid=157..

Solar Returns
Solar Returns are not a new technique. Firmicus Maternus mentioned Solar Returns in his work. In an article by Maria Mateus regarding Forecasting for the Year, she states,

“In Hellenistic astrology, a study of the current year is a complex undertaking. First, the year is understood within larger time frames, and a series of time lords – planets which govern these time periods – are calculated. Then the two year lords are calculated and subsequently the astrologer continues to calculate the lords responsible for the monthly and daily periods of time within that year. The whole procedure involves a complex array of hierarchically embedded time lords, all purportedly controlling different sized chunks of time.”

They also state that the house in the Solar Return in which the Sun resides is where most of the activity for the year is centred. It is the area “of your life that can be revitalized now by the expenditure of personal energy; this is where expression of your Ego can benefit you & it is here that you want to shine. The Solar return house with Leo on the cusp, ie. the Sun rules Leo, shows where the energy can be applied & how you can shine. Where the Sun is, is where you most identify with yourself & it indicates the potential for great psychological growth.”

While I also note *the Sabian Symbol for the Ascendant at this time as a symbol of what this is all about for me at this time.. & so at *8degPis..

A GIRL BLOWING A BUGLE.. A call to participation in the service of the race as an evolutionary crisis approaches.. the mother, & or the intuitive or “psychic” type of person.. He or she is both Seer-herald & mutant.. an individual true to his or her original nature, ie. a dedicated person - dedicated to the future.. a new form of consecration of the individual to the Whole.. Tomorrow acts through today.. SUMMONS TO REBIRTH…

**All this with *the Pisces Ascendant.. in my 11th house.. separating from its sextile to the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Ceres-Chiron in Taurus along with my natal Mercury in Taurus.. in my 1st house.. while both also closely square & trine *Pluto in Capricorn.. in my 9th house.. while all also forming a ‘Yod’ with & square my *prog Venus-Mercury in Leo.. in my 4th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. square & trine my *Sol-Arc Pallas in Aries.. in my 12th house.. while all also closely square.. semi-sextile.. part of a ‘Yod’ with & sextile the midpoint of my natal Jupiter-Venus in Gemini.. in my 2^nd house etc etc......

Meanwhile it’s now 10.04am.. & here I am also having just read from another article from the Kepler College website about Synodic Cycles or Returns.. ie. at http://www.kepler.edu/home/index.php/components/giving/modules/mod_jw_ts/templates/life_journey/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=329%3Atiming-important-life-periods-with-synodic-returns&catid=60%3Anewsletter-articles&Itemid=157.. **All this with *the Pisces Ascendant.. in my 11th house.. separating from my *prog Pisces MC.. while both also closely sextile my natal Vesta in Taurus.. in my 1st house.. while all also closely trine & opposing my natal Neptune® in Scorpio.. in my 7th house.. while all also closely square.. inconjunct & semi-sextile *the Sagittarian MC.. in my 8th house.. while *the Aries Part of Fortune.. in my 12th house.. also applying to closely sextile my natal Venus in Gemini along with my *prog Vesta in Gemini.. in my 2nd house.. meanwhile *the Aquarian Moon.. in my 10th house.. also remains closely aligned with *Pallas in Aquarius.. while both also remain closely trine the midpoint of my *prog Libra Moon along with my *Sol-Arc Uranus in Libra.. in my 6th house.. while all also remain closely inconjunct & square my *Sol-Arc Venus in Cancer.. in my 3rd house…

Synod Cycles or Planetary Pairs
The synodic return is a double outer planet transit measured by the time interval between the successive conjunctions of any two planets. If one outer planet moves to aspect a natal planet, angle or close network of planets, two at once marks a particularly important life period. Synodic returns look at the moving planets, not just their static position in the natal chart.

If Jupiter takes 12 years to complete a cycle and Saturn takes 29 ½ years to complete a cycle, then it is logical that it would take Jupiter, the faster moving body, even more time than its own cycle to reach Saturn’s new position to be conjunct again. The Jupiter/Saturn synodic cycle is 19.859 years, often rounded off to 20 years. If one knows when the last Jupiter/Saturn conjunction took place, then rather predictably, future such synodic returns can be estimated even without an ephemeris.

**NB: With the last new 20 year Jupiter-Saturn cycle beginning at the conjunction of these two planets back in the year 2000.. occuring in the sign of Taurus, in my natal 1st house.. also being the year I left the family real estate business & my home town for the first time in my life.. on July 4th, 2000.. And so beginning a whole new phase of my life & a search for my 'identity' etc....... While here are some notes on the meaning of the Ascendant/1st house from 'The Inner Sky' by Steven Forrest..

The Ascendant/1st House

Traditional Name: House of Personality.
Corresponding Sign: Aries.
Associated Planet: Mars.
Terrain: The establishment of identity.
Successfully Navigated: Clarity & decisiveness in one's actions. A sense of control over one's direction in life. A sharply focused sense of identity.
Unsuccessfully Navigated: Fearfulness & lack of Self assurance leading either to inflexibility & tyranny over the wills of others or to Self effacement, vagueness of purpose, & the assumption of defeat.

While I also note the symbol for the Ascendant once again at this time.. & so at *20degPis..

A TABLE SET FOR AN EVENING MEAL.. An indication that at the end & at the appropriate time the individual’s needs will be met among those whom he or she is linked by a Spiritual, or biological web of energies.. a satisfying or fulfilling end to what one has been undertaking.. As the life closes, the Soul-Consciousness finds nourishment in the harvest of whatever, during the whole life, has been relevant to the archetypal purpose & destiny of the Soul.. NOURISHMENT…

Meanwhile it’s now 4.32pm.. & here I find myself once again in the peace & quiet of the flat with myself.. all this time to think.. feel & explore etc.. more time to think wonder & imagine.. And all this while also half watching the Australian Open on TV.. While here I am also finding myself still contemplating the meaning of my being born between a Scorpio Full Moon conjunct *Neptune in Scorpio.. in the mundane 10^th house.. ie. being in the midnight position.. the most visible part of the sky where I was born.. And I have a 7^th house natal Neptune® in Scorpio.. While then shortly after followed by a Gemini Solar Eclipse.. 10 days after I was born, conjunct *Jupiter in Gemini & *the Gemini Nth Node.. conjunct the Gemini Ascendant.. ie. just rising above the horizon at the place I was born.. with this also occurring exactly aligned with my natal Venus in Gemini.. in my 2^nd house of ‘personal resources’ & ‘Self-worth’.. ie. of “proving oneself to oneself” etc.. With all this being something that I thought of a some time ago.. but now here I am today thinking once again that this must be deeply significant for me & the meaning of my life.. particularly in relation to my natal 7^th & 2^nd houses.. ie. ‘relationships’ with the Spiritual or unseen dimensions of life.. & the importance of connecting with ‘Spiritually minded’ others etc.. in one way or another.. be it is person or through reading a book or whatever.. ie. feeling a deep “connection” is the key to the 7^th house.. along with issues of ‘Self-worth’ & ‘Self-esteem’ in regard to all this.. ie. my natal 2^nd house *Venus in Gemini.. ruler of my 7^th house of ‘relationships’.. conjunct *Jupiter in Gemini along with the Gemini Nth Node of the Moon.. And so I begin with looking at *the Sabian Symbol for me pre-birth Full Moon.. as a symbol of that which I am bring forth into the world.. being born shortly after at the waning Disseminating Moon.. ie. with a 9^th house Capricorn Moon.. trine my 2^nd house Taurus Sun.. And so I read the symbol for my pre-birth Scorpio Full Moon at *25degSco..

AN X-RAY PHOTOGRAPH.. The capacity to acquire a knowledge of the structural factors in all existence.. The true philosopher is able to grasp & significantly evaluate what underlies all manifestations of life.. it provides the Conscience of the individual who refuses to obey his Society with a depth-understanding of what is wrong in the situation he faces.. Beyond the powerful feeling quality of “peak experiences,” the mind can understand the great Principles of which they were manifestations.. ie. in contrast to existential knowledge.. STRUCTURAL KNOWLEDGE…

While then pointing to that which I am moving towards in my lifetime.. with the Gemini Solar Eclipse occurring shortly after I was born.. ie. conjunct my natal Jupiter-Venus in Gemini.. & so I read at *10degGem..

AN AIRPLANE PERFORMING A NOSE DIVE.. A superior ability to challenge nature & play with danger.. to pierce beyond the physical to reach higher realms of existence.. He or she may lose the struggle, but that makes the effort more exciting.. He or she may gain “immortality“.. No possibility of half measures exist.. Man is committed irrevocably to success or failure - at least as a Conscious & Self-reliant mind.. Man’s will against the fate that gravitation so aptly symbolises.. MIND V MATTER…

**All this with *the Gemini Ascendant.. in my 2^nd house.. applying to exactly align with my natal Venus in Gemini along with my *prog Vesta in Gemini.. along with all also being almost exactly aligned with the same post-birth Gemini Solar Eclipse.. while *the Pisces MC.. in my 11^th house.. also applying to closely trine my *Sol-Arc Venus in Cancer.. in my 3^rd house.. while both also closely opposing & sextile *Mars® in Virgo.. in my 5^th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile & forming a ‘Yod’ with the midpoint of my natal Pallas in Aquarius along with *Pallas in Aquarius.. in my 10^th house.. while all also closely inconjunct.. square.. semi-sextile & trine the midpoint of my *prog Libra Moon along with my *Sol-Arc Uranus in Libra.. in my 6^th house etc.......

27/1/12 Meanwhile it’ snow 7.48am.. & here I am having just finished read from an entry from this journal from November 8th earlier this year about my reading from *‘The Book of Pluto’ again.. along with also reading a few of *the Sabian Oracle answers I also asked at that time.. Meanwhile I also earlier found myself having a dream about being some kind of prisoner in the army because I had betrayed the army in some kind of way.. While I was put through all kinds of extreme positions in order to discomfort me.. And so I was taken around a city for some reason with a general & a guard.. while we also saw a slightly crazed soldier jump off the top of a high building with a home made bungee chord.. And then the general suddenly tried it in some kind of crazed moment seeking to release himself from his life of extreme boredom or something.. but because he didn’t prepare properly he hit his head & died.. While I also saw Dad & with Max, the family dog, at one point too.. in another dream segment.. Where Dad was throwing a ball for Max to chase along the city streets in the middle or market area some large city in Europe.. although it was not in modern times.. it was more like in the late 1800 or early 1900’s or something.. perhaps in Germany..

While here are the notes from my journal I was referring to above from last year.. along with some notes about Pluto, & my transits etc at the time..

8/11/11 Meanwhile it’s now 1.15pm.. & here I am having just read from *‘The Hall of Judgement’ from Chapter 5 of *‘The Book of Pluto’ titled *‘Fire’ talking about the idea of devoting one’s life & resources to something that we are truly most passionate about in this world.. ie. something that really gives our life a great sense of meaning & purpose.. as opposed to its opposite.. ie. only concerning ourselves with our own material or worldly well being alone etc.. And all this after I‘ve been sitting here in the quiet stillness of this flat on my own for the hour or so reading through this book on the deeper meaning of the planet Pluto once again.. And of course I just happend to be born with Mars almost exaclty aligned with Pluto in the sign of Virgo, ie. just seperating from exact conjunction.. highly emphasising Pluto for me.. Mars represents our personal or individual will or drive.. along with both also closely aligned with Uranus in Virgo.. in my natal 5th house..

Pluto
The Gift: The ability to heal one’s Soul, recovering the energy needed to find an altruistic mission in life, thereby filling one’s Consciousness with a sense of ultimate purpose.
The Challenge: Can you face your deepest wounds & fears? Can you recognise some inner vision or gift that life has given you, & do you have the courage humbly to submit yourself to the task of exploring it?
Key Questions: Where can I find enduring significance in my life? Where in myself might I find wisdom for which there is a great need in the world around me? Where must I guard against dogmatic, unscrupulous, or tyrannical behaviour?

Pluto, 'Fire' &
The Hall of Judgement..
Cultivating a degree of respect for the individuality & autonomy of each human being is part of the Spiritual journey.. The point is that we can imagine our perspective on life altering dramatically a few seconds after we die. Even if we harbor doubts about the reality of an afterlife, we can still use such a perspective as a mental discipline. It puts us right in the cross hairs of high Plutonian thought. Each planet represents a human need. Pluto, it seems, is the last planet in our Solar system, out on the edges. Symbolically, it represents a very high, very refined human need: the hunger for meaning...

**All this with *the Aquarian Ascendant.. in my 10th house.. separating from my natal Pallas in Aquarius.. while both also closely aligned at the focal point of a ‘Yod’ with the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Jupiter-Venus in Cancer.. in my 3rd house.. along with *Mars® in Virgo.. in my 5th house.. while all also closely.. semi-sextile.. square & trine my *Sol-Arc Mercury in Gemini.. in my 2nd house.. while *the Scorpio MC.. in my 7th house.. also closely aligned with my *prog Neptune® in Scorpio.. while both also closely trine the midpoint of my *prog Saturn® in Pisces along with my *prog Pisces MC.. in my 11th house.. while all also forming a ‘grand water trine’ with the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Sun-Jupiter in Cancer.. in my 3rd house.. while all also closely inconjunct.. square & semi-sextile my *prog Jupiter in Gemini.. in my 2nd house.. while *the Aries Part of Fortune.. in my 12th house.. also applying to closely sextile my *prog Gemini Ascendant.. in my 2nd house..

While I also ask then what my dreams I had earlier this morning are trying to say to me a
about my life at this time then.. apart from the obvious symbols that is.. I got *22degLib..

A CHILD GIVING BIRDS A DRINK AT A FOUNTAIN.. You may feel that your hopes & wishes are in need of refreshment. Simple gestures of giving & joy done for others can revitalize situations beyond your expectations. Dropping the "what's in it for me" attitude & adopting caring & sharing ways will bring relief now.

Enjoyment that is experienced in nourishing simple Souls. Innocent reaching out to others. Taking time out to nourish & refresh others.

The Caution: Looking for recognition for small deeds. Being condescending to others.

While here is Dane Rudhyar's take on the same symbol..

A CHILD GIVING BIRDS A DRINK AT A FOUNTAIN.. The concern for simple Souls & the welfare & happiness of less-evolved beings who thirst for life renewal.. What you received from the infinite, you can give to the finite beings that thirst for it.. Man does not need to destroy nature’s wilderness through greed & carelessness; he can transform the wilderness into a garden, whose singing fountains will attract birds.. SOLICITUDE…

Meanwhile it’s now 8.06am.. & here I am also now listening to the start of the song *‘Oh Children’ by Nick Cave from the album *‘The Lyre of Orpheus’ once again.. with my also having heard some of these songs going round & round in my mind over the last few days.. especially the song ‘Easy Money’.. While I also once again note *the Sabian Symbol for the Ascendant as a sign of what is arising at this moment.. & so at *27degAqu.. with this also rather interesting also being the Valentines Day degree..

AN ANCIENT POTTERY BOWL FILLED WITH FRESH VIOLETS.. The importance of traditional skills & artistic values deeply rooted in man’s instinctive feelings as frames of reference for man’s most authentic emotions.. the dependence of the purest feelings of natural living upon the traditions within which they find their most adequate & effective setting.. DELICACY OF FEELING…

While I also include a link to a wikipedia article on meaning of Orpheus at http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Orpheussince I am seemingly so obsessed with Nick Cave's album 'The Lyre of Orpheus' at this time.. especially the song 'Oh Children'.. ie. with the main chorus being, "Lift up your voice".. along with the words "I was held in chains but now I see"..

Orpheus
Orpheus was a legendary musician, poet, & prophet in ancient Greek religion and myth. The major stories about him are centered on his ability to charm all living things and even stones with his music; his attempt to retrieve his wife from the underworld; & his death at the hands of those who could not hear his Divine music. As an archetype of the inspired singer, Orpheus is one of the most significant figures in the reception of classical mythology in Western Culture, portrayed or alluded to in countless forms of art & popular culture including poetry, opera, and painting.

To the Greeks, Orpheus was a founder and prophet of the so-called "Orphic" mysteries. He was credited with the composition of the Orphic Hymns, a collection of which survives. Shrines containing purported relics of Orpheus were regarded as oracles.

**All this with *the Aquarian Ascendant.. in my 10th house.. applying to closely align with my *prog Aquarian Part of Fortune.. while both also closely trine the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Uranus-Mars-Pluto in Libra.. in my 6th house.. while *the Scorpio MC.. in my 7th house.. also separating from its trine to my *Sol-Arc Jupiter in Cancer.. in my 3rd house.. while both also forming a ‘grand water trine’ with my natal Ceres-Chiron in Pisces.. in my 11th house.. while all also closely square.. inconjunct & semi-sextile my *prog Pallas® in Aquarius.. in my 10th house.. while all also closely inconjunct.. semi-sextile.. square & trine my *Sol-Arc Mercury in Gemini.. in my 2nd house.. while *the Aries Part of Fortune.. in my 12th house.. also applying to closely sextile my natal Venus in Gemini along with my *prog Vesta in Gemini.. in my 2nd house.. meanwhile *the Pisces Moon.. in my 11th house.. also separating from my *prog Pisces MC.. while both also closely trine my natal Neptune® in Scorpio.. in my 7th house.. while all also closely sextile & opposing my natal Vesta in Taurus.. in my 1st house…

Meanwhile it’s now 10.43am.. & here I am still listening to *‘The Lyre of Orpheus’ as I also just looked at a spectacular video of the Sun & a massive coronal eruption of plasma at http://www.spaceweather.com/images2012/26jan12/actingup.gif.. once again showing us the awesome power of the Sun..

MORE SOLAR ACTIVITY
Sunspot AR1402, the source of this week's powerful M9-class Solar flare, is acting up again. On Jan. 26th between 0100 UT & 0600 UT, a sequence of C-class magnetic eruptions around the active region hurled a bright coronal mass ejection over the Sun's north pole, shown here in a coronagraph image from the Solar & Heliospheric Observatory:

While I also once look to *the Sabian Symbol for the Ascendant at this time as a symbol of what this is all about in this moment for me of looking at the wonder of our Sun.. & so I read at *30degPis..

ROCK FORMATION RESEMBLING A FACE IS IDEALISED BY A BOY WHO TAKES IT AS HIS IDEAL OF GREATNESS, & AS HE GROWS UP, BEGINS TO LOOK LIKE IT.. The power of clearly visualised ideals to mold the life of the visualiser.. the capacity for Self-transformation latent in man.. developed through visualisation.. the power to produce & guide the growth of the future ‘plant‘.. the power of archetypes as factors conditioning life processes.. ARCHETYPALISATION…

**All this with *the Pisces Ascendant.. in my 11th house.. applying to closely align with my *Sol-Arc Juno in Pisces.. while both also closely trine *Juno in Scorpio.. in my 8th house.. while all also closely sextile my *Sol-Arc Capricorn Sth Node along with my natal Capricorn Moon along with *Mercury in Capricorn.. in my 9th house.. while all also closely square & semi-sextile *the Sagittarian MC.. in my 8th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. inconjunct & square the midpoint of my *prog Aquarian Part of Fortune along with *Neptune in Aquarius.. in my 10th house.. while all also closely forming a ’grand water trine’ with.. my *Sol-Arc Cancer Nth Node.. in my 3rd house.. while both also closely sextile.. opposing.. trine.. part of a ’Yod’ with & square my natal Taurus Sun.. in my 2nd house.. while all also closely sextile.. while both also closely sextile my natal Taurus Sun.. in my 2nd house.. while all also closely forming a ‘Yod’ with.. semi-sextile.. square.. sextile & trine my *Sol-Arc Mars-Pluto in Libra along with *Saturn in Libra.. conjunct my natal Libra Descendant.. while *the Taurus Part of Fortune.. in my 1st house.. also applying to closely sextile my *Sol-Arc Pisces Moon.. in my 11th house.. while both also closely trine & opposing the midpoint of my *prog Uranus in Virgo along with my natal Mars-Pluto in Virgo.. in my 5th house.. while all also closely sextile & trine my *prog Cancer Sun.. in my 3rd house.. while all also forming a ‘Yod‘ with & square *the Sagittarian Nth Node along with my *prog Sagittarian Sth Node.. in my 8th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile & forming a ‘mutable grand cross‘ with *the Gemini Sth Node along with my *prog Gemini Nth Node.. in my 2nd house.. meanwhile *the Pisces Moon.. in my 11th house.. also applying to closely align with my natal Ceres-Chiron in Pisces.. while both also closely trine my *Sol-Arc Jupiter in Cancer.. in my 3rd house…

**NB: Sabian Oracle used at http://www.sabiansymbols.com/page11bd.html?id=974.. along with shorter secondary interpretations from the book 'An Astrological Mandala: The Cycle of Transformations & Its 360 Symbolic Phases' by Dane Rudhyar.. And for the astrologically minded all aspects mentioned are, as usual, within about 1 degree of exact.. Along with notes on planets & houses from the books, 'The Book of Pluto' & 'The Inner Sky' by Steven Forrest.. available at http://www.forrestastrology.com/...

Mars in Virgo.. Retrograde 2012.....

2012-01-24T11:57:00.005+11:00

And I begin with some more notes from my daily journal..

20/1/12 AND.. meanwhile it’s now 1pm or so.. & here I am having had another Greek salad for lunch, still working on HEALTHY HABITS, after I also spent another quiet morning reflecting on my life & looking back at various Sabian Oracle questions & answers I have asked about my life from my Sabian Oracle journal over the last few years.. but mostly looking at my life over the last 12 months or so..........

Meanwhile what does all this mean for me.. ie. *Mars in Virgo.. in my 5th house.. turning retrograde on January 25th.. And so extending the transit of Mars in Virgo, from Nov 12th through to when it finally moves into the next sign on July 3rd.. ie. allowing us to do some extra “work” on being assertive, ie. Mars, & moving forward in our lives.. in regard to Virgo stuff.. ie. healthy habits.. & of being of service to others in the world in some way etc.. ie. Virgo.. Along with also noting the house it will be transiting through for this time.. And for me that is my natal 5th house..

And so I begin with working out what all this means with the meaning of the planet Mars itself.. that will be appearing, from the Earths point of view, to travelling backwards through the zodiac for the next 5 months or so.. spending almost 7 months in the sign of Virgo, the Virgin..

Mars
The Gift: The ability to act decisively, moving onto the offensive, defending your rightful territory, & claiming what is legitimately your own.
The Challenge: Are you brave enough to live like a ‘Spiritual warrior’ – or will you let life steamroller you?
Key Questions: What battles must I face? Where must I be more assertive if I am not to suffer pointless conflict or strife? How can I sharpen my will? How do I express my aggressiveness?

Virgo, The Virgin
Element: Earth
Mode: Mutable
Archetypes: The Servant, The Martyr, The Perfectionist, The Analyst.

One can give nothing whatever without
giving oneself - that is to say, risking
oneself. If one cannot risk oneself, then
one is simply incapable of giving.

James Baldwin

The Symbol
The Virgin. Of all symbols, the most difficult to grasp. We think of virginity & inexperience. But this in not a symbol of inexperience. Nor prudery. Nor any flight from passion.

The Virgin is an image of purity. Nothing has possessed her. She is attached to nothing, wants nothing, fears nothing. Nothing holds her. She is free, unbound by any Earthly drama.

Yet, she is here, on the Earth. What does the world offer one who seeks nothing but perfection? What can she do? She waits, aloof as Madonna. She works on herself. And to pass the time, she helps out where she can.

Strategy
The Virgin symbolises our capacity to be of use to other people. And that service is a method of Self-discovery, never a form of Self-abasement. The point is not simply to serve. It is to express the Self through service.

Virgo must choose some aspect of her being. She must polish it, educate it. She must get it certified. And then she must offer it to the world.

Out of kindness? No, not really, although it often looks that way. The giving of that gift is part of the Virgin's strategy. It is her part of her effort to perfect herself.

Virgo is not here to serve other people so much as to serve the principle of service. In doing that, she transforms herself. She takes the most perfectible part of herself & becomes utterly identified with it. She becomes her work.

To perfect the Self through relentless idealism, humble Self-assessment, & an unyielding desire to offer a gift to the world: that is Virgo's strategy.

The 5th House
Traditional Name: House of Children.
Corresponding Sign: Leo.
Associated Planet: The Sun.
Terrain: Pleasure. Creative Self-expression. Falling in love. Playfulness.
Successfully Navigated: Joyous anticipation of each day. The development of a creative outlet through which tangible evidence of one's internal processes may be expressed. Capacity to establish initial rapport with interesting strangers.
Unsuccessfully Navigated: Abusive, Self-destructive, uncontrollable relationships with particular pleasures. Creative blockages. Inability to relax & play.

While also I have to bear in mind the fact that I was born with Mars, Pluto & Uranus in Virgo all closely conjunct or aligned in my natal 5th house of 'creativity' & 'Self-expression'.. And all closely opposing Saturn, Ceres & Chiron in Pisces.. in my 11th house of 'hopes & dreams' & 'like minded-others' etc.. While all also closely trine, & sextile.. both favorable aspects, to my natal Mercury in Taurus.. in my 1st house of 'Self'.. While my 5th-11th house opposing planets also forming a 'mutable grand cross' with my natal Jupiter, Venus & Gemini Nth Node.. in my 2nd house of 'Self-worth' & 'proving oneself to oneself'.. along with my natal Sagittarian Sth Node.. in my 8th house of 'deep healing' & 'total Self-honesty' etc.. And so to work out what all this might mean.. lets also have a look at the meaning of these other planets etc..

Mars conj Uranus & Pluto in Virgo/5th house..
Uranus
The Gift: The ability to distinguish our true individuality from the desires & fantasies about us held by our family, friends, & close associates.
The Challenge: Can you stand up to the pressures of conformity, asserting your right to be yourself in the face of censure & rejection - & in the face of whatever Social conventions you may have unwittingly internalised?
Key Questions: In what area of my life must I learn to function without Social approval? Where must I learn to break the rules & follow my own path? Where will I consistently receive the most misleading advice? Which authorities am I destined to offend?

Pluto
The Gift: The ability to heal one’s Soul, recovering the energy needed to find an altruistic mission in life, thereby filling one’s Consciousness with a sense of ultimate purpose.
The Challenge: Can you face your deepest wounds & fears? Can you recognise some inner vision or gift that life has given you, & do you have the courage humbly to submit yourself to the task of exploring it?
Key Questions: Where can I find enduring significance in my life? Where in myself might I find wisdom for which there is a great need in the world around me? Where must I guard against dogmatic, unscrupulous, or tyrannical behaviour?

While here is the meaning of my natal 11th house Saturn in Pisces.. also closely opposing my natal 5th house Mars-Pluto-Uranus in Virgo..

Saturn in Pisces/11th house..
Saturn
The Gift: The ability to see reality as it is & respond to it clearly & effectively.
The Challenge: Can you put aside wishful or fearful thinking & respond to concrete issues with self-discipline, patience & practical strategies - & if necessary can you do it alone?
Key Questions: In what area of life must I learn to act alone? Where will lack of self-discipline lead most quickly to sorrow? Where will my ability to dream & have faith be most severely tested?

Pisces, The Fishes
Element: Water
Mode: Mutable
Archetypes: The Mystic, The Dreamer, The Poet.

We are... luminous beings. We are
perceivers. We are an awareness; we are
not objects; we have no solidity. We are
boundless...

Don Juan Matus,
quoted by
Carlos Castaneda

The Symbol
Ocean. Not Fishes, but the home of the fish: Mother Ocean, the realm of undersea sierras, of luminous plankton, of lost cities. Ocean, mother of life, brooding symbol of all that is impenetrable. All that can be felt but never known.

Ocean: washing the shores of continents, carrying art & thoughts among the nations, carrying war, carrying disease & pestilence, carrying food & wine, poets & musicians, endlessly mixing & blending the Cultures of Earth.

The Piscean ocean: liquid, flowing symbol of the unutterable mystery that binds us all together.

The symbol of life.

The 11th House
Traditional Name: House of Friends.
Corresponding Sign: Aquarius.
Associated Planets: Uranus & Saturn.
Terrain: The future; plans, goals, life themes. Identification with groups, organisations, movements, associations, one's crowd.
Successfully Navigated: Concrete, specific sense of direction in life. Realistic yet inspiring goals, rooted in Self-knowledge. Network of relationships that enhance & support the realisation of personal goals.
Unsuccessfully Navigated: Vagueness of purpose; drifting. Inability to make a commitment at any level. Unrealistic, quixotic, whimsical goals. Friends & associates who only contribute to one's confusion & drifting.

Mercury in Taurus/1st house..
Mercury
The Gift: The capacity to replace familiar but outdated pictures of the world with new ideas & points of view. The ability to transmit & receive information.
The Challenge: Can you grant yourself permission to see more clearly tomorrow than you do today?
Key Questions: What are my intellectual & communicative strengths? What are my intellectual & communicative weaknesses?

Taurus, The Bull
Element: Earth
Mode: Fixed
Archetypes: The Earth Spirit, The Musician, The Silent One.

Strive for simplicity, but learn to mistrust it.

Alfred North Whitehead

The Symbol
Exhausted by the fiery furnace of Aries, Consciousness seeks pools of cool water, the solace of ancient stones, the healing rustle of birdsong among the green leaves. It seeks peace. It trades the harangue for the symphony, passion for silence. No longer incandescent with the fire of battle, Spirit reaches gnarled hands into the Earth, feeling for seeds, for clay, for the flesh of the planet itself.

The symbol is a bull. Not the enraged monster furious at the red flag of a matador. Not the ferocious bull. But rather the tranquil one, standing solitary beneath a spreading April oak, quietly surveying the grass & Sun, cattle & Earth. Nothing frightens him. Gone is the fearsome posturing of the Ram. The Bull is so in control of his world, so far beyond fear that fearlessness itself has become meaningless to him.

The Arian war has been won. Taurus is at peace.

However all this is also complicated by the fact that I also have an Aries Ascendant.. also being ruled by my natal 5th house Mars in Virgo.. conjunct Uranus & Pluto in Virgo..

The Ascendant/1st House
Traditional Name: House of Personality.
Corresponding Sign: Aries.
Associated Planet: Mars.
Terrain: The establishment of identity.
Successfully Navigated: Clarity & decisiveness in one's actions. A sense of control over one's direction in life. A sharply focused sense of identity.
Unsuccessfully Navigated: Fearfulness & lack of Self assurance leading either to inflexibility & tyranny over the wills of others or to Self effacement, vagueness of purpose, & the assumption of defeat.

Aries, The Ram
Element: Fire
Mode: Cardinal
Archetypes: The Warrior, The Pioneer, The Daredevil, The Survivor.

Love God, & do what you will.

St Augustine.

The Symbol
The Ram. Horns down, charging. Fierce. Unyielding. Will the Ram crack his skull? He doesn't care. Nothing can intimidate him. Nothing can force him to swerve. Victory - or Self-destruction in the effort to attain it: two destinies. One will claim him.

Aries is the life force, the will to exist. First there is nothing. Then there is something. Life thrusts itself out of nowhere, claiming a place in the void. The tone of the process is unflinching, explosive, violent. It conjures up pictures of volcanoes of white-hot Stars bursting into tattered nebula's.

A rabid dog backs you up to a precipice, fangs bared, mouth foaming. You have a hunting knife in your hand. He moves in, growling, eyes glaring red. You brace yourself. No more veneer of gentility & education. No more language. Nothing left but the animal rage to survive. You scream. You drive for the throat.

You have found Aries.

And all this too while bearing in mind the basic elements of my personality & Soul.. ie. An Aries Ascendant.. Aries & the Ascendant both represent boldly going out into life & all it's experiences.. also being ruled by Mars in Virgo.. in my 5th house of 'Self-experession' & 'creativity'.. along with my natal Capricorn Moon.. in my 9th house of 'wide experience' & 'philosophy' etc.. ruled by Saturn in Pisces.. in my 11th house of 'hopes & dreams' & 'like-minded others' etc.. along with the central core at the heart of my life's lesson, which is the Taurus Sun.. in my 2nd house of 'Self-worth' & gathering the required 'resources' to carry out our life's mission.. And so most importantly of all here.. "proving ourselves to ourselves".. While also bearing in mind that I also have an Aquarian Midheaven, the sign on my natal 10th house cusp.. ie. indicating our "public job description" on this good Earth.. ruled by Uranus in Virgo.. in my 5th house of 'creativity' & 'Self-expression' etc.. conjunct my natal Mars-Pluto in Virgo.. While all these planets also closely sextile.. trine & opposing my natal Neptune(r) in Scorpio.. in my 7th house of 'relationships' or 'partnerships'...

While here also in the story of my natal Taurus Sun.. the Sun being the overall theme of one's life.. with the Sun being the most important part of our Universe.. from the Earth's point of view that is.. controlling the seasons here on Earth etc.. & providing it's life-giving energy for all life to exist on this planet.. While my natal Taurus Sun, also being colored by the fact that it is ruled by *Venus in Gemini.. along with conjunct my natal Jupiter-Venus-Gemini Nth Node..

The Sun in Taurus conj..
Jupiter conjunct Venus in Gemini/2nd House..
The Sun
The Gift: The ability to alter basic values & priorities, thereby allowing one’s actual behavior to reflect developments in his or her evolving inner life.
The Challenge: Are you strong enough to change the very basis of your identity, allowing yourself the freedom to become what you have never been before?
Key Questions: Who am I? What kinds of experiences help me strengthen & clarify my Self-image? Where can I find & expand my personal power? What unconscious biases shape my worldview?

Taurus, The Bull
Element: Earth
Mode: Fixed
Archetypes: The Earth Spirit, The Musician, The Silent One.

Strive for simplicity, but learn to mistrust it.

Alfred North Whitehead

Jupiter
The Gift: The ability to both envision & seize upon new possibilities & potentials for the future.
The Challenge: Can you recognise something better than you have ever known, utterly new & positive, that now lies within your reach - & can you devise a way to grasp it?
Key Questions: What kinds of experiences will help me feel more faith in myself & in life? Where might I be taking too much for granted?

Gemini, The Twins
Element: Air
Mode: Mutable
Archetypes: The Witness, The Teacher, The Storyteller, The Journalist.

Behead yourself! Dissolve your whole
body into Vision; become seeing,
seeing, seeing!

Jalalu'l Din Rumi

The Symbol
The Twins. Who are they? Brothers. Sisters. Soul mates. Lovers. Two beings, irrevocably bound together, fascinated with each other. Two beings, each hell-bent on unravelling the others mystery, yet separated by an impenetrable wall of misunderstanding.

What do they do? They talk. They listen. They scan each other for clues, for meaningful gestures, for half-hidden innuendos. Nothing escapes them. No detail is too minute. No trail is too cold.

A bomb goes off in a puzzle factory. A thousand puzzles, blasted to smithereens. A million pieces, scattered like confetti. Two mad geniuses, both on Methedrine, attack the problem, each one swearing to have five hundred puzzles assembled by dawn.

Imagine it. That's Gemini.

The 2nd House
Traditional Name: House of Money.
Corresponding Sign: Taurus.
Associated Planet: Venus.
Terrain: Challenges to Self-esteem. Money & possessions.
Successfully Navigated: Confidence & Self-esteem based on concrete Self-adjustment & Self development. Effective worry-free management of resources.
Unsuccessfully Navigated: Materialism & equation of Self-worth with the value of one's possessions. Lack of Self-respect. Fear of risk. Collapse of willpower leading to failure in the world. Life limiting concern with material reality.

While also noting here my natal Neptune(r) in Scorpio, in my 7th house.. closely sextile my natal 5th house Mars-Pluto-Uranus in Virgo.. along with also closely trine my natal Saturn in Pisces, in my 11th house..

Neptune in Scorpio/7th house..
Neptune
The Gift: The ability to experience serenity, inspiration, & transcendence in the face of life’s drama’s; the ability to receive a Vision.
The Challenge: Can you intentionally enter an altered state of Consciousness, opening your awareness to what we might call God or your deeper Self ?
Key Questions: Where must I learn to de-emphasise logic & function intuitively? Where is narrow Self-interest most inappropriate & destructive to me? Where am I most vulnerable to mistaking wishes & fears for reality?

Scorpio, The Scorpion
Element: Water
Mode: Fixed
Archetypes: The Detective, The Scorcerer, The Hypnotist

The ally we must cultivate is the part of
our enemy that knows the truth.
Mohannes K. Ghandi

The Symbol
You lie in your sleeping bag, rigid as a corpse. The desert Sun creeps higher, threatening to turn the fillings in your teeth to molten gold.

One move & you die: a scorpion stands motionless on your belly.

Tension in your marriage. Critical politicking in your profession. Yesterday those thoughts crowded your world. Today, with that scorpion standing there, they seem as irrelevant as a dim red Star in a distant galaxy.

With that scorpion on your belly, only the awesome intensity of the present moment remains. Everything else - all pretense, all vanity, all ambition - is ripped away. Only essentials remain. And mind, naked & alert, focused sharp as a cut gem, stands ready to live or die.

That attitude or state of Consciousness is Scorpio.

The Descendant/7th House
Traditional Name: House of Marriage.
Corresponding Sign: Libra.
Associated Planet: Venus.
Terrain: Intimate relationships. Identification with others.
Successfully Navigated: Relationships characterised by: 1/Equality between the partners. 2/Open-endedness; ie. the relationship can be expected to survive changes in circumstance. 3/Specialness; unique rapport; "magic."
Unsuccessfully Navigated: A pattern of chronic submissiveness or directiveness in intimate relationships. Inability to form a stable emotional bond. Fear of intimacy. Extreme dependency or extreme fear of dependency.

Meanwhile also turning back to the original purpose of this blog, examining the meaning of this current Mars retrograde cycle, I also turn to look at *the Sabian Symbol for *Mars in Virgo as it turns retrograde on Jan 24th.. at 23deg05.. And so I note the symbol for *23degVir..

A LION TAMER DISPLAYS HIS SKILL & CHARACTER.. The need to tame one's vital energies in order to fulfil one's Destiny.. The true aristocrat is the individual who is in complete control of his or her vital & emotional energies; at the Spiritual level this includes the overcoming of pride - pride in one's strength & mastery, & the to an exalted status or Social office.. The whole process of Socio-ethical & Occult-Spiritual conditioning of the individual aims at the control of our "animal nature".. The energies of this nature can be put to many uses.. Implied in any process of taming & training is resoluteness & patience.. RESOLUTENESS & PATIENCE...

**NB: Notes on signs, planets & houses from the book 'The Inner Sky' by Steven Forrest.. available at http://www.forrestastrology.com/.. Sabian Symbol from Dane Rudhyars' book 'An Astrological Mandala: The Cycle of Transformation & It's 360 Symbolic Phases'...

Looking Into Your Past Life or Lives.......

2012-01-23T12:46:00.010+11:00

Meanwhile it’s now 10.09am.. & here I am having just posted my final comment on another blog by Mystic Medusa that I got deeply involved in at http://mysticmedusa.com/2011/02/astro-gaga-its-your-past-life-competition/#comment-181554.. an epic post in 3 parts.. While I also thought to myself as I posted this 3rd & final reply that this is probably also my next blog.. And all this too as I continue to listen to the sounds of my Tibetan Ritual Cd still playing away over & over again in the background.. And all this too beginning with my reading the latest blog by Mystic at http://mysticmedusa.com/2012/01/sponsored-by-the-cat-goddess/.. about the just discovered 3000 year old tomb of an Egyptian singer..

It's Your Past Life Competition
Using your South Node as the clue, sketch one of your past lives.
The South Node is always exact opposite to the North Node and you can find it on your Astrodienst chart or I am sure kindly peeps will help you here. Unless they don’t want rivals, lol.

The South Node is said to signify your past lives; so you’re going for the sign it is in, the house it is in and – for the smarty-pants – any aspects it makes.

This counts as a lesson as well as competition.

As always, bonus points for wit & humor. You can enter if you’re insanely astro-erudite or if you just figured out what your Sun Sign was the week before last.

Just figure out your South Node and riff off it.

For example; mine is Saggo/11th House and square Mars/Pluto/Uranus & Saturn.

So my entry would be something like that I was a traveling bard with vast acquaintance and a taste for mead, gossip, wenches, new tunes + being a double agent between warring religions. The latter didn’t work out too well. I still – this is true – in modern life – get weak knees when I see a suit of armor and not weak-knees in a cute way.

While here is my birth chart.. also note that this chart does not show the Sth Node of the Moon, but its' simply located, as always, exactly opposite my Nth Node of the Moon, at 13deg49 of Gemini..

While here then is my answer to this question into who I am, & have been before using *the Sabian Symbols from Dane Rudhyar's book 'An Astrological Mandala' as a guide..

It’s Your Past Life Competition
Well I was also born in the same ‘grand mutable cross’ generation as you, 'Mystic,' ie. right in the middle of the 60's revolution against all the 'old' conservative ways of the past etc.. ie. under the 1965 conjunction of Uranus-Mars-Pluto in Virgo et al.. in the 5th.. With a Sagittarian Sth Node, in my natal 8th house.. the sign of the Gypsy or 'the Philospher'.. in the traditional house of 'life & death' etc.. And one of my favourite movies is ‘Man of La Mancha’.. Don Quixote rides again.. Yes, fearing men riding in armour indeed.. Or at least the ones working for the Inquisition that is.. as opposed to Don Quixote, 'the knight errant'.. at http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Man_of_La_Mancha_(film).. With this classic story of course being written about the infamous period of the Spanish Inquisitions.. It is such a powerful, Soul uplifting & deeply moving film for me……….

Oh yes, then of course there is also *the Sabian Symbol for my & all those born in mid 1965, with natal Sag Sth Node at 13-14 deg Sag. And so at *14degSag..

THE GREAT PYRAMID & THE SPHINX.. The enduring power of occult knowledge & of its quasi-Divine Custodians, “Seed-Men” of a previous cycle of existence.. suggests that occult knowledge & the traditional process of acquiring it is still available, & that by accepting their principles modern individuals can best meet the challenge of the present world.. THE POWER OF SPIRITUAL ANCESTRY…

And who are the one’s who are actually living this out & who are not, perhaps the past always repeats itself, in one way or another.. And are’nt we all here trying to remember who we are etc? Apart from all the other “stuff” etc..

Also speaking of the Moons Sth Node, the symbol for my natal Capricorn Moon is, at *29degCap..

A WOMAN READING TEA LEAVES.. The ability to see the Signature of hidden meaning in every occurrence drawing one’s attention.. What is implied is the ability not only to perceive the facts of everyday existence, but to see through these facts & discover how they are related to the realm of basic meanings or archetypal processes.. ie. by true Clairvoyance, the capacity to “see” in everything the “signature” of deeper realities.. CLAIRVOYANCE…

While of course I then turn to the symbol from Dane Rudhyar’s book for my Sag Sth Nod ruler, ie. Jupiter in Gemini, at 6deg26 Gem, conj the Taurus Sun, along with Venus & the Gem Nth Node, in the 2nd.. And so at *7degGem..

A WELL WITH A BUCKET & ROPE UNDER THE SHADE OF MAJESTIC TREES.. Man’s primordial faith in the hidden sustaining power of life.. the power of Collective & bio-Spiritual energies which sustain all Earth-rooted Cultures is stressed, in contrast to whatever the technological mind can make available to increase personal comfort & mastery over matter.. A FUNDAMENTAL TRUST & CO-OPERATION WITH LIFE…

While the symbol for my natal Venus in Gemini, at *9deg39.. also reads, at *10degGem..

AN AIRPLANE PERFORMING A NOSE DIVE.. A superior ability to challenge nature & play with danger.. Through the controlled use of mental powers, one is able to challenge the most basic force in nature: gravitation.. But what he or she challenges is within, as well as outside.. The symbol has a strong sense of finality.. No half measures exist.. One is committed irrevocably to success or failure – at least as a Conscious & Self-reliant mind.. The alternatives are clear-cut.. MIND V MATTER…

And meanwhile this also leads me to the ruler of my natal Jupiter-Venus-Gem Nth Node, ie. Mercury in Taurus, in my 1st.. at *7deg41.. ie. as the final depositor in this story of my birth chart, in mutual reception with Venus in Gemini.. my nodal story.. And so I read the symbol at *8degTau..

A SLEIGH ON LAND UNCOVERED BY SNOW.. The value of anticipating & preparing for expectable conditions.. a combination of two factors, “the sleigh,” a product of traditional skill, & the ability to foresee & prepare for a future situation.. This relates to Taurus 7, ie. the “Woman of Samaria,” ie. the capacity to receive a revelation of the future state of human evolution, though in a different & subconscious sense.. but also of relying on the natural order of unfoldment of all life processes.. FUTURE ORIENTED IMAGINATION…

AND.. so this little story reveals exactly how I so often feel about my life & of life in general.. but only perhaps fully understood after years of Self exploration, personal experience & eternal questioning etc.. ie. questioning of myself & the world we all live in.. Like when I was very young asking the adults what happens when we die, after someone in the family had died.. "Oh nothing," I was told, but something deep within me knew this was not correct, & that the supposed grown ups of this world did know everything about life after all.. No, that doesn't sound right to me, I immediately thought to myself.. And so my sense of suspicion about what the Consensus world had to say about the great mysteries of life, ie. virtually nothing.. accept for some secular or religious doctrine, was made very apparent to me at a very young age…..

Meanwhile also referring to the core of who we are & are becoming I also refer to *the Sabian Symbol for my natal Taurus Sun, at 29deg30.. And so I refer to the symbol for *30degTau..

A PEACOCK PARADING ON THE TERRACE OF AN OLD CASTLE.. The personal display of inherited gifts.. The peacock is the bird consecrated to Venus; in occult tradition the Promethean Spirits who gave to animal mankind the Divine gift of Self-Conscious intelligence had come from "Venus".. This peacock symbol indeed confirms the Social status of the owner of the ancestral estate.. It indicates a consummation of individual effort: & it suggests that such a consummation is hardly possible except when a line of "ancestors" - biological or Spiritual - forms its base.. CONSUMMATION...

While also in regard to my ongoing search into "Who am I," & the idea of who one was in the previous life or lives, I also turn to read the symbol for the previous degree showing where we have come from.. ie. the 'karmic degree' or simply that which came before.. & so I read at *29degTau..

TWO COBBLERS WORKING AT A TABLE.. The twofold character of Man's understanding.. the feet are the symbol of understanding.. Understanding differs from mere knowledge because it implies at least some degree of identification in depth with what is being "understood".. Moreover it is imposssible to understand anything except when its opposite is taken into consideration.. the way in which a mature individual mind works in an attempt to gain perspective.; a true perspective becomes the foundation upon ehich to build a new approach to life.. PERSPECTIVE...

While I also then turn to the Sabian Symbol following my natal Sun's degree to see what I am ultimately moving towards, or the next step in my evolutionary journey.. & so at *1degGem..

A GLASS-BOTTOMED BOAT REVEALS UNDERSEA WONDERS.. The revelation of unconscious energies & submerged pyschic structures.. an individual person can learn to be aware of the as yet hidden contents of the Collective psyche.. ie. the psychic depths below the normal level of Consciousness.. The Conscious mind must have became, in part at least, transluscent.. At this first stage of the "discovery" process one can only speak of vision, not identification.. The feeling is one of wonder, "I did not know that this could exist! How beautiful!" or "How exciting!".. A new dimension of reality is perceived by the ernest enquirer.. A NEW DIMENSION OF REALITY...

**NB: Sabian Symbols from ‘An Astrological Mandala: The Cycle of Transformation & It’s 360 Symbolic Phases’ by Dane Rudhyar...

Looking Back Over My Life.. Using My 'New Years' Transits.......

2012-01-13T17:47:00.056+11:00

And so here I begin this blog on my spending some time on my reviewing my New Years charts to see how these New Years transits reflected the events in my life each year.. And so here I begin with some notes from my daily journal.. While here I have also begun this story of astrological review of my life with an image of the Northern Lights or the Aurora Borealis along with the Moon in the background taken back on Jan 12 last year.. ie. an image of the Earths protective magnetic field being bombarded by Solar radiation from the Sun.. at http://www.spaceweather.com/.. With astrology & its affect on us all, ie. "we are made of Star stuff".. Or in other words everthing in the Universe being made of the same basic elements & particles etc.. & constantly being bombarding by Cosmic rays or radiation etc in one form or another.. as a kind of Cosmic link or radio channels etc..

11/1/12 Meanwhile after adding to & editing my latest blog I started doing a comment to add to it all.. before I then realised this was all turning into my next blog.. ie. Looking back at my New Years Transits throughout my life.. well not every year.. but just some of the major highlights, so far.. So here is what I started writing..........

AND… All this too while also wondering about my recently going over my New Years transits throughout each year of my life.. Starting from the year 1988 when I had a head-on car accident with a young woman who lost control of her car.. Throwing up the issue of life & death big time for me.. And perhaps persuading me that it was time to move out of home.. before I died.. ie. before having really lived etc.. And so with 1988 beginning with the New Years Taurus Moon, in my 2nd house, almost exactly aligning with my natal Taurus Sun.. While both also almost exactly aligned with my *Sol-Arc Mercury in Taurus, along with my *prog Vesta in Taurus.. While all also almost exactly trine *Ceres in Capricorn, also closely aligned with my natal Capricorn Moon, in my 9th house.. And all at around 29 degrees plus of each sign.. While *Neptune in Capricorn along with *Pallas in Capricorn, in my 9th house.. both also almost exactly trine my natal Mercury in Taurus, in my 1st house.. All at around 7 degrees plus of each sign.. While here I also include my 1988 New Years chart.. along with my birth chart.. All charts courtesy of http://www.astro.com/..

While also noting that at each New Year throughout my life, the Capricorn Sun is also always in my natal 9th house.. the house of my natal Capricorn Moon, the house of 'religion & philosophy,' & of gaining a wide & broad education into the deep mystery of life & the Universe itself.. ie. broadening one's horizon's in life.. mind, body & Spirit.. And not only that I have a Sagittarian Sth Node of the Moon, in my 8th house.. ruled by Jupiter in Gemini, closely aligned with my natal Taurus Sun, along with Venus in Gemini along with the Gemini Nth Node, in my 2nd house.. So big ideas & lots of information, ie. Jupiter in Gemini.. are always going to be important in my establishing my identity in this life.. ie. the Sun, as one's core identity, & the theme of Self reliance doubled with the Sun in Taurus & the 2nd house.. not the mention Venus there too.. With Venus/Taurus & the 2nd house all being about Self reliance & proving oneself to oneself.. as well as perhaps to others.. a deep love & valuing of conversation & ideas, ie. Venus in Gemini..

While also in 1994, the year I got married, the New Years transit highlight was *the Capricorn Sun, in my 9th house, closely sextile *Jupiter in Scorpio, in my 7th house.. while both also forming an almost exact 'Yod,' otherwise known as a 'finger of fate' aspect, with my natal Venus in Gemini, in my 2nd house.. All being around 9 degrees plus of each sign. And of course Venus is the natural ruler of love & relationships, as well as being the ruler of my natal 7th house, of relationships.. Not to mention *Saturn in Aquarius, in my 10th house, sometimes known as the house of marriage, the most visible house in the chart, forming an almost exact 'grand air trine' with my *prog Gemini Sun, in my 2nd house, the house of 'Self worth,' along with *Juno in Libra, in my 6th house, the house of 'gaining skills' & of 'being service' etc.. Juno also begin associated with marriage, as the wife of Zeus.. All at around 26 degrees plus of each sign.. Oh also & why did I just get a sudden attack of almost diarrhoea at this time I began writing about this last aspect.. While then there was perhaps the greatest turning point in my life in the year 1995 when my son Aiden was born on Feb 2, my wife's birthday.. And then died 4 months later of SIDS or cot death.. resulting in the subsequent end of my marriage at the end of the year.. With this world changing year for me starting me down the 'road less travelled,' but also eventually a path of great personal individuation & seemingly never ending discovery.. And this year monumental year beginning with *Pluto in Scorpio, closely aligned with my 8th house cusp.. the traditional house of 'death'.. almost exactly opposing my natal Taurus Sun, in my 2nd house.. With Pluto of course being 'the Lord of the Underworld'.. while the natal Sun also symbolising one's core identity.. So this year began with what was going to be a huge shakeup for me.. looking back on it all now through the foresic lens of astrology.. And even if I was into astrology way back then, I just couldn't have known of course exactly what kid of shake-up would occur in my life & how it would all play out etc.. both Pluto & my natal Sun being between 29-10 degrees of each sign..

While then there is the year 1998, another major year of change in my life, when I first went to *‘Insight Seminars’.. the 'Awakening & Opening Heart' series of seminars or experiential workshops.. a deep group & Self process work etc.. With the New Years transits featuring, *the Moon in Aquarius along with *Venus in Aquarius.. both sitting almost exactly conjunct my natal Aquarian MC.. while all also likewise closely trine my *prog Vesta in Gemini.. in my 2nd house.. All at around 3 degrees plus of each sign.. along with *Neptune in Capricorn.. in my 9th house.. also likewise almost exactly aligned with my natal Capricorn Moon.. at around 28 degrees plus.. along with *Pluto in Sagittarius.. in my 8th house.. almost exactly opposing my natal Jupiter in Gemini.. in my 2nd house.. both around 6 degrees plus of each sign.. along with *Saturn in Aries.. in my 12th house.. also almost exactly trine & sextile my natal Sagittarian Sth Node.. in my 8th house.. along with my natal Gemini Nth Node.. in my 2nd house.. And all this too with also my *prog Sun also having just recently moved into the sign of Cancer, ruled by the Moon.. ie. a whole new 30 year phase of my life beginning, with the *prog Sun moving at 1 degree of each year.. With the sign of Cancer being a time for much Self nurturing & personal investigation & healing etc.. a time of deep Self discovery & Self-revelation.. ie. the Moon/Cancer archetype.. the archetype of the Great Mother.. a time to experience the feeling of "safety" & "security" in the world.. With the Sun in the natal chart being the central theme or the core of one's Self development .. or the main theme we are learning as we move through this life.. just like the literal Sun being that which gives "life" & meaning to all the other planets etc.. And so also with the *prog Sun.. indicating the central lesson we are also learning & adding it's flavor or colour to our natal Sun theme.. ie. "As above.. so below".. While here are my 1994, 1995 & 1998 New Years charts..

Meanwhile looking at my 1999 New Years transits, ie. the year I first travelled overseas to another country, on a 3 week trip to Nepal with my 'Insight' friends, including a trek through the Himalayas to the Everest Base Camp.. one of the most remarkable experiences of my life.. I note the year beginning for me with my *Sol-Arc Mercury in Gemini.. closely conjunct my natal Venus in Gemini.. in my 2nd house of 'Self-worth'.. both closely opposed by *Pluto in Sagittarius.. in my 8th house of 'renewal & Self honesty'.. With all at 9-10 degrees of each sign.. Along with *Mercury in Sagittarius.. in my 8th house.. also closely aligned with my *Sol-Arc Neptune in Sagittarius.. both at 20-21 degrees.. While *Chiron in Sagittarius.. conjunct my 8th house cusp.. also closely opposing my natal Taurus Sun.. in my 2nd house.. whlie both also closely sextile & trine my natal Capricorn Moon.. in my 9th house.. While all also closely trine & sextile *Ceres in Pisces.. in my 11th house of 'hopes & dreams' & 'like-minded others'.. All being between about 28-29 degrees of each sign.. And with the sign of Sagittarius being so highlighted at this time of my first big overseas trip in a forirgn land.. With Sagittarius always being about "expanding ones horizons" in life one way or another, being the sign of the Gypsy or the Philosopher etc.. with these theme of broadening ones horizons or view of the world also being mirrored with my natal 9th house Capricorn Moon.. the 9th house being traditionally known as the 'house of long jounrneys'.. often over sea or water.. with Jupiter/Sagittarius & the 9th house all representing the same idea or theme of expansion.. Not to mention *Jupiter in Pisces.. in my 11th house of 'hopes & dreams' & 'like minded-others'.. also closely aligned with my natal Ceres-Chiron in Pisces.. Also with this year beginning with *the Gemini Moon.. in my 2nd house of 'Self-worth' & 'resources'.. closely trine *Mars in Libra.. in my 6th house of 'service' & 'meeting one's mentors' etc..

And so here is the New Years chart for 1999..

While then there is of course the year 2000, when I did 'Insight 4'.. ie. a 26 day group experience with 30 others.. with a variety of experiential workshops on all kinds of thing of body, mind & Spirit.. And of which I mentioned in my previous blog, on the comments I made on Mystic Medusa's blog on Mars in Virgo.. Before finally deciding to leave the family real estate business & my home town for the very first time in my life on the 4th of July, 2000.. ie. my very own personal 'Independance Day'.. Selling up all my stuff, well mostly, & hitting the road to see what would happen etc.. Where I ended up staying with one of my 'Insight' friends in Sydney until I worked out what I was going to do? Also at one point going off to the Blue Mountains to do a 10-day Vispassana mediation retreat.. Before eventually ending up going to Brisbane to stay with my sister the tarot card reader for a while, until I ran out of money & decided to live & work with her & the people she was living with.. And it was then that I was introduced to astrology for the first time.. along with the tarot.. numerology.. the chakra system & tai chi etc.. And so here is my 2000 New Years chart.. featuring *Neptune in Aquarius along with *the Aquarian Sth Node.. both very closely aligned with my natal Aquarian MC.. or 10th house cusp.. whlie all also likewise closely trine my *Sol-Arc Gemini Ascendant, in my 2nd house.. a time to let go & expand my horizon's out into the world.. taking the path of 'the Mystic'.. ie. Neptune conjunct my Midheaven or MC.. While *Mercury in Capricorn, also closely conjunct my 9th house cusp.. Mercury being 'the Messenger'.. & the 9th house symbolising broadening one's horizon's also.. While *Uranus in Aquarius, in my 10th house of 'Career'.. also closely trine my *prog Jupiter in Gemini, in my 2nd house. of 'resources'.. & of 'learning new skill's' etc.. since skills learned are also our resources.. Uranus & Aquarius symbolising the whole theme of 'individuation' & doing what one wants in life, as opposed to what is expected of us by family, friends & Consensus Society etc..

While also in the year 2001, then returned home again in early January where I ended up working in the office at the famiily real estate for the last time until leaving in early 2002, after saving up some money for a while.. With the Year 2001 beginning with *the Moon in Pisces.. in my 11th house of 'hopes & dreams' etc.. also closely sextile *Mercury in Capricorn.. in my 9th house of 'religion' & 'philosphy' etc.. While both also closely opposing & trine my natal Mars-Pluto in Virgo.. in my 5th house of 'creativity' & 'Self-expression' etc.. While all also closely square & semi-sextile *Pluto in Sagittarius.. in my 8th house of 'Self honesty' & 'deep healing'.. also closely conjunct or aligned with my natal Sagittarian Sth Node.. being a once in a lifetime transit!!! While all also forming a 'mutable grand cross' with my natal Gemini Nth Node.. in my 2nd house of 'Self-worth' & 'rescources' etc.. And so there I found myself working back at the family business, but no longer in 'sales'.. but rather customer service etc.. While I also began sharing & studying what I had learned in my time in Brisbane about astrology, numerology & the tarot etc.. as I began to observe the world more & more through the lens of these occult arts, revealing more & more of the hidden 'reality' of myself.. others & the world we all live in etc.. So here I was becoming the Philosopher King & the Shaman & or the Mystic etc.. doing tarot & astrology readings for people at work & anyone else I could find.. And with 2001 also of course being the year of the Sept 11 Terrorist Attacks in the US..

While in early 2002 I finally left the family real estate business for the last time.. Also soon after taking off on a drive around Australia seemingly at random in March.. ie. after finding myself driving around exploring the Victorian coast etc.. Sleeping in my car most of the time.. heading off along the Great Ocean Road, across to Adelaide, then across the Nulabor Desert to Perth & WA.. following the coastline, more or less, following Highway One, right up the WA coast to the Northern Territory & Darwin, then back down through the Red Centre, via Uluru or Airs Rock, back down to SA & back home again.. I also bought my first ever acoustic guitar shortly before leaving.. Before then settling in back home again where I soon after bought my first astrology software program, Matrix Winstar Express.. along with also shortly after deciding that I would advertise to do astrology & tarot readings etc.. With my getting a feature published in the local paper on my life titled "Real Estate Agent Becomes Tarot Reader'.. However after doing a few reading etc over the next few months I became disillusioned with it all & many peoples seeming lack of understanding about the Spiritual or deeper side of life etc.. So I quit doing readings & returned to my real passion which was studying & learning more & more about astrology & its affects in my life & those around me.. along with observing the world in general through the same Cosmic lens............

While here are my 2001 & 2002 New Years charts..

While then in 2003 I also started doing a Bachelor of Arts degree at the local university.. majoring in psychology, along with history & philosophy.. And I rather enjoyed being in a real formal learning enviroment again.. for the first time since high school.. But then I decided that I did not want to spend 4 years of my life at university, & quit at the end of the first semester.. although I was doing quite well.. And what got me thinking was meeting a senior student at orientation who said she deferred in her first year to go travelling around the world etc.. So I eventually decided to leave.. with that same goal in mind.. While I also did become a bit frustrated too by the lack of a wider understanding of life that exists in universities also.. For example according to my pych textbook Carl Jung did not even exist!!! So I went back to my own studies of astrology, life, history, & pyschology etc etc.. While also later on in the year I also met a couple of people who wanted to start a Spiritual group up, after going out to the pub one night, & my being recognised from the article about me that appeared in the paper the year before.. So I became involved in starting up a Spiritual group as the local authoirty on astrology etc.. And all this with the New Years transits for me featuring *Saturn(r) in Gemini.. in my 2nd house of 'Self-worth' & 'resources'.. closely aligned with my natal Venus in Gemini.. the sign of 'the Storyteller' or 'the Student'.. Saturn being the priniple of comitment etc.. While my Venus in Gemini also the ruler of natal 2nd house Taurus Sun.. also ruling my Libra Descendant or 7th house of 'relationships'.. While both also closely trine, a supportive aspect, with *Ceres in Aquarius.. in my 10th house of 'public life'.. or 'ones Cosmic job description' as astrologer Steven Forrest says.. Ceres also being the Mother principle, while Aquarius is all about 'individuation' etc.. While all also between 9-10 degrees of each sign.. While the year also beginning with *Mars in Pisces.. in my 11th house of 'hopes & dreams' & 'like-minded others' also closely aligned with my natal Saturn in Pisces.. while both also closely square *Pluto in Sagittarius.. in my 8th house of 'Self-honesty' & 'deep healing' etc.. Pluto-Scorpio & the 8th house all also representing a similar theme.. Mars being the planet of action or courage.. or rather where we need to learn it.. While Pisces is the sign of 'the Mystic' or 'the Poet' etc.. seeing the unity in all things etc.. Saturn also once again being the principle of 'commitment' & doing 'the work'.. as the planet of 'maturity'..

While here is the 2003 New Years chart..

Meanwhile then looking at the New Years transits for me in 2004, I saw another shift for me, away from the Spritual group which had begun to come to an end.. While also highlighted by my going on my first ever 'Round the World Trip' on Feb 2, 2004.. landing in LA on 'Ground Hog Day'.. the same day.. before moving on to San Fransisco, then back to New York.. before landing in London also for the first time after about 10 days in the US.. Also going to Paris for the first time.. vising the Louvre Museum etc.. along with going to the Somme & Normandy etc..

While then travelling back to London once again in July 2005.. with my getting caught up in the drama of the London Tube Bombings on July 7.. but luckily just being inconveienced rather than anything else.. Along with also then later going to Germany for the first time.. While also then in 2006 also going to do a short film-making course at Melb Uni in January, along with also seeing the 'Stanley Kubrick' exhibition that just 'happened' to be showing in Melbourne at the same time.. along with also getting to see the original prints of all his films on the 'big screen' for the first & only time in my life.. Yes, indeed I was in 'cinematic Heaven'.. I could not believe my luck.. While also then later in the year deciding to extend my personal loan again to travel to Italy & Greece also for the first time in my life in September.. Visiting Rome, & the ruins of Pompei.. before then going off to Athens & Greece the home to all the great Mythical Gods of course.. Also visting the ancient cities of Corinth & the ruins of the ancient city of Mycenea, walking down to the bottom of a 3000 year old well below the ruins of the royal palace, & visiting the tombs of Agamemnon & Clytemnestra.. While astrologically this year also began with *Saturn in Leo.. in my 4th house of 'home' & the 'deepest roots of oneself'.. closely sextile my natal Venus in Gemini.. in my 2nd house of 'Self-worth' & 'resources'.. While both also forming a 'Yod' with *the New Years Capricorn Sun.. in my 9th house of 'philosophy' & 'expanding ones view of life' etc.. While also beginning with *Uranus in Pisces.. in my 11th house of 'hopes & dreams' & 'like-minded others' also closely trine my *prog Cancer Sun.. in my 3rd house of 'communication' & 'information gathering' etc.. While both also closely sextile, a supportive aspect, to my natal Mercury in Taurus.. in my 1st house of 'new beginnings' or 'venturing forth in the world' etc.. Mercury being the traditional 'Messenger of the Gods' etc.. While Taurus also being the sign of 'the Silent One,' or 'the Earth Spirit' etc.. Uranus being 'indivduation'.. along with *the Sun representing ones core identity or Self.. While this year also began with *Mars in Taurus.. in my 1st house of 'moving out into life'.. also closely trine, a 'supportive aspect' with my natal Uranus in Virgo.. in my 5th house of 'creativity' & 'Self-expression'.. While Mars/Aries & the 1st house also symbolising the same principle of 'courage' & 'daring to be' basically.. Uranus representing 'individuation' again, while the sign of Virgo, the Virgin also being the sign of 'the Analsyt' or 'the Critic' etc..

While here is the 2006 New Years chart..

While in 2007, the following year I also started this blog.. whatsitallmeanthen.. With New Years transits featuring *Jupiter in Sagittarius.. in my 8th house of 'Self-honesty' or 'Self-revelation'.. closely aligned with my natal Sagittarian Sth Node.. With Jupiter/Sagittarius & the 9th house all symbolising the 'expansion' of ones view of life & our place in the Universe etc et al..

While here are my notes from my daily journal I also wrote earlier this morning..

13/1/12 Meanwhile it’s now 7.16am.. & here I am having just come downstairs to log on for another day as I once again find myself listening to the soothing sounds of the ocean from the mp3 recording titled *‘Beach Waves’ again.. the sounds of the great & eternal Sea.. While also as I lay there in my bed once again I also considered all the interesting things I have done in my life.. listening & learning about life & the Universe from all kinds of sources.. ABC Radio.. TV programs.. documentaries.. & DVD series like ‘The Ascent of Man’.. ‘The Planets’ series & ‘The Wonders of the Universe’ series etc.. about art.. history.. science.. religion & philosophy.. along with Star Trek of course.. Stargate.. sci-fi in general.. various movies.. especially good quality films.. various books.. wikipedia.. my 'Insight Seminars' experience.. my various travels overseas, around Australia, Nepal, to LA, San Fransisco, NY, London, Paris, Berlin, Rome, Pompeii & Athens etc.. And perhaps in so doing travelling back to places we have been in other lifetimes.. Also learning about ancient & modern history.. religion & philosophy.. science.. psychology.. astrology & mythology etc.. from the most mundane experiences.. to the most mystical & transcendent moments etc.. And along with the whole idea that my working part-time etc has been all about creating TIME.. to THINK.. WONDER & IMAGINE.. What would my life be like without all this valuable time to reflect & assimilate all that I am & have experienced etc etc.. Ah yes says my natal 2nd house Taurus Sun.. ruled by Venus in Gemini conjunct Jupiter & the Nth Node in Gemini along with my natal 9th house Capricorn Moon.. ruled by my 11th house Saturn in Pisces.. not to mention my natal 1st house Mercury in Taurus.. also ruled by my 2nd house Venus in Gemini.. not to mention my 3rd house *prog Cancer Sun.. also in turn ruled currently by my *prog Libra Moon.. travelling towards the last phase of its journey through my natal 6th house.. although also having just started its journey through my *prog 5th house.. While I also here note the main theme of my life that I am still working with.. apart from my natal Taurus Sun that is.. ie. my *prog Cancer Sun.. nearing the halfway mark of its 30 year transit through the sign of Cancer.. in my natal 3rd house.. beginning in 1998. And all this too also along with a *prog Cancer New Moon cycle beginning in Oct 2003.. also occuring in my natal 3rd house.. also lasting around 30 years.. So what is my major life theme that I am working on at this time.. ie. about the sign of Cancer, the Crab.. ie. *prog Cancer Sun.. in my 3rd house..

The Sun
The Gift: The ability to alter basic values & priorities, thereby allowing one’s actual behavior to reflect developments in his or her evolving inner life.
The Challenge: Are you strong enough to change the very basis of your identity, allowing yourself the freedom to become what you have never been before?
Key Questions: Who am I? What kinds of experiences help me strengthen & clarify my Self-image? Where can I find & expand my personal power? What unconscious biases shape my worldview?

Cancer, The Crab
Element: Water
Mode: Cardinal
Archetype: The Mother, The Healer, The Invisible One.

Those for whom not to be seen is non-
existence are not alive; & the kind of
existence they seek, the immortality they
seek, is spectral; to be seen is the ambition
of ghosts, & to be remembered the
ambition of the dead.
Norman O. Brown

The Symbol
The Crab. A vulnerable creature. A succulent piece of meat. The food of gulls. How can he survive? What hope is there for him? He is only a morsel awaiting the predator's mouth.

To live, the Crab must grow a shell. He must grow a wall between himself & nature. He is too delicate to protect himself in any other way.

With his armor, the Crab endures. He is at peace with his environment. But that success holds the seeds of a perilous transformation. The Crab eats. He matures. And soon he outgrows his shell. It must be shed. If he is cunning & lucky, he may live to grow another one. One that is larger, more suited to his expanded state. But only if he is cunning & lucky.

Endpoint
Dizzied by Gemini's spinning carosel, confused by the chaos of life on the midway, awareness now turns inward, towards its roots. To the Twins, truth is "out there" somewhere. They search the world, filling the psyche with alertness & wonder. And yet the search yields nothing. Life is more mysterious than ever, more full of loose ends & undigested details.

Cancer sets out in a new direction. Instead of rifling through the Universe, the Crab reaches tendrils of Consciousness inward, probing deeply into the underpinnings of experience, pressing toawrds the heart.

The fabric of the world to Cancer is feelings. A mammoth subjectivity animates this phase of the zodiac. The terse, journalistic awareness of Gemini gives way to a tapestry of impressions, of personal responses. There is no longer an objective Universe. All that remains is a pattern of reactions.

Those who are born under the mark of the Crab have come here to penetrate the dimensions of inner life inaccessible to any previous sign. They arrive fluent in the language of the deep Self, the language of emotion. Fascinated by the reactive, subjective aspects of the mind, their lifeblood is a protracted process of psycholanalysis, usually Self-administered.

To feel Consciousness. To feel every nuance of life. To shed the shell of numbness that armors us against this slaughterhouse of a world. All that is the Crab's work.

Cancers endpiont? To see the hellish discord of life. To see the cauldron within. And, against all common sense, to love, trust, & accept all that existence offers.

The 3rd House
Traditional Name: House of Communication.
Corresponding Sign: Gemini.
Associated Planet: Mercury.
Terrain: Information gathering. Information sharing.
Successfully Navigated: Clear, accurate, unbiased perceptions. Willingness to tolerate perceptual ambiguity & uncertainty. Capacity to probe the world for more information either verbally or intellectually.
Unsuccessfully Navigated: The urge to protect a given concept of the world, leading to defensiveness, intellectualism, & verbal overkill. Scattered, unfocused curiosity, leading to chronic time wasting & disorganisation.

While here is the answer to a question I long ago asked *the Sabian Oracle, ie. "Who am I?".. I got Cancer 23.. ie. & so I read at *23degCan..

THE MEETING OF A LITERARY SOCIETY.. An objective & critical approach to the common factors in our Culture & to it’s psychological problems.. The poets, novelists & critics of a Society represent the endeavour to give form & meaning to the most characteristic situations & interpersonal relationships.. They mirror Society& at the same time influence & guide it’s development.. Here the individual operates both as an objective mind & an emotional participant in the events & hopes of his day.. INTELLECTUALISATION…

Meanwhile here is a quote that also comes to mind in regard to all this looking back at my life etc from the book 'The Artists Way' titled 'Recovering a Sense of Power' that I wrote down in the inside cover of my actual diary last year..

Recovering a Sense of Power
There is a vitality, a life force, an energy,
a quickening, that is translated through
you into action, & because there is only
one of you in all time, this expression
is unique. And if you block it, it will
never exist through any other medium,
& will be lost.

And here is a photo of my sitting with my feet in a stream in a valley in the Blue Mountains around the time I did my meditation retreat in July 2000.....

**NB: Notes on planets, houses & signs from the book 'The Inner Sky' by Steven Forrest.. For books & audio lectures on 'evolutionary astrology go to http://www.forrestastrology.com/.. While all Sabian Symbols taken from the book 'An Astrological Mandala: The Cycle of Transformation & Its 360 Symbolic Phases' by Dane Rudhyar...

My Life in 2012.. Whats It All About Then...

2012-01-10T14:34:00.020+11:00

And so I begin my exploring what this year will be all about for me with my first notes for the year in my forever ongoing daily journal..

1/1/12 Meanwhile it’s now 7.12am.. & here I am having just come downstairs to log on for the first day in the year 2012AD.. although I’m planning on going back to bed again for a while to get some more sleep though.. as I didn’t go to bed until about 12.30am or so.. A quiet Happy New Year for me again.. looking at the New Years chart etc, while also only half noticing the fireworks display around the Sydney Harbour Bridge.. While of course I am wondering what indeed this year will bring for me.. with this year being a number 5 year for us all.. ie. 2012 adding up to 5, in a Collective sense.. ie. a year of change, freedom & unpredictability, according to numerologist Hans Decoz, from his book 'Numerology: Key To Your Inner Self'.. While for me personally it is also a 4 year.. a year of consolidation.. ie. hard work, discipline & opportunity.. With last year being a 3 year for me, ie. a year of creativity, motivation & inspiration.. Meanwhile as far as transits go, *Neptune in Aquarius.. in my 10th house.. is beginning it’s final passage of a series of squares to my natal Taurus Sun.. in my 2nd house.. over the last couple of years.. before it finally leaves Aquarius & moves into Pisces.. While *Saturn in Libra.. in my 6th house.. is also nears the end of its long transit through my natal 6th house.. before finally crossing over my natal Libra Descendant late in the year.. although also at the same time continuing squaring my natal Capricorn Moon.. in my 9th house, while also currently transiting over my *Sol-Arc Uranus-Mars-Pluto in Libra.. While all also closely squaring my *Sol-Arc Cancer-Capricorn Nodal Axis.. in my 3rd/9th houses.. While *Uranus in Aries.. in my 11th house.. is also finishing up its long transit over my *prog Ceres in Aries.. before is heads off to enter my 12th house.. applying to closely sextile my natal Jupiter-Venus in Gemini.. in my 2nd house.. While *Pluto in Capricorn.. in my 9th house.. also towards the end of this year finishing up a series of trines to my natal Mercury in Taurus.. in my 1st house.. Yes, the Lord of the Underworld, ie. Pluto.. having a long talk with the Messenger of the Gods, ie. my natal Mercury, which is seemingly part of my lifes mission.. being so prominently placed, that is in my 1st house....

Meanwhile *Jupiter in Taurus is also passing over my *Sol-Arc Saturn in Taurus.. both having just recently passed over my natal Aries Ascendant.. into my 1st house.. about 6 months ago.. With Jupiter being the principles of expansion & Saturn being limitation & manifestation.. So both these principles are combined or fused together somehow.. While both also beginning a whole new cycle conjunction.. While this same *Jupiter in Taurus will also pass over my natal Mercury again for the last time, in its 12 year cycle.. before moving on into my 2nd house & forming a conjunction with my natal Taurus Sun.. along with my natal Jupiter-Venus-Gemini Nth Node.. Yes our transits & progressions in our chart provide a complicated little story indeed.. with so many things going on at the same time.. but each unique to us.. according to sign & house placements etc.. And all the ongoing planetary movements all aimed at offering us or guiding us towards expressing out our original birth intention.. or our highest destiny etc.. as expressed at the precise moment of our birth.. With the three most telling parts of who we are, being our Ascendant, Sun & Moon.. Or the 'primal triad' as Steven Forrest puts it.. in order to get back to the main thrust of who we are in this life.. as a unique individual human being that is.. Life being such a complex web indeed.. also involving others with their own birth & progressed charts etc too.. also interacting with us & our charts etc.. While "we," each & every one of us, along with our natal & progressed charts also being more or less one & the same thing...

While here are some of the basic meanings for these transiting planets for me at this time.. beginning with *Neptune in Aquarius.. in my 10th house that has been squaring my natal Taurus Sun, in my 2nd house.. for about 2-3 years now.. the Sun being the central theme of our lives, although of course colored by the rest of our chart placements thrown into the mix of course.. like the Ascendant & the Moon, being the two other major significators in our personality.. along with the planets ruling the Ascendant.. the Sun & the Moon.. And so now allowing me to look back at one of the major themes of my life I have been working on for the last few years..

Neptune
The Gift: The ability to experience serenity, inspiration, & transcendence in the face of life’s drama’s; the ability to receive a Vision.
The Challenge: Can you intentionally enter an altered state of Consciousness, opening your awareness to what we might call God or your deeper Self ?
Key Questions: Where must I learn to de-emphasise logic & function intuitively? Where is narrow Self-interest most inappropriate & destructive to me? Where am I most vulnerable to mistaking wishes & fears for reality?

Aquarius, The Water Bearer
Element: Air
Mode: Fixed
Archetypes: The Genius, The Revolutionary, The Truth Sayer, The Scientist, The Exile.

If you meet the Buddha
in the road, kill him.

Zen Buddhist saying

The Symbol
The Aquarian glyph - a pair of parallel wavy lines - is often mistaken for water. That is not the case. Those lines are serpents, symbols of knowledge.

In Eden, the serpent tempted Eve to eat of the fruit of the Tree of Knowledge. She did, & God threw her & Adam out of the garden for it, setting into motion the history of the world.

But in acquiring that knowledge Eve did something more. In that single rebellious Aquarian act, she gave birth to a quality far more precious than safety, far more precious even than wisdom.

She gave birth to human freedom.

The Midheaven/10th House
Traditional Name: House of Career.
Corresponding Sign: Capricorn.
Associated Planet: Saturn.
Terrain: Career. Reputation; position in Society. Destiny.
Successfully Navigated: Self-expressive, personally satisfying status in the community. Sense of fulfilling one's destiny.
Unsuccessfully Navigated: Entrapment in a meaningless, alienating Social role. Obsession with power, status, & appearances.

While Neptune is also soon to move into the sign of Pisces for the next 14-15 years or so.. moving into its sign of rulership.. ending its long journey through the sign of Aquarius after about the same amount of time.. While also remaining in my natal 10th house for a few more years..

Pisces, The Fishes
Element: Water.
Mode: Mutable.
Archetypes: The Mystic, The Dreamer, The Poet.

We are... luminous beings. We are
perceivers. We are an awareness; we are
not objects; we have no solidity. We are
boundless...

Don Juan Matus,
quoted by
Carlos Castaneda

The Symbol
Ocean. Not Fishes, but the home of the fish: Mother Ocean, the realm of undersea sierras, of luminous plankton, of lost cities. Ocean, mother of life, brooding symbol of all that is impenetrable. All that can be felt but never known.

Ocean: washing the shores of continents, carrying art & thoughts among the nations, carrying war, carrying disease & pestilence, carrying food & wine, poets & musicians, endlessly mixing & blending the Cultures of Earth.

The Piscean ocean: liquid, flowing symbol of the unutterable mystery that binds us all together.

The symbol of life.

While here are some notes on my natal 2nd house Taurus Sun.. that has been squared by *Neptune in Aquaruis over the last 3 years or so..

The Sun
The Gift: The ability to alter basic values & priorities, thereby allowing one’s actual behavior to reflect developments in his or her evolving inner life.
The Challenge: Are you strong enough to change the very basis of your identity, allowing yourself the freedom to become what you have never been before?
Key Questions: Who am I? What kinds of experiences help me strengthen & clarify my Self-image? Where can I find & expand my personal power? What unconscious biases shape my worldview?

Taurus, The Bull
Element: Earth
Mode: Fixed
Archetypes: The Earth Spirit, The Musician, The Silent One.

Strive for simplicity, but learn to mistrust it.

Alfred North Whitehead

The Symbol
Exhausted by the fiery furnace of Aries, Consciousness seeks pools of cool water, the solace of ancient stones, the healing rustle of birdsong among the green leaves. It seeks peace. It trades the harangue for the symphony, passion for silence. No longer incandescent with the fire of battle, Spirit reaches gnarled hands into the Earth, feeling for seeds, for clay, for the flesh of the planet itself.

The symbol is a bull. Not the enraged monster furious at the red flag of a matador. Not the ferocious bull. But rather the tranquil one, standing solitary beneath a spreading April oak, quietly surveying the grass & Sun, cattle & Earth. Nothing frightens him. Gone is the fearsome posturing of the Ram. The Bull is so in control of his world, so far beyond fear that fearlessness itself has become meaningless to him.

The Arian war has been won. Taurus is at peace.

The 2nd House
Traditional Name: House of Money.
Corresponding Sign: Taurus.
Associated Planet: Venus.
Terrain: Challenges to Self-esteem. Money & possessions.
Successfully Navigated: Confidence & Self-esteem based on concrete Self-adjustment & Self development. Effective worry-free management of resources.
Unsuccessfully Navigated: Materialism & equation of Self-worth with the value of one's possessions. Lack of Self-respect. Fear of risk. Collapse of willpower leading to failure in the world. Life limiting concern with material reality.

While *Saturn in Libra will also remain closely squaring my natal Capricorn Moon, in my 9th house.. until it moves into the sign of Scorpio later this year in October.. And so ending its 2-3 year transit of my 6th house.. also then crossing over my Libra Descendant, into my 7th house of 'relationships' for until Aug 2015..

While here are some notes on Saturn in Libra, in my 6th house, conjunct my 7th house cusp.. squaring my natal Capricorn Moon, in my 9th house..

Saturn
The Gift: The ability to see reality as it is & respond to it clearly & effectively.
The Challenge: Can you put aside wishful or fearful thinking & respond to concrete issues with self-discipline, patience & practical strategies - & if necessary can you do it alone?
Key Questions: In what area of life must I learn to act alone? Where will lack of self-discipline lead most quickly to sorrow? Where will my ability to dream & have faith be most severely tested?

Libra, The Scales
Element: Air
Mode: Cardinal
Archetypes: The Lover, The Artist, The Peacemaker.

Only in silence, the word
only in dark the light,
only in dying life:
bright the hawks flight
on the empty sky.

Ursula K. LeGuin

The Symbol
Scales. Not the modern kind. No springs. No digital readout. Just a simple seesaw, straight out of the marketplaces of Babylon or Egypt. Put an ounce of lead on one platform. Pour gold dust into the other. When they balance, you have an ounce of gold.

Libra symbolises harmony. Equilibrium. The reconciliation of opposites. Lead meets gold. Birth meets death. Love contacts fear. No light without shadow, no shadow without light.

The 6th House
Traditional Name: House of Servants.
Corresponding Sign: Virgo.
Associated Planet: Mercury.
Terrain: Responsibilities. Competence & skill. Devotion & Self-sacrifice.
Successfully Navigated: Fulfillment through the development of a personally meaningful skill that is of value to others.
Unsuccessfully Navigated: Endless busyness at tasks that have no personal meaning; drudgery, wage slavery. Humiliatingly subordinate roles in key relationships.

The Descendant/7th House
Traditional Name: House of Marriage.
Corresponding Sign: Libra.
Associated Planet: Venus.
Terrain: Intimate relationships. Identification with others.
Successfully Navigated: Relationships characterised by: 1/Equality between the partners. 2/Open-endedness; ie. the relationship can be expected to survive changes in circumstance. 3/Specialness; unique rapport; "magic."
Unsuccessfully Navigated: A pattern of chronic submissiveness or directiveness in intimate relationships. Inability to form a stable emotional bond. Fear of intimacy. Extreme dependency or extreme fear of dependency.

While here are some notes on my 9th house natal Capricorn Moon, undergoing this 'square' from *Saturn in Libra..

The Moon
The Gift: The capacity to feel & respond emotionally. The development of subjectivity, impressionability & sensitivity. The development of what we might call the Soul.
The Challenge: Can you allow repressed or misunderstood emotions that demand expression & inclusion… into your conscious awareness & to act accordingly?
Key Questions: What kinds of experiences are most essential to my happiness? When moodiness & irrationality overtake me, how are they expressed? What unconscious emotional needs motivate my behavior?

Capricorn, The Seagoat
Element: Earth
Mode: Cardinal
Archetypes: The Hermit, The Father, The Prime Minister.

You thought, as a boy, that a mage
is one who can do anything. So I
thought, once. So did we all. And
the truth is that as a man's real
power grows & his knowledge
widens, ever the way he can follow
grows narrower: until at last he
chooses nothing, but does only
& wholly what he must do.

Ursula K. LeGuin

The Symbol
The Sea-Goat. A mountain goat with a fishes tail; an impossible creature. A dog paddler at sea & a waddler on land - except in the world of symbolism. There, the Sea-Goat loses all his clumsiness & vulnerability. He becomes a symbol of ultimate & absolute power.

He is the master of two worlds: the sea & the stony heights. The Sea-Goat scales the most treacherous peaks, breathes the most rarefied air. He swims the widest oceans. Nothing can stop him. Once his mighty will is fixed on a goal, he is invincible.

He must only choose. Nothing can stand against him.

The 9th House
Traditional Name: House of Long Journeys.
Corresponding Sign: Sagittarius.
Associated Planet: Jupiter.
Terrain: Confrontation with the tendency of life to become mechanical & routine. Formation of personal system of ethics or philosophy; establishment of personal world view. Encounters with the unpredictable & the exotic.
Successfully Navigated: Ability to break up routines & create new patterns of behaviour. Clear, individual sense of life's evolving meaning & purpose. Capacity to absorb shocking, unexpected perceptions.
Unsuccessfully Navigated: Routinization of experience; boredom. Rigidity of thought; dogmatism. Opportunistic, narrow-minded, or unprincipled behaviour; nihilism.

While here are also some notes on *Jupiter in Taurus.. crossing my natal Aries Ascendant & moving through my natal 1st house.. until entering my natal 2nd house in June..

Jupiter
The Gift: The ability to both envision & seize upon new possibilities & potentials for the future.
The Challenge: Can you recognise something better than you have ever known, utterly new & positive, that now lies within your reach - & can you devise a way to grasp it?
Key Questions: What kinds of experiences will help me feel more faith in myself & in life? Where might I be taking too much for granted?

The Ascendant/1st House
Traditional Name: House of Personality.
Corresponding Sign: Aries.
Associated Planet: Mars.
Terrain: The establishment of identity.
Successfully Navigated: Clarity & decisiveness in one's actions. A sense of control over one's direction in life. A sharply focused sense of identity.
Unsuccessfully Navigated: Fearfulness & lack of Self assurance leading either to inflexibility & tyranny over the wills of others or to Self effacement, vagueness of purpose, & the assumption of defeat.

Meanwhile it’s now 7.22am.. & here I am listening to the start of the mp3 recording titled *‘Rolling Surf’.. yet once again.. While I also found myself earlier laying in my room reflecting or thinking about how lucky I am, & we all are to being living in a free & democratic country like Australia.. where there are many simple gifts that we all perhaps take for granted sometimes.. ie. simple things like free education & health care etc.. And there are no civil wars or tyrants running the country etc.. although we do have our little moments of thinking otherwise…

Meanwhile it’s now 9.14am.. & here I am having just come downstairs from doing my Year Mythic Tarot reading for this year.. at about 9am.. While I also just returned to the Comet ‘Lovejoy’ wikipedia page once again to see that I have a thank you message from Wikpedia for my donation I made yesterday…

While for my Tarot reading this year I have the *‘Five of Swords’ as my Focus card or the central theme I am working on overall throughout this year.. ie. coming to terms with ones Destiny or Fate.. or one’s Mission in this life.. While to begin this year I also have the *‘Seven of Cups’ for January.. or that which is most visible in the world like in the Midheaven of a birth chart.. ie. an emotional situation where many potentials are evident, but where one must choose & act in realistic terms to make any potentials manifest.. While at the IC position.. or that which is the underlying theme underneath my whole year is *‘The Chariot’.. taking charge of the opposing energies within.. so as to take control of ones life etc.. While at the Ascendant position I have *‘The Moon’.. following one’s irrational impulses & impressions to see what they have to tell me.. while also in the Descendant position I also have the *‘Justice’ card.. symbolised by Pallas Athena.. dealing with the theme of reflective judgement & rational thought.. And here is my reading for the year below..

Meanwhile here is my 'focus card' or the main theme for me for this year, ie. the 'Five of Swords'..

Five of Swords
The Five of Swords represents acceptance of limitations, boundaries & the confines of destiny. Here Orestes must come to terms with his blighted family inheritance, & accept the task which has been imposed upon him. That his allotment is unfair is not the point; he must face what is before him without complaining, whining or dodging, for it is through acceptance of his own destiny that he can progress & earn his right to manhood & eventual kingship. It is also important that Orestes accept the God's law not out of fear alone - although Apollo's threats are frightening enough - but because he himself recognises its necessity. He is a man, & therefore for him Apollo's patriarchal law is his law.

Recognition of one's limits requires Consciousness & a clear, unbiased mind. One knows what one is, & therefore what one can & must do; this is acceptance of inner law.. it is a stage which is necessary if the individual wishes to make effective the principles in which he or she believes.

While all this too bearing in mind the answer I posted in my previous blog got from *the Sabian Oracle on what this year will be all about for me.. at *10degLib..

Meanwhile I also further decide to ask *the Sabian Oracle what this year will be all about for me.. I got *10degLib..

A CANOE IS APPROACHING SAFETY THROUGH DANGEROUS WATERS.. There is a time of calm approaching. The difficulties in your situation have been arduous, but they've added to your experience to cope with any difficult times that are yet to come. The calm is a time to review what has past. You've come through the most difficult straits. Soon, you'll realize that you're on safe ground.

The calm after the storm. Navigating difficult straits. White water rafting. Risky activities. Personal initiations.

The Caution: Failing to take advantage of the time to rest. Taking foolhardy risks with the belief that all will be O.K.
While here is Dane Rudhyar's take on the same symbol..

HAVING PASSED SAFELY THROUGH NARROW RAPIDS, A CANOE REACHES CALM WATERS.. The Self-control & poise necessary to reach a steady state of inner stability.. The inner “revelation” which brought about dramatic confrontations can now be meditated upon as it is reflected on the clam waters of the mind.. RELIEF…

Meanwhile here are some notes that I later the following day after posting this blog decided to add from my ongoing daily journal about a post I made yesterday at another astro blog I enjoy reading from time to time.. with this post I responded to being around the current transit of *Mars in Virgo.. which also involves it going retrograde & staying in this sign of 'the Virgin,' for much longer than usual..

11/1/12 Meanwhile it’s now 7.07am.. & here I am having just come downstairs & logged on for today.. as I also find myself once again listening to the recording titled *‘Beach Waves’.. While I also find myself reflecting on my telling my story.. or at least a broad outline at least of my life.. more or less.. on Mystic Medusa’s latest blog on the current transit of Mars in Virgo.. while I also wonder or should I say worry about all the stuff I left out.. & how all of this might paint me in some kind of particular light.. that is not the whole me etc.. Yes, it was all just a rather spontaneous act for me yesterday.. While I also wonder about my not further telling the story of my working at Eagle Boys & how much I have enjoyed it.. working with younger people etc.. ie. teenagers whose hearts & minds are still largely open & curious about life etc.. And all this too enabling me to listen to countless ABC Radio programs etc.. all kinds of interesting & entertaining programs.. with all kinds of people.. all adding to my education about life & the world etc.. And all while from time to time also driving around & taking one minute video recordings of parts of these programs etc as I travel around the streets of my home town at night.. ie. both words & music etc..

While here are the notes from my journal yesterday when I posted this comment.. ie. my life story, at this blog.. >>>Meanwhile it’s now 10.54am.. & here I am having just posted a long comment.. ie. my brief life story, at the latest blog by Mystic Medusa on Mars in Virgo at http://mysticmedusa.com/2012/01/your-mars-self-actualizer-or-sociopathic-lout/#comment-180345..
Your Mars: Self-Actualizer Or Sociopathic Lout?
Yes, well…… A 2nd house late Taurus Sun, May 21, 1965.. almost a Gemini.. conj Jup-Venus-Nth Node in Gem.. Born with Mars in Virgo, my late Aries Ascendant ruler, just separating from its exact alignment with Pluto in Virgo.. 3 degrees past Uranus in Virgo.. in my 5th house.. all closely trine a 1st house Mercury in Taurus.. in its ‘joy’.. all also almost exactly square the Gemini Nth-Sag Sth Nodes.. 2nd/8th houses.. All in ‘mutable cross’ with Saturn-Ceres-Chiron in Pisces, 11th. I grew up loving war & cowboy movies, & acting it all out.. ah yes, the Heroic death scene.. Obsessed with these films actually.. And lots of playing on my own happily for hours, creating my own battles & scenes etc.. Setting model planes on fire for realism.. Did not ‘fit in’ at high school.. Aqu MC.. like being outsider, but quietly.. not into aggression at all.. Also slightly Aquarian-like Pisces mother took me to naturopath in high school, so ‘alternative’ side of life shown to me then…

Married in March 1994.. an Aquarian with Scorpio Moon.. It all ended at end of 1995 after son died of ‘cot death’, SIDS, 6 months earlier in June.. Starting doubting all the worldly assumptions the next year.. Went to ‘Insight Seminars’ in Sydney, Mar-Nov 1998.. started reading books like ‘The Alchemist’.. ‘J.L Seagull’ & ‘Illusions’ etc.. Went on ‘Insight’ org Nepal-Himalayas Trek in Sept 1999.. Then a 26-day ‘group-process’ Insight Seminar’ with 30 others, doing rebirthing, psychodrama, art therapy, daily group psychotherapy.. angel workshops-healing.. Aikido.. yoga, meditation.. learning about the eneagram.. feldenkraise, ‘spending time alone in nature’.. dream workshops.. gestalt therapy.. dance therapy.. NLP.. the art of nourishment.. facilitation & story telling etc.. Apr-May 2000.. Before leaving the family real estate business & my home town for the first time in my life & hitting the road on July 4th, 2000.. Ending up staying with one of my ‘Insight’ friends in Sydney until I worked out what I was going to do?

The soon after ended up doing a ’10-day’ Visspassana meditation retreat at Blackheath.. Before going to visit my sister working as a ‘Tarot card’ reader etc in Brisbane, before eventually running out of money & deciding to live & work with her & the others that were also doing the same thing.. Then studying astrology & the ‘Mythic Tarot’.. ‘The Heirophant’ was my first card I drew to learn.. My Ceres-Chiron in Pisces, 11th.. before moving back home in earlier 2001..

Now here I am all these years later, been studying astrology etc ever since.. Travelled around the world on my own in Feb-Mar 2004.. LA, San Fran, NY, London, Paris.. All with *prog Mars in Virgo, trine my natal Taurus Sun, grand trine’ with natal 9th Cap Moon.. Back overseas in 2005.. London again.. did ‘Short-film’ making course at Melb Uni in earlier 2006.. And saw Kubrick Exhibition, along with all the classics on the big screen.. '2001,' 'Clockwork Orange' et al.. I was in movie Heaven.. Serendipity indeed.. Photographed a sign ‘Be Published’ with Sun-Chiron in Aqu, right on my MC.. >>>Started my blog http://www.whatsitallmeanthen.blogspot.com since Sept 2007.. 1st house Mercury in Taurus.. & a 9th house Cap Moon.. Pizza delivery driver for 7 years, so I can do all my astro analysis & studying life, my blog etc.. like being outside the mainstream actually.. I dream on.. Blogger, astrologer, somewhat of a mystic, consulting oracles etc, & pizza delivery driver, for now.. until my book about all this is published etc…..

Ok then………

And yes well indeed, what about all the stuff I left out or forgot to mention...................

**NB: Notes on the Mythic Tarot from 'The Mythic Tarot Book' by Liz Greene & Juliet Sharman-Burke.. Sabian Oracle at http://www.sabiansymbols.com/page11bd.html?id=974.. along with secondary interpretations from the book 'An Astrological Mandala: The Cycle of Transformations & Its 360 Symbolic Phases' by Dane Rudhyar.. While as usual notes on planets, signs & houses are from the book 'The Inner Sky' by Steven Forrest.. at http://www.forrestastrology.com/...

Here We Go.. On Another Journey Around the Sun, 2012AD.....

2012-01-03T09:53:00.015+11:00

Meanwhile it's now 12.26pm.. & here I am sitting here listening to an mp3 recording I bought last week titled 'Beach Waves' once again.. While I also earlier read another article, at http://www.theage.com.au/world/a-maya-culpa-on-end-of-world-20120101-1ph5o.html, on how the end of the Mayan Long Count Calendar is not going to be the literal end of the world.. But just the beginning of a new 5000 year cycle.. And all this too with this image of a Mayan priest performing a ceremony.....

A Maya Culpa on End of World
THE last New Year's Day in human history has come.

You may not believe it, but millions do. They are convinced that ancient Maya priests calculated December 21, 2012, as the end of the world. The only problem is, the ancient Maya predicted no such thing.

In its heyday, circa AD250 to 900, the Mayan Civilisation produced a dazzling legacy of literature & learning, art & architecture. But they weren't preoccupied with apocalypse.

The Maya perceived time as a set of infinite cycles, not a clock ticking towards doomsday. One of these cycles, known by scholars as the Maya Long Count, consists of more than 5000 years. In our calendrical system, it began in August 3114BC & is due to end on December 21, 2012 - or, in Maya numerology, 13.0.0.0.0.

But there is nothing to suggest the Maya believed this date would be the world's last.

One text that records the date 13.0.0.0.0, a carved stone plaque from the Mexican site of Tortuguero, was ambiguously read by Maya scholars in 1996 as possibly predicting an ominous event - the ''descent'' of a deity associated with the underworld. The scholars posted their interpretation online & that reading spread rapidly across the Internet in the years that followed, promoted as evidence of a specific Mayan prophecy.

The consensus today is that the text refers to a future commemoration of that date, when the local ruler will impersonate or represent that deity. It is not a doomsday prophecy but a bold assertion that the seventh-century building once marked by the plaque would still stand in 2012.

If the evidence for Mayan doomsday predictions is so flimsy, why are so many people willing to believe it is true?

While here is a link to a wikipedia article about the much talked about Mayan 'Long Count' calendar.. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mesoamerican_Long_Count_calendar..
Meanwhile all this also begs the question what does astrology have to say about this much talked about date of Dec 21, 2012.. ie. the December Solstice point.. With this date also being the end of the Mayan Long Count Calender.. While there will also be a Total Eclipse of the Sun on Nov 14, 2012, about a month before this event.. also occurring in the sign of Scorpio, the sign of 'the Detective' or 'the Shaman'..

Scorpio, The Scorpion
Element: Water
Mode: Fixed
Archetypes: The Detective, The Sorcerer, The Hypnotist

The ally we must cultivate is the part of
our enemy that knows the truth.

Mohannes K. Ghandi

The Symbol
You lie in your sleeping bag, rigid as a corpse. The desert Sun creeps higher, threatening to turn the fillings in your teeth to molten gold.

One move & you die: a scorpion stands motionless on your belly.

Tension in your marriage. Critical politicking in your profession. Yesterday those thoughts crowded your world. Today, with that scorpion standing there, they seem as irrelevant as a dim red Star in a distant galaxy.

With that scorpion on your belly, only the awesome intensity of the present moment remains. Everything else - all pretense, all vanity, all ambition - is ripped away. Only essentials remain. And mind, naked & alert, focused sharp as a cut gem, stands ready to live or die.

That attitude or state of Consciousness is Scorpio.

And so here is the astro chart for the Total Solar Eclipse.. set for Washington DC, on Nov 13..

While the Total Solar Eclipse is also occurring with the Sun & the Moon aligned at 21dge56 of the sign Scorpio.. so moving from the 21st to the 22nd degree.. so I also decide to look at *the Sabian Symbols for these degrees to see what this Eclipse is all about on the deepest archetypal level.. beginning with the symbol at 21degSco..

OBEYING HIS CONSCIENCE, A SOLDIER RESISTS ORDERS.. A readiness to face the results of a refusal to follow the authoritarian patterns of an aggressive Society.. Society seems to be all powerful; yet the individual need not be Spiritually bound, even if imprisoned.. He or she can still display inner freedom & prove him or herself an individual.. INNER FREEDOM...

Then to the next degree symbol, or evolutionary step.. at *22degSco..

HUNTERS SHOOTING WILD DUCKS.. The Socially accepted release of an individuals or a groups aggressive instincts.. In the previous degree the individual proved themselves by refusing to accept practices of war imposed by his or her Society; here it is Society that willingly accepts - & in accepting, ritualises & to some extent refines - the aggressiveness inherent in most individuals.. SOCIALISATION OF INSTINCTS...

While here is the chart for the December 21 Solstice chart also in Washington DC..

While with this December Solstice so much highlighted by the end of the current Mayan Long Count Calaender I also turn to *the Sabian Symbol for the Sun's degree as it moves from the last degree of Sagittarius to first degree of the sign of Capricorn each year.. on Dec 21st or 22nd. ie. from *30degSag.. to *1degCap..

And so the symbol reads at *30degSag..

THE POPE, BLESSING THE FAITHFUL.. The need to pay homage to traditional values upon which the Invisible Community of the Spirit is built.. The "flag bearer" has now become the "Pope".. The symbol asks the individual: "Are you willing to live a transpersonal life as a symbol?" A Collectivity of human beings is seen having "transferred" their sense of Spiritual value to a man who has become an incarnation of their common ideal.. It can be a blessing or in some cases, a curse.. PERSONALISED WORSHIP...

Before then moving to the December Solstice degree.. at *1degCap..

AN INDIAN CHIEF CLAIMS POWER FROM THE ASSEMBLED TRIBE.. The power & responsibility implied in any claim for leadership.. A time comes in many lives when the individual finds him or herself placed in a situation that allows one to assume power over his or her comrades, however limited this may be.. the supreme test of the individual in Society.. the capacity latent in every individual to claim & assume authority in a vital group-situation.. AUTHORITY...

Meanwhile I also then later decide to ask *the Sabian Oracle what this year will be all about for all of us here on this planet Earth.. ie. featuring the first exact first quarter square between *Uranus in Aries & *Pluto in Capricorn.. along with Neptune finally finishing up it's 14 year transit through the sign of Aquarius & moving on into the sign of Pisces.. And so I got *24degGem..

CAREFREE CHILDREN SKATING ON ICE.. Although you may not know exactly what you need to do, you probably have to make the most of a challenging situation. If you feel like you're on "thin ice" you may have to tread very carefully, planning each step as you go & listening for cracks the entire time. If you don't acknowledge changes & adjust yourself accordingly you may be at a disadvantage. Be wary of blindly rushing into anything - you may get to the point where you can't safely return to where you began. If, however, you set out to have fun while being mindful of your environment, this could be a fun filled time with lots of shared experiences with good friends.

Getting around difficult situations by making the most of them, or evading them. Skating over difficulties. Finding creative & seemingly childlike solutions to problems. Treading on eggshells. Children facing physical or emotional hardship.

The Caution: Rushing out to enjoy pleasures & activities before checking that it is safe. Living only for momentary pleasures without thought of the ramifications. Believing that one can get away with things through acting naively & childishly. Falling through the cracks.

While here is astrologer Dane Rudhyar's take on the same symbol..

CHILDREN SKATING OVER A FROZEN VILLAGE POND.. The use of inhibiting circumstances for the development of character & a transcendent approach to the environment.. Man is nature rising above the cyclic oscillation of natural polarities.. it is through the mind that Mankind can transcend the entropy of the universal process of existence.. TRIUMPH OVER ENTROPY…

While this 'first quarter square' between Uranus & Pluto, is the first major turning point between these two 'big' astrological hitters after they formed a 'new phase' conjunction in the mid 1960's in the sign of Virgo.. ie. the sign of systems & of cleaning up one's act etc.. the sign of 'the Critic' or the Annalyst' etc.. While this current 'first quarter square' is occurring in the signs of Aries, 'the Warrior' or 'the Survivor' & Capricorn, 'the Boss' or 'the Authority'.. While Uranus is rebellion.. the drive for absolute freedom & individuality.. While Pluto is the Lord of the Underworld, dealing with themes of the love of power versus power of love etc.. And Uranus & Pluto are making three exact squares to each other over the next 3 years.. although we have already felt some of this energy already with the revolutions in Egypt & the Middle East.. along with the 'Occupy Movements' around the globe.. And we are all moving further & further into the Age of Aquarius.. which is ruled by the planet Uranus.. driving things like new technology & the Internet etc.. So it seems that Uranus & Pluto will continue to be the main players in the world for the next 3-5 years.. closely followed by Neptune moving into its home sign of Pisces.. the sign of 'the Mystic'.. 'the Dreamer' & 'the Poet'..

And so with Uranus & Pluto forming a 'first quarter square' between each other since their conjunction of the mid 1960's et al.. So we all need to keep in mind the sign that this 'new cycle' was born in.. ie. the sign of Virgo, in the mid 60's.. also being the time of the 'birth' of the Age of Aquarius.. the next great age that we are still moving more & more rapidly into.. While this full flowering of the current Uranus-Pluto cycle will not reach its peak until these two major outer planets reach their opposition to eachother in around 2046.. with Uranus returning to the sign of Virgo, the sign of 'the Analyst' or 'the Perfectionist'.. opposing Pluto in Pisces, the sign of 'the Mystic' or 'the Poet'.. While here is an article about the greater cycles of the outer planets at http://www.gaiamind.org/meaning.html.. ie. with the 2 outer most planets, Neptune & Pluto, forming a greater 500 year cycle behind all this.. forming a conjunction with eachother every 500 years.. ie. within the much shorter but no less signifiant Uranus-Pluto cycle..

However, this current Uranus-Pluto square cycle still the current highlight of the Cosmic or planetary events.. with all this beginning in the sign of Virgo.. also with the ongoing Neptune-Pluto waxing sextile operating as the backdrop to all of this.. beginning back in early 1929, the beginning of the Great Depression, with Neptune also moving into the sign of Virgo.. along with Pluto in Cancer.. And so we return to the meaning of the sign of Virgo where this Uranus-Pluto cycle began at the midpoint of the 1960s..

Virgo, The Virgin
Element: Earth
Mode: Mutable
Archetypes: The Servant, The Martyr, The Perfectionist, The Analyst.

One can give nothing whatever without
giving oneself - that is to say, risking
oneself. If one cannot risk oneself, then
one is simply incapable of giving.

James Baldwin

The Symbol
The Virgin. Of all symbols, the most difficult to grasp. We think of virginity & inexperience. But this in not a symbol of inexperience. Nor prudery. Nor any flight from passion.

The Virgin is an image of purity. Nothing has possessed her. She is attached to nothing, wants nothing, fears nothing. Nothing holds her. She is free, unbound by any Earthly drama.

Yet, she is here, on the Earth. What does the world offer one who seeks nothing but perfection? What can she do? She waits, aloof as Madonna. She works on herself. And to pass the time, she helps out where she can.

And all this bearing in mind that we are still moving into the Great Age of Aquarius.. each great astrological age lasting around 2150 years or so..

Aquarius, The Water Bearer
Element: Air
Mode: Fixed
Archetypes: The Genius, The Revolutionary, The Truth Sayer, The Scientist, The Exile.

If you meet the Buddha
in the road, kill him.

Zen Buddhist saying

The Symbol
The Aquarian glyph - a pair of parallel wavy lines - is often mistaken for water. That is not the case. Those lines are serpents, symbols of knowledge.

In Eden, the serpent tempted Eve to eat of the fruit of the Tree of Knowledge. She did, & God threw her & Adam out of the garden for it, setting into motion the history of the world.

But in acquiring that knowledge Eve did something more. In that single rebellious Aquarian act, she gave birth to a quality far more precious than safety, far more precious even than wisdom.

She gave birth to human freedom.

And of course Aquarius is also ruled by the planet Uranus, which is leading the way for us all in the Age of Aquarius, ie. the Age of Freedom.. with Uranus also remaining in the sign of Aries for us all until Mar 2019.. as it spends about 7 years in each sign as it makes its way around the zodiac.. Aries is also the time of 'new beginnings' being the first sign of the zodiac.. So Uranus itself is also beginning a new cycle.. highlighted with the current transit of Uranus in Aries squaring Pluto in Capricorn.. ie. the revolutionary impulse accelerated.. With Uranus also taking about 84 years to travel around the zodiac.. also being the ruler of the sign of Aquarius..

Uranus
The Gift: The ability to distinguish our true individuality from the desires & fantasies about us held by our family, friends, & close associates.
The Challenge: Can you stand up to the pressures of conformity, asserting your right to be yourself in the face of censure & rejection - & in the face of whatever Social conventions you may have unwittingly internalised?
Key Questions: In what area of my life must I learn to function without Social approval? Where must I learn to break the rules & follow my own path? Where will I consistently receive the most misleading advice? Which authorities am I destined to offend?

Aries, The Ram
Element: Fire
Mode: Cardinal
Archetypes: The Warrior, The Pioneer, The Daredevil, The Survivor.

Love God, & do what you will.

St Augustine.

The Symbol
The Ram. Horns down, charging. Fierce. Unyielding. Will the Ram crack his skull? He doesn't care. Nothing can intimidate him. Nothing can force him to swerve. Victory - or Self-destruction in the effort to attain it: two destinies. One will claim him.

Aries is the life force, the will to exist. First there is nothing. Then there is something. Life thrusts itself out of nowhere, claiming a place in the void. The tone of the process is unflinching, explosive, violent. It conjures up pictures of volcanoes of white-hot Stars bursting into tattered nebula's.

A rabid dog backs you up to a precipice, fangs bared, mouth foaming. You have a hunting knife in your hand. He moves in, growling, eyes glaring red. You brace yourself. No more veneer of gentility & education. No more language. Nothing left but the animal rage to survive. You scream. You drive for the throat.

You have found Aries.

While here are some notes about Pluto as it travels through the sign of Capricorn, beginning in 2008 through to Jan 2024.. as it takes about 247 years to travel around the zodiac..

Pluto
The Gift: The ability to heal one’s Soul, recovering the energy needed to find an altruistic mission in life, thereby filling one’s Consciousness with a sense of ultimate purpose.
The Challenge: Can you face your deepest wounds & fears? Can you recognise some inner vision or gift that life has given you, & do you have the courage humbly to submit yourself to the task of exploring it?
Key Questions: Where can I find enduring significance in my life? Where in myself might I find wisdom for which there is a great need in the world around me? Where must I guard against dogmatic, unscrupulous, or tyrannical behaviour?

Capricorn, The Seagoat
Element: Earth
Mode: Cardinal
Archetypes: The Hermit, The Father, The Prime Minister.

You thought, as a boy, that a mage
is one who can do anything. So I
thought, once. So did we all. And
the truth is that as a man's real
power grows & his knowledge
widens, ever the way he can follow
grows narrower: until at last he
chooses nothing, but does only
& wholly what he must do.

Ursula K. LeGuin

The Symbol
The Sea-Goat. A mountain goat with a fishes tail; an impossible creature. A dog paddler at sea & a waddler on land - except in the world of symbolism. There, the Sea-Goat loses all his clumsiness & vulnerability. He becomes a symbol of ultimate & absolute power.

He is the master of two worlds: the sea & the stony heights. The Sea-Goat scales the most treacherous peaks, breathes the most rarefied air. He swims the widest oceans. Nothing can stop him. Once his mighty will is fixed on a goal, he is invincible.

He must only choose. Nothing can stand against him.

Where here are also some notes relating to Neptune moving into the sign of Pisces.. while Neptune is also returning to the sign it rules.. ie. Pisces.. until it moves into the sign of Aries in Mar 2026.. And all this with Neptune taking about 164 years to travel around the zodiac..

Neptune
The Gift: The ability to experience serenity, inspiration, & transcendence in the face of life’s drama’s; the ability to receive a Vision.
The Challenge: Can you intentionally enter an altered state of Consciousness, opening your awareness to what we might call God or your deeper Self ?
Key Questions: Where must I learn to de-emphasise logic & function intuitively? Where is narrow Self-interest most inappropriate & destructive to me? Where am I most vulnerable to mistaking wishes & fears for reality?

Pisces, The Fishes
Element: Water
Mode: Mutable
Archetypes: The Mystic, The Dreamer, The Poet.

We are... luminous beings. We are
perceivers. We are an awareness; we are
not objects; we have no solidity. We are
boundless...

Don Juan Matus,
quoted by
Carlos Castaneda

The Symbol
Ocean. Not Fishes, but the home of the fish: Mother Ocean, the realm of undersea sierras, of luminous plankton, of lost cities. Ocean, mother of life, brooding symbol of all that is impenetrable. All that can be felt but never known.

Ocean: washing the shores of continents, carrying art & thoughts among the nations, carrying war, carrying disease & pestilence, carrying food & wine, poets & musicians, endlessly mixing & blending the Cultures of Earth.

The Piscean ocean: liquid, flowing symbol of the unutterable mystery that binds us all together.The symbol of life.

Meanwhile on a more personal level here are some notes from my journal on New Years day..

1/1/12 Meanwhile it’s now 7.12am.. & here I am having just come downstairs to log on for the first day in the year 2012AD.. although I’m planning on going back to bed again for a while to get some more sleep though.. as I didn’t go to bed until about 12.30am or so.. A quiet Happy New Year for me again.. looking at the New Years chart etc.. while half noticing the fireworks display around the Sydney Harbour Bridge.. While of course I am wondering what indeed this year will bring for me.. with this year being a 5 year for us all.. in a Collective sense.. While for me personally it is also a 4 year.. a year of consolidation etc.. Meanwhile as far as transits go *Neptune in Aquarius.. in my 10th house.. is beginning it’s final passage of a series of squares to my natal Taurus Sun.. in my 2nd house.. over the last couple of years.. before it finally leaves Aquarius & moves into Pisces.. while *Saturn in Libra.. in my 6th house.. is also nears the end of its long transit through my natal 6th house.. before finally crossing over my natal Libra Descendant late in the year.. although also squaring my natal Capricorn Moon.. in my 9th house.. while also currently transiting over my *Sol-Arc Uranus-Mars-Pluto in Libra.. while all also closely squaring my *Sol-Arc Cancer-Capricorn Nodal Axis.. in my 3rd/9th houses.. While *Uranus in Aries.. in my 11th house.. is also finishing up its long transit over my *prog Ceres in Aries.. before is heads off to enter my 12th house.. applying to closely sextile my natal Jupiter-Venus in Gemini.. in my 2nd house.. While *Pluto in Capricorn.. in my 9th house.. also towards the end of this year finishing up a series of trines to my natal Mercury in Taurus.. in my 1st house.. Meanwhile *Jupiter in Taurus will also pass over my natal Mercury again for the last time.. before moving on into my 2nd house & forming a conjunction with my natal Taurus Sun.. along with my natal Jupiter-Venus in Gemini etc…

While here is also the chart for this New Year set at midnight for Greenwich, England.. with this chart featuring *the Aries Moon seperating from *Uranus in Aries.. So indeed "rebellion" & "individuality" will be major themes this year.. as if they were'nt last year.. but this year perhaps even more so.. with both applying to a 'frist quarter square' to *Pluto in Capricorn along with *the Capricorn Sun..

Meanwhile I also further decide to ask *the Sabian Oracle what this year will be all about for me.. I got *10degLib..

A CANOE IS APPROACHING SAFETY THROUGH DANGEROUS WATERS.. There is a time of calm approaching. The difficulties in your situation have been arduous, but they've added to your experience to cope with any difficult times that are yet to come. The calm is a time to review what has past. You've come through the most difficult straits. Soon, you'll realize that you're on safe ground.

The calm after the storm. Navigating difficult straits. White water rafting. Risky activities. Personal initiations.

The Caution: Failing to take advantage of the time to rest. Taking foolhardy risks with the belief that all will be O.K.

While here is Dane Rudhyar's take on the same symbol..

HAVING PASSED SAFELY THROUGH NARROW RAPIDS, A CANOE REACHES CALM WATERS.. The Self-control & poise necessary to reach a steady state of inner stability.. The inner “revelation” which brought about dramatic confrontations can now be meditated upon as it is reflected on the clam waters of the mind.. RELIEF…

Meanwhile I also turn to look at *the Sabian Symbol for the Sun's degree at the beginning of each New Year, begining at midnight.. ie. with the Sun usually being between the 10th & 11th degrees of Capricorn, depending on which hemisphere we live in.. actually first beginning moving from the 9th to the 10th degree.. And so I begin with the symbol at *9degCap..

AN ANGEL CARRYING A HARP.. The revelation of the Spiritual meaning & purpose at the core of any life situation.. This picture simply says that "Heaven is within us".. All we have to do is be open & listen to the total harmony of life in which we play a part that is necessary to the meaning of the Whole.. attunement to the rythym of universal life.. Angels are said to be consiered personalisations of various aspects of this life, & totally subservient to its rythym & purposes.. ATTUNEMENT...

Before then moving to the next degree.. as showing us the way forward with each new year.. at *10degCap..

AN ALBATROSS FEEDING FROM THE HAND OF A SAILOR.. The overcoming of fear & it's rewards.. The man or woman who radiates prefect harmlessness can call the wildest creatures to them a partnership based on mutual respect & understanding.. a picture extending the ideal of peace & happiness through Culture so it includes all living organisms on this planet.. The power of such a Culture of harmlessness & compassion generates trust everywhere.. TRUST...

While here is also a quote from one of my favourite author's Richard Back from his book 'Illusions: The Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah,' which I picked up & opened seemingly at random yesterday.. at pg57..

Illusions
There is no such thing
as a problem without a
gift for you in its hands.

You seek problems
because you need
their gifts.

**NB: Sabian Oracle at http://www.sabiansymbols.com/page11bd.html?id=974.. along with secondary iterpretations from the book 'An Astrological Mandala: The Cycle of Transformations & Its 360 Symbolic Phases' by Dane Rudhyar.. Also notes on the planets & signs from the book 'The Inner Sky' by Steven Forrest.. http://www.forrestastrology.com/ ...

Christmas.. the Meaning of 'Home' & Comet 'Lovejoy'.........

2011-12-29T12:30:00.019+11:00

Meanwhile here is my reply to a comment I made at one of the blogs I am following at http://noplaceforsheep.com/2011/12/28/home-2/.. While here is a quote taken from the end of this blog..

Heaven knows- what keeps Mankind alive
Every hand- goes searching for its partner
In crime- under chairs & behind tables
Connecting- to places we have known...

And here is my comment I made yesterday about this blog..

Yes, another great piece of writing, ie. & or piece of Self-revelation.. Also with echoes of Richard Bach’s book ‘Running From Safety’.. about his going back as an adult to reacquaint himself with his former 9 year old child-Self..

Meanwhile.. as I am habitually prone to do, I also decide to ask *the Sabian Oracle what the Universe wants to say to us all about all this talk of the idea of “home” & “family” etc.. at this time of year.. as I too, experienced a kind of ‘rejection, ie. a very real sense of absolute disapproval that is.. ‘ for being who I am.. believing in such things as ‘astrology’.. And only after about a decade of in depth study & research into the whole subject.. experientially & otherwise.. No my experience is not quite as dramatic as ending up in a boarding house.. However, this all provokes the big question, what is life all about anyway then, in all its myriad different circumstances & trials etc etc.. Perhaps we are all born, with our own unique challenges we must face or work through in this life etc.. Buddhism 101 etc et al.. The Tibetan Buddhists also losing their “home”.. Anyway, back to the Oracle answer.. I got *21degAri..

A BOXER IS ENTERING THE RING.. It may be time to fight, but it needs to be with dignity & regulation. There are rules to follow & it’s often others who will be the judge of the final outcome. Make sure you have the skills & training to have earned the right to defend what you believe. Remember that sometimes you need to back off if you’re not winning the contest. Is this a situation of attack or defence?

Physical or psychological Self-assertion & determination. Being prepared to fight for one’s emotional, psychological or physical space..

The Caution: Using power to dominate people or those who challenge you. Wanting to knock people out.

An affirmation for this degree:
My Spiritual sporting blood is up! I am more than equal to this situation.
Florence Scovel Shinn

While here is astrologer Dane Rudhyar’s take on the same ‘symbol’..
A PUGILIST ENTERS THE RING.. The release & glorification of Social aggressiveness.. In another sense, the ring with the two fighters can be referred to the Tai Chi symbol & the interplay between Yin & Yang.. Each of the two types of energy wins in turn.. Victory is always temporary.. Potency & the two-fold possibilities inherent in any release of power are seen operating at the Sociocultural & emotional level.. Mankind’s deeply rooted feeling of admiration & envy for whoever can generate overwhelming power.. OVERWHELMING POWER…

While I also here in the blog decide to note the previous & following Sabian Symbols in the great cycle of transformation & evolution of Consciousness.. that is life.. ie. beginning with the previous symbol, that explains what lead up to the current symbol mentioned above.. ie. the previous or 'karmic' degree.. & so at *20degAri..

A YOUNG GIRL FEEDING BIRDS IN WINTER.. Overcoming crises through compassion.. man can maintain the life of the Spirit, ie. symbolised by the birds, steady through all crises if, like a "young girl," he or she is widely open to the promptings of love & sympathy.. human activity motivated by sympathy overcoming the seasonal phase of impotency.. Life potency in nature Spirits reaches a higher level in the human being.. THE TRANSMUTATION OF LIFE INTO LOVE...

While the way forward from the symbol of the "The Fighter" or "The Boxer" is shown by the next symbol as the third in this sequence.. ie. only if we have successfully learned the lessons of the previous two symbols.. although if not, we just go over the same "stuff" until we do.. a bit like the movie 'Ground Hog Day'.. Yes, very funny.. or not, depending on your point of view.. And so at *22degAri..

THE GATE TO THE GARDEN OF ALL FULFILLED DESIRES.. Abundance made possible by human togetherness & cooperation.. Alone, a human being can barely survive in natures great life drama: in organised groups we can in due time fulfill their desires.. the goal of happiness dominates the Consciousness of Cultural Man, the more validly so the more modest his or her desires.. Religious philosophies, like American New Age thought, glorify this Social feeling of abundance, glamorising it into an avid Cosmic optimism & a cult of success.. AVID COSMIC OPTIMISM...

Although life of course is a delicate thing sometimes.. And as my favourite astrologer Steven Forrest says.. we don't want to make a "religion" out of negative thinking.. While of course as usual, the next symbol also suggests the next evolutionary step to be taken.. from this point.. at *23degAri..

A PREGNANT WOMAN IN LIGHT SUMMER DRESS.. Fecundity.. Masculine aggressiveness & the woman's desire for fulfillment are integrated & realised in the expected child.. And, 'the child,' can take various emotional & Cultural forms.. Summer is the period of fruition.. The individual - at the receptive "woman" level - reaps the fruits of his or her dynamic activity.. INNER FULFILMENT...

While the next symbol in the great evolutionary journey of "Life".. & or our evolving "Consciousness" also then reads.. at *24degAri..

BLOWN INWARD BY THE WIND, THE CURTAINS OF AN OPEN WINDOW TAKE THE SHAPE OF A CORNUCOPIA.. Openness to the influx of Spiritual energies.. inner growth demands not just an open mind but one able to provide a container for a Spiritual harvest.. a promise of more than material potency.. The cornucopian shape of the windows curtains suggests that the subtler translucent aspects of the mind has acquired a plastic quality enabling it to be molded.. MOLDED BY TRANSPERSONAL FORCES...

Yes, well.. “Life,” the great mystery, no doubt continues for all of us.. But of course that doesn't mean we stop trying to find our own answers.. to the meaning of our own lives.. as well as that of life as a Whole.. Yes, I also use the 'I-Ching' occasionally.. along with various other divinatory 'tools'.. like looking at my dreams & the 'symbols' they throw up.. along with what’s going on in my life at the time.. Yes, Carl Jung & all his exploring of life & its symbols etc.. & the strange journey of life etc et al.. Yes, what of 'reincarnation'.. And the idea of the journey of the Soul from lifetime to lifetime.. astrology & its symbols has a way on uncannily picking up on these 'themes' we each seem to have, in relation to all this.. ie. via the Nth & Sth Nodes of the Moon.. in one's birth chart.. Otherwise known in ancient times as the dragons tail & the dragons head.. With the Sth Node.. relating to our 'past lives'.. ie. all the stuff, the good that bad & the ugly, so to speak.. while the Nth Node.. relates to our evolutionary future.. our Souls intended 'growth direction'..

And of course there is the whole idea of 'good' & 'difficult' karma etc.. While bearing all this in mind, may well we ask then, where is our true 'Home' indeed.... And according to many psychic mediums & Spiritual teachers throughout the ages, this world, is not our 'true' home.. instead this is where we are all visiting for a kind of Earthly experience or playground.. for our Spiritual growth & development.. While it is the 'Spirit World' or 'non-material' world that is our true 'home' or place of origin.. Yes, & of course it is said that we come here to live out a loosely prearranged set of circumstances etc.. ie. Our earlier life.. parents & family etc.. But this it is up to us to also make choices about what we do with all that stuff.. once we are living in this kind of 'play' we have created for ourselves.. And so on & on it goes from lifetime to lifetime.. At least that is theory at least.. I'm sure many are familiar with this whole idea...

And meanwhile.. I, myself , also went through the 'death' of my 4 month old son in mid-1995.. at the age of 30.. ie. my 'Saturn-Return'.. And which resulted in the subsequent break-up of my marriage 2 weeks before Christmas later that year.. With this whole episode of my life sending me off on a kind of 'Quest'.. ending up with of course my questioning all kinds of taken for granted assumptions about life.. Like asking myself, do I really want to stay here in my hometown working in the family real estate business.. And "who am I?" etc.. With my then in early 1998 meeting Sandy McGregor, the ex-Vietnam Colonel who did so much work with traumatised veterans.. ie. using the mind to create a 'peaceful place' etc.. Before he then told me about 'Insight Seminars' in Sydney.. ie. the Awakening Heart series of experiential workshops & 'group process' work.. etc.. Meeting all kinds of like-minded people.. seeking the answers to the mystery of their own lives & perhaps to life as Whole.. Leading me to read books like 'The Alchemist,' by Paulo Coelho.. along with 'Jonathon Livingston Seagull' & 'Illusions' by Richard Bach etc.. My whole view of the world was beginning to open up like never before.. And all this only because of the death of my son & the end of my marriage etc...

And all this too ending up in my standing there in a room in late 1998, balling my eyes out in at another 'Insight Seminar' receiving a 'group hug' after I broke down over the death of my son, when another man began talking about missing his baby son.. And then suddenly I felt a strange 'presence' above me in the room, before hearing the words, as clear as a bell in my mind.. ie. "There's no need to cry.. everything’s perfect just the way it is".. And right there in that moment, I felt a rush of calming energy flash through my body from my head to my toes, instantly calming me down.. Yes, Ok then where did that come from????????

And this was just part of my whole 'Insight' experience.. With my also later doing a number other workshops.. including a 30 day seminar or experiential series of workshops & daily psychotherapy etc in 2000.. Before also then going on a 2 week trek trough the Himalayas with my fellow' Insight friends etc.. These are some of the most wonderful empowering experiences of my life.. Allowing me to think outside the Consensus world that we are all born into.. And all of this would never have happened if my son had not 'died' & my marriage ended etc.. And so all these 'non-blood' people I met became like a kind of 'surrogate' family to assist me on my way.. ie. taking the 'road less travelled' path in my life.. daring to break "the rules" etc.. And what is 'life' & what is 'death' anyway.. Life, indeed is a great mystery to me that is for sure...

With all this eventually leading me to leave the family real estate business & my home town for the first time in my life on July 4, 2000.. ie. as my very own personal 'Independence Day'.. selling up all my stuff & catching the train to Sydney.. not knowing exactly where I would end up.. Although I ended up staying with one of my 'Insight' friends.. until I figured out what I was going to do etc.. Before going off to do a 10 day 'Visspassana Meditation' retreat in the Blue Mountains.. before eventually ending up living with & eventually working my sister as a Tarot card reader .. where I also first began learning about astrology too.. along with learning all the stories of Greek mythology in the Mythic Tarot.. along with a whole host of New Age books, like reading 'The Book of Changes,' ie. the 'I-Ching'.. along with the book 'The Wheels of Life' on the chakras etc.. Yes, including more 'group' process work living & working with the same people all on a Conscious Spiritual Path together.. That is, before eventually leaving 6 months later to come back home for a while.. While along the way also making a trek across Fraser Island on my own on foot.. along with also being confronted by dingo's while trying to sleep on the beach...

While all this leading me to my now decade long.. & perhaps life-long study of life & its meaning through the archetypal lens of astrology.. looking at life from an evolutionary point of view that is.. And most emphatically not just a totally fated point of view.. ie. astrology as defined by teachers such as, Jungian analyst & astrologer Liz Green & the great evolutionary astrologer Steven Forrest.. ie. being the astrology practices by most modern astrologers that is.. who have both become prolific modern astrology teachers & writers…

Meanwhile all this leading me to where I am now.. having found myself immersed in the mysteries of life & its deeper meaning through the lens of evolutionary & Jungian psychological astrology etc.. along with using various Oracles & forms of Divination to shed some light on various life circumstances or events.. both personally & Collectively.. And all in the name of communing with 'the Divine' etc.. along with looking at life & the world etc through the lens of the symbols of the time...

While also in Feb 2004 taking my first solo round the world trip.. arriving in LA in the US on ground Hog Day.. Yes, one of my favourite movies.. also going to see San Fransisco & New York, before heading off to London about 10 days where I also went to Paris.. the Somme region & Normandy.. before going back to London & then stopping off at Bangkok for a couple of days on the way back home rounding out about a 7 week trip.. While then returning to London & Europe solo again for about 4 weeks each time in the 2 subsequent years.. also visiting Germany for the first time in July 2005.. along with surviving the London Bombings on July 7.. Along with also later returning to also visit Italy & Greece for the first time in Sept 2006.. More adventures in exploring the past.. both ancient & modern etc...

Meanwhile it's now 10.15am.. & here I am writing all this as I also listen to the start of another evolutionary astrology lecture titled 'The 10th House: Career in the Birthchart' by one of my favorite astrology teachers Steven Forrest.. another Cosmic coincidence.. with my writing all this.. signifying my carrying out my Cosmic Job Description.. ie. by writing about my life experiences.. my blog etc et al.. And all this starting automatically after listening to the mp3 file titled *Rolling Surf' that I also bought the other day.. And that I wrote about in my previous blog..

While here is also a brief summary of the classic book 'Running From Safety' by Richard Bach that I was reading from yesterday also.. after mentioning this book in my reply to the blog I read about 'Home'.. at http://www.doyletics.com/_arj1/runningf.htm..

Running From Safety
In this adventure of his Spirit, Richard Bach proves himself to be an umbrologist -- which, as he defines it on page ninety-five, is "A physician who treats disorders of the shadow." He then goes on to wrestle with his shadow, Dickie, who appears to him as a nine-year old boy -- not just any nine-year old boy, but his own Self at nine years old -- come into the present to allow Richard to keep a promise he made to Dickie in 1944. As his teaching angel Shepherd reminds him:

In 1944, when I told you that time was not the wall for me that it was for you. You promised that in fifty years you'd write a book to take back, just for the boy you were, everything you know, what to look out for, how to be happy, knowledge to save your life, things you wish you'd known when you were him.

When Richard calls for Dickie to come he is greeted by a vituperative fury of words fueled by fifty years of isolation in a small cell. Dickie makes it clear he would like to torch Richard with a flame thrower, not talk to him. But talk he does, & an adventure and dialogue of a fifty-nine year old and his nine-year old self begins. Dickie is taken up in Daisy & shown how to fly, fulfilling a childhood dream of his. Other times Richard visits Dickie's world, a large, lifeless desert plain. With each repeat encounter, however, he discovers green patches & new vegetation appearing as this inner world gathers life into itself.

With Dickie's help Richard recovers memories of his brother Bobby who died very young. With Richard's help Dickie learns about what it is to be an adult. Example:

You don't want a million answers as much as you want a few forever questions. The questions are diamonds you hold in the light. Study a lifetime & you see different colors from the same jewel.

These forever questions are similar to what I've called unanswered questions -- it is sometimes better to leave a question unanswered so that the tension to answer it does not drain completely away in some trite response, but continues with full force over the years. And when it's answered with clarity, how do you know the answer's the right one? Richard tells Dickie:

I don't. But every question's a tension inside, a little electric shock, & it crackles through me till it finds an answer. When a question touches an answer, it grounds on intuition, there's a blue flash, the tension's gone. It doesn't say right or wrong, it just says answered.

Dickie asks for an example & Richard tells him his question about his carefree barnstorming days, "Why can't everybody live this way?" The answer that eventually came, "Everybody can't do any one thing, but anybody can!"

Another essential character, always moving in the background, is his wife Leslie. Showing the incredible rapport that comes with marital intimacy, in Chapter Thirty-six, Leslie is awakened by Richard holding a conversation in his head with Dickie. The author muses"

How can Leslie tell I'm awake? How can a deer tell when a leaf falls silently in her forest? She hears it breathing differently.

Where did the title come from? One place is page 155, where Richard tells Dickie to forget safety as an ambition, that:

Running from "safety" is the only way to make your last word Yes!

While here is also an astrological definition of "Home" from the book 'The Inner Sky' by Steven Forest..

The Nadir/ 4th House
Traditional Name: House of Home.
Corresponding Sign: Cancer.
Associated Planet: The Moon.
Terrain: Unconscious, emotional, intuitive underpinnings of personality. The "Hero" & the "Shadow." Domestic life; the home.
Successfully Navigated: Thorough understanding of one's own motivations, needs & fears. Establishment of roots in form of home, family, & attunement to the inner Self.
Unsuccessfully Navigated: Lack of basic psychological Self-knowledge, leading to neurotic, unatisfying, & obsessive bahaviours. Self-absorbtion & Self annalysis to the piont of withdrawal from the world: shyness.

To grasp the significant of the Nadir, we must thoroughly absorb one key piont: the contents of the 4th house are utterly isolated from the outer world. They exist only in the mind. "Reality," in the sense that we normally use the word, is irrelevant to them. They grow & develop with a logic all their own. Have a secret fantasy? When you are daydreaming in the office, are you quietly piloting a starship? Are you feeding the hungry? Opening in Las Vegas? You are encountering the Hero - one of the two poles of the Nadir.

The Hero. A set of grandiose, imaginary Self-images, shaped by the signs & planets in the 4th house. Although they are always embarrassingly unrealistic, those images serve a very real function in the ecology of the mind. They inspire us. They help us understand what we really want. Want to open in Vegas? Maybe your 4th house is telling you that you need a little more applause at home. Or maybe it is time to dust off that old guitar. Always, the Hero - in the form of our recurrent fantasies - tell us what we need in order to create balance between our true nature & the mask we wear in the world.

Balancing the Hero, we find the opposite pole of the 4th house: the Shadow. Here, we store all the horrible, unflattering, terrifying images we have of ourselves. Nightmares are encounters with the Shadow. But so are chronic illogical worries: an obsessive fear of cancer, of psychotic killers, of madness.

Like the Hero, the Shadow is trying to convey a message to us, but decoding it is rarely easy. Always afraid of the psychotic killers? Maybe you have got some stored up anger.. Maybe you're afraid to release it. The Shadow tells us what we fear. But it does far more: The Shadow draws a picture of the fear we are afraid to feel. Decode it, face it, & once again we establish balance between the inner Self & the personality we present to those around us.

Meanwhile I also ask once again what *the Universe wants to say to me about my standing up for my right to be myself & lead my life my way earlier today at home in the face of much censure & rejection etc.. ie. working part time at Eagle Boys while I study astrology.. life & whatsitallmeanthen.. along with all my “weird” experiences etc.. all via my blog etc etc.. although it all also resulted in a certain clearing of the “air” too.. ie. at the end of the day, whatever we choose to do or don't do.. in this life.. that's always our choice.. the only thing that matters is "Love".. Well, yes Dad finally agreed.. despite all my "weirdness" etc.. "We still love you".. "Yes, Dad," I said, as I gave him a sideways hug, "Yes, I know that".. And so I got *7degLeo..

THE WONDER OF THE CONSTELLATIONS OF STARS IN THE NIGHT SKY.. The bigger questions are likely to be in your mind. Even simple issues should be seen against the background of something greater. We sometimes feel like a tiny speck when we consider how huge the Universe is. But we are an important part, all a Star in our own right. Keeping this in mind helps to keep our lives in perspective.

Reminders of the patterns, integration & enormity of nature. The big picture. Observing signatures. Astronomy & astrology.

The Caution: Ignoring down-to-earth issues. Missing small details. Only being amazed by the huge things & not seeing the wonder of the small things in life.

Whlie here is Dane Rudhyar's take on the same symbol..
THE CONSTELLATIONS OF STARS SHINE BRILLIANTLY IN THE NIGHT SKY.. The power of basic Spiritual values which refer to Man’s common humanity & to all enduring archetypes.. a need to find order in existence & to personalise everything.. also the Universe projects its own forever evolving patterns of order upon human nature.. The nearly unchanging patterns of Star groups are opposed to the sequence of ever-changing fashions & Social ideals.. PERMANENCE…

While I also decide to look at *the Sabian Symbol for the Sun's degree at Christmas each year.. on Dec 25th.. depending on which hemisphere you live in, thre Sun will be between 3 & 4 degrees of Capricorn.. so I look at both these symbols to get a sense of the deeper meaning of Christmas.. beginning with *3degCap..

A HUMAN SOUL, IN IT'S EAGERNESS FOR NEW EXPERIENCES, SEEKS EMBODIMENT.. A powerful yearning for whatever will increase the scope & depth of one's contact with other living beings.. being "receptive to growth & understanding".. the strong drive in every human being towards new experiences, whether constructive or destructive.. We may grow & gain understanding & wisdom through both types.. It shows what is behind all uses of power, anabolic & catabolic: a strong desire to prove oneself.. DESIRE TO PROVE ONESELF...

While then followed by the next symbol at *4degCap..

A GROUP OF PEOPLE OUTFITTING A LARGE CANOE AT THE START OF A JOURNEY BY WATER.. The ability to use natural resources & basic skills in order to achieve a group-purpose.. a hint of how to do something comcrete.. The "canoe" may also have a special meaning, as it uses water to move.. A common feeling-response to a specific situation.. ie. group activity in circumstances implying a need for change.. GROUP-ACTIVITY...

And so , it all seems just as if life is really just reminding us all about the old saying.. And yes it is the Season of Santa Claus etc.. ie. Our true "Home" really is where our 'Heart' is, whatever or wherever that is in this world.. be it a thing.. a person, a place, or whatever...... And how often do we pause to listen to our heart.. that is the real question.. Although where our heart is of course can change as we progress through the various 'seasons' of our lives.. With all this also relating to the progressed Moon in relation to our birth chart.. a 30 year cycle closely associated with the cycle or transit of Saturn.. which also takes roughly the same amount of time to travel around all the signs of the zodiac.. With the Moon being a reflection of where our heart is.. both natally & by progression.. ie. our evolving understanding of who we feel we are in the world & who we are becoming etc.. And astrology is ultimately a study of the 'seasons of life' etc.. as the song 'Turn, Turn, Turn' reminds us all about.. While the Moon itself, is how we feel.. & what makes us happy.. the Sun, is also telling us what keeps us sane.. relating more to the rational mind etc.. a delicate dance indeed.. And so where our 'Love' is.. so is also our 'Joy'.. However also 'facing' our wounded places, like Richard Bach going back to get to know his former 9 year old Self, is also part of healing our inner wounded Child-Self.. And gently leading ourselves back into Wholeness again.. or perhaps for the first time ever.. But only, when we are ready, that is, to do the work etc.. Hence the message for us all with the appearance of Comet 'Lovejoy' in the Heavens, at this time.. ie. around 'Christmas'.. And all in alignment with the great order & synchronicity of the Divine Cosmos.. Asking us all the question, what is it in our lives, & within ourselves that is preventing us from rediscovering the love & joy in our lives etc.. And so here appears this comet as a timely Cosmic sign or a reminder for us all.. While all this of course leads me back to the words, from the back page of one of my favourite books by Richard Back, 'Illusions: The Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah'.. ie. "HERE IS A TEST TO FIND WHETHER YOUR MISSION ON EARTH IS FINISHED: IF YOU'RE ALIVE, IT ISN'T.. Or in other words.. DO, BE, DO, BE, DO...........

**NB: Sabian Oracle used at http://www.sabiansymbols.com/page11bd.html?id=974.. With added interpretation of this symbol from ‘An Astrological Mandala: The Cycle of Transformation & Its 360 Symbolic Phases’ by Dane Rudhyar.. Also for books & lectures on evolutionary astrology see http://www.forrestastrology.com/.. Also for books & workshops by Liz Greene see http://www.heavenandearthworkshops.com/lizgreene.html...

Drawn Back to the Sea....

2011-12-22T12:14:00.014+11:00

22/12/11 Meanwhile it's now 9.48am.. & here I am sitting downstairs in front of my computer desk as I do as part of my daily ritual.. While I also find myself listening to the incredibly calming & deeply comforting sounds of 'Beach Waves' from an mp3 recording I bought a couple of days ago from a soundscape artist I found online.. And so here I include my notes from my ongoing perpetual journal on all this etc over the last few days.. as I have been almost constantly listening to this recording titled 'Sleepy Beach Waves' on my MP3 player ever since.. awake or sleeping.. ie. except when I went to work that is.....

While the Sea of course is also described astrologically by the planet Neptune, as King Neptune, ruled the Sea.. along with the sign of Pisces, the Fishes, ruled by Neptune.. the planet/ God..

Pisces, The Fishes
Element: Water
Mode: Mutable
Archetypes: The Mystic, The Dreamer, The Poet.

We are... luminous beings. We are
perceivers. We are an awareness; we are
not objects; we have no solidity. We are
boundless...

Don Juan Matus,
quoted by
Carlos Castaneda

The Symbol
Ocean. Not Fishes, but the home of the fish: Mother Ocean, the realm of undersea sierras, of luminous plankton, of lost cities. Ocean, mother of life, brooding symbol of all that is impenetrable. All that can be felt but never known.

Ocean: washing the shores of continents, carrying art & thoughts among the nations, carrying war, carrying disease & pestilence, carrying food & wine, poets & musicians, endlessly mixing & blending the Cultures of Earth.

The Piscean ocean: liquid, flowing symbol of the unutterable mystery that binds us all together.

The symbol of life.

Endpoint
Buddhist teachers in high Tibet counsel their students to regard the world as a dream. People, events. relationships, even the mountains themselves - all are to be seen as mirages, only a play on insubstantial images in the mind.

In the West, we often misinterpret the Buddhist idea. We take it to mean that the world is not real, that its atoms & molecules are illusory: a tough notion to swallow, especially when you have just stubbed your toe on the "illusory" bedpost.

To those Buddhist teachers, the reality or unreality of the world is not the issue. The point is deeper: it is a recognition that we do not experience the world directly - we experience an awareness of the world.

An awareness: something cerebral, something in our heads. What we take to be be the world is an electrochemical phenomenon occurring in the folds & creases of our brains. Only a play of images. Only a dream.

For most of us, that kind of knowledge is of no particular use. Whether we were bitten by a dog or bitten by the illusion of a dog does not concern us: we hurt either way.

For Pisces, that knowledge is everything. Why? Because Pisces is the symbol of Consciousness itself. Traditionally associated with mysticism, the Fishes' evolutionary pathway represents the fundamental alteration in the way the mind operates. A shifting of gears. Instead of observing the world, Pisces observes the mind observing the world. The objective universe evaporates. All that matters is a vast network of subjective reactions.

All that remains is a dream.

The Piscean endpoint? A realisation. A subtle reorientation of the mind. A reorientation that changes nothing & yet changes everything. It is the knowledge that wherever we go, whatever we do, whatever we see, we can meet only one inescapable reality: our own Consciousness.

20/12/11 Meanwhile it’s now 3.20am.. & here I am back inside again up at this early hour having just gone outside to look at the Stars again on a clear dark blue night sky twinkling with Stars as the constellation of Taurus is setting & Scorpio is rising.. While also thinking of the Sun & the Moon again.. With the Moon being the natural ruler of the night sky.. ie. as the “Queen of the night”.. the archetypal symbol of the "feminine".. or the creative or 'Yin' element within all of us.. Or as 'the anima,' as Carl Jung described it.. While the Sun of course is the natural ruler of the day.. symbolising outward manifestation & worldly achievement etc.. That which is most visible in the world.. As the so called "masculine" quality, within us all.. the 'Yang' force.. or the 'Animus' as Carl Jung also called it.. Meanwhile I also note as I write all this that the Moon is the only one that can travel between both the day & the night sky.. And so naturally symbolising the ‘feminine’ or ‘feeling’ quality of being able to put oneself in the shoes or the position of the Other.. While I also noted Mars, the red planet rising in the sign of Virgo.. closely followed by *the Libra Moon along with *Saturn in Libra following closely behind.. but not quite yet visible above Rocky Hill to the East.. both also preceding the constellation of Scorpio rising in the East.. Although it later turned out that the Moon & Saturn were indeed visible well above the Eastern horizon, but were obscured by the block of flats I live in.. since the ecliptic plane is much higher at this time of year.. While with *Mercury in Sagittarius also rising.. still below the Ascendant.. or the horizon, preceding the Sun, both in the “whatsitallmeanthen” sign of Sagittarius…

Meanwhile it’s now 7.42am.. & here I am downstairs having just logged on for another day.. on this little planet we call Earth.. While I also am thinking about getting away for the day & going for a drive somewhere....... While I also shortly after tune into ABC Classic Fm once again…

Meanwhile it’s now 8.15am.. & here I am having just commented on a post made by Robyn on Facebook.. ie. “Spend time with those that make your heart sing................ It's about keeping our energy fields healthy”...............

And my reply.... "Thanks Robyn.. Yes, all those 'like-minded' Others, wherever they are.. be it a person, a favourite author, or book, a piece of music, art, writing in & or reading from a diary, a favourite movie, ie. doing something or anything we love.. ie. 'To thine own Self be true'"...

Meanwhile all this too leads me to ask *the Sabian Oracle what is the real meaning of Christmas for all of us.. I got *29degGem..

THE FIRST MOCKINGBIRD OF SPRING SINGS FROM THE TREE TOP.. You can take the best of what is available & make it even better. The 'Mockingbird' is often seen as copying others & therefore not particularly original. But the 'Mockingbird' is very creative; it uses the sounds of other birds to make a very unique call of its own. There is a great deal of skill involved in this & there are always those who will respond jealously. A key question is: are the words or thoughts original & unique or are they borrowed from others without any sense or filter of personal authenticity?

Enormous creative potential & talent in taking music or sounds * integrating them to find a new melody. Being the first at seeing potentiality. New songs signalling new beginnings. The joys of Spring.

The Caution: Taking the best from others & claiming the credit. Being noisy. Announcing new possibilities or just sounding off?

While here is Dane Rudyar's take on the same symbol..

THE FIRST MOCKINGBIRD OF SPRING.. The creative exuberance of the human Soul is response to basic life experiences.. the reaction of the individual who has become sensitive to many life currents in his or her environment & who is able to exteriorise this welling-up response as a gift to his or her Society.. VIRTUOSITY…

Meanwhile it’s now 9.49am.. & here I am watching the start of another episode of *Stargate, Universe.. S2, Ep3 titled *‘Awakening’.. where the Destiny docks with an ancient Stargate-seeding ship. Rush, Eli, & the scientists try to link the ships' power together to dial Earth, while Scott & Greer explore the ship. The group encounters an alien & tries to befriend it. When Col. Young decides to capture the alien, the alien escapes & the other aliens that were with it decide to reverse the energy transfer, interrupting the dialing & threatening to leave Destiny power-drained & adrift. Eventually Rush manages to unlink the two ships in time, but Telford is left behind.. with this episode first screening back on Oct 12, 2010... **All this with *the Aquarian Ascendant.. in my 10th house.. closely aligned at the focal point of a ‘Yod’ with the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Sun-Jupiter in Cancer.. in my 3rd house.. along with *Mars in Virgo.. in my 5th house.. while all also closely trine.. semi-sextile & square my *prog Jupiter in Gemini.. in my 2nd house.. while both also forming a ‘grand air trine’ with.. square & semi-sextile the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Libra Part of Fortune along with my *prog Libra Moon.. in my 6th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. trine.. opposing.. square & inconjunct my *prog Saturn® in Pisces along with my *prog Pisces MC.. in my 11th house.. while all also closely square.. forming a ‘grand water trine’ with.. sextile.. inconjunct.. semi-sextile & trine my *prog Neptune® in Scorpio.. in my 7th house.. while *the Scorpio MC.. in my 7th house.. also closely trine the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Vesta in Cancer along with my *prog Cancer Sun.. in my 3rd house.. while both also closely sextile my natal Uranus in Virgo.. in my 5th house.. while all also closely inconjunct.. semi-sextile & square the midpoint of my natal Venus-Gemini Nth Node.. in my 2nd house.. while *the Sagittarian Part of Fortune.. in my 8th house.. also applying to closely align with my *prog Sagittarian Sth Node.. while both also closely sextile *Pallas in Aquarius.. in my 10th house.. while all also closely square & semi-sextile my *Sol-Arc Pisces Moon.. in my 11th house.. meanwhile *the Libra Moon.. in my 6th house.. also closely aligned at the midpoint of my *prog Libra Moon along with my *Sol-Arc Uranus in Libra.. while both also closely trine my natal Pallas in Aquarius.. in my 10th house.. while all also closely inconjunct & semi-sextile my *prog Chiron® in Pisces.. in my 11th house.. while all also closely square.. inconjunct & trine the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Jupiter-Venus in Cancer.. in my 3rd house…

Meanwhile it’s now 2.29pm.. & here I am back home again watching the start of the movie *‘Cast Away’.. one of my all time favourite movies.. And all this after earlier going down to spend some quiet time at The Victory Memorial Gardens once again, where I got the idea of watching this movie once again.. And all this too after also looking at some satellite images of Tathra on the south coast yesterday after thinking about spending a few days near the ocean again.. something I haven’t done for a long time… **All this with *the Aries Ascendant.. in my 12th house.. separating from its sextile to the midpoint of *the Aquarian Part of Fortune along with *Pallas in Aquarius & my natal Juno in Aquarius.. in my 10th house.. while all also forming a ‘Yod’ with the midpoint of my natal Mars-Pluto in Virgo along with *Mars in Virgo.. in my 5th house.. while all also closely sextile.. trine & square my natal Gemini Nth Node along with *the Gemini Sth Node & my *Sol-Arc Gemini Ascendant.. in my 2nd house.. in my 2nd house.. while all also closely opposing.. forming a ‘grand air trine‘ with & semi-sextile my *Sol-Arc Libra Part of Fortune.. in my 6th house.. while all also closely trine.. sextile.. square & opposing my natal Sagittarian Sth Node along with *the Sagittarian Nth Node.. in my 8th house.. while all also closely square.. forming a ‘Yod’ with.. sextile & semi-sextile my *prog Cancer Sun.. in my 3rd house.. while *the Capricorn MC.. in my 9th house.. also applying to closely sextile my *prog Neptune® in Scorpio.. in my 7th house.. while both also forming a ‘Yod’ with my *prog Jupiter in Gemini.. in my 2nd house.. while all also closely sextile.. trine & square my *prog Saturn® in Pisces along with my *prog Pisces MC.. in my 11th house.. meanwhile *the Libra Moon.. in my 6th house.. also separating from my *Sol-Arc Uranus in Libra.. while both also closely trine the midpoint of my natal Pallas in Aquarius along with *Neptune in Aquarius & my *prog Aquarian Part of Fortune.. in my 10th house…

Meanwhile it’s now 4.48pm.. & here I am listening to the start of an MP3 recording of the sounds of the ocean from a website I just found after watching the end credits to the film *‘Cast Away’ & hearing the sounds of the ocean waves at the end.. with this recording titled *‘Sleepy Beach Waves’.. And so guess what *the Sabian Symbol is for the Ascendant at this time.. at *14degTau..

ON THE BEACH, CHILDREN PLAY WHILE SHELLFISH GROPE AT THE EDGE OF THE WATER.. Returning to the simpler joys for revitalisation.. Consciousness operates at two levels, in close parallel with what goes on in the unconscious parts of the mind, ie. the Sea.. This symbol suggests that it is better not to attempt at once more than one can achieve through Conscious & Ego-driven ambition.. the value, at this stage, of the close contact with natural energies & simple pleasures, & of a live & let live attitude.. LIVE & LET LIVE…

**All this with *the Taurus Ascendant.. in my 1st house.. applying to closely trine my natal Mars-Pluto in Virgo.. in my 5th house.. while all also closely sextile my *prog Cancer Sun.. in my 3rd house.. while all also closely square & forming a ‘Yod’ with the midpoint of *Pallas in Aquarius along with my *prog Juno® in Aquarius.. in my 10th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. square & trine my natal Gemini Nth Node along with *the Gemini Sth Node & my *Sol-Arc Gemini Ascendant.. in my 2nd house.. while all also forming a ‘Yod’ with.. square.. sextile & opposing my natal Sagittarian Sth Node along with *the Sagittarian Nth Node.. in my 8th house.. while all also closely sextile.. forming a ‘mutable grand cross’ with.. trine & semi-sextile *the Pisces Part of Fortune along with my *Sol-Arc Pisces Moon.. in my 11th house.. while *the Aquarian MC.. in my 10th house.. also applying to closely align with my *prog Pallas® in Aquarius.. while both also closely trine my *prog Libra Moon.. in my 6th house.. while all also closely inconjunct & square my *Sol-Arc Jupiter in Cancer.. in my 3rd house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. inconjunct & trine the midpoint of my *prog Pisces MC along with my *prog Chiron® in Pisces.. in my 11th house.. meanwhile *the Libra Moon along with *Saturn in Libra.. in my 6th house.. both also applying to closely align with my *Sol-Arc Mars-Pluto in Libra.. while all also closely trine *Neptune in Aquarius along with my *prog Aquarian Part of Fortune.. in my 10th house.. while all also closely sextile *the Sagittarian Sun.. in my 8th house.. while all also closely square & forming a ‘Yod’ with my *Sol-Arc Cancer Sun.. in my 3rd house.. while all also closely square.. semi-sextile & opposing my *Sol-Arc Capricorn Sth Node along with my natal Capricorn Moon.. in my 9th house…

Meanwhile it’s now 5.31pm.. & here I am having just read the bio of the Canadian female sound artist.. ie. Karen Ramirez, who created all these natural sound recordings at her website at http://whitenoisemp3s.com.. ie. another fellow dedicated creative Soul… **All this with *the Taurus Ascendant.. in my 1st house.. separating from its sextile to *Ceres in Pisces along with *the Pisces Part of Fortune & my *prog Chiron® in Pisces.. in my 11th house.. while both also forming a ‘Yod’ with the midpoint of my *prog Libra Moon along with my *Sol-Arc Uranus in Libra.. in my 6th house.. while all also closely square.. semi-sextile & trine my natal Pallas in Aquarius.. in my 10th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. square & forming a ‘grand air trine’ with my *Sol-Arc Mercury in Gemini.. in my 2nd house.. while *the Pisces MC along with *Chiron in Pisces.. in my 10th house.. while both also closely sextile *Jupiter® in Taurus along with my *Sol-Arc Saturn in Taurus.. in my 1st house.. while all also closely semi-sextile *Uranus in Aries along with my *prog Ceres in Aries.. in my 1st house.. while all also closely opposing.. trine & inconjunct my natal Virgo Part of Fortune.. in my 4th house.. meanwhile *the Libra Moon along with *Saturn in Libra.. in my 6th house.. both remain closely aligned with my *Sol-Arc Mars-Pluto in Libra.. while all also remain closely trine *Neptune in Aquarius along with my *prog Aquarian Part of Fortune.. in my 10th house etc…

Meanwhile it’s now 6.43pm.. & here I am listening to a loop of a preview of one of the soundscapes titled *‘Rolling Surf’.. as I also just completed purchasing 3 of these recordings online on MP3 file from the White Noise website.. ie. ‘Healing Storm’.. ‘Sleepy Beach Waves’ & ‘Rolling Surf’.. And all this too as I have been sitting here dozing off on the lounge listening to this preview along with the 2 others I bought.. While in the background the movie *‘Cast Away’ is also playing once again.. without the sound.. except for the sounds of these MP3 files I have been listening to over & over again on a replay loop… **All this with *the Gemini Ascendant.. in my 2nd house.. separating from my natal Jupiter in Gemini.. while both also closely sextile my *Sol-Arc Pallas in Aries along with *the Aries Part of Fortune.. in my 12th house.. while all also closely sextile & trine my *prog Venus-Mercury in Leo.. in my 4th house.. while all also closely opposed by & forming a ‘grand fire trine’ with *Mercury in Sagittarius.. in my 8th house.. while all also forming a ‘Yod’ with.. square & semi-sextile *Pluto in Capricorn.. in my 9th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. square.. inconjunct & trine the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Ceres-Chiron in Taurus along with my natal Mercury in Taurus.. in my 1st house.. while *the Pisces MC.. in my 11th house.. also applying to closely align with my natal Ceres-Chiron in Pisces along with *Ceres in Pisces.. while all also closely trine my *Sol-Arc Jupiter in Cancer.. in my 3rd house.. while all also closely inconjunct & square my *prog Libra Moon.. in my 6th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. inconjunct & trine my *prog Pallas® in Aquarius.. in my 10th house.. meanwhile *the Libra Moon.. in my 6th house.. also closely aligned with *Saturn in Libra along with my *Sol-Arc Mars-Pluto in Libra.. while all also closely trine *Neptune in Aquarius along with my *prog Aquarian Part of Fortune.. in my 10th house.. while all also closely sextile *the Sagittarian Sun.. in my 8th house.. while all also forming a ‘Yod’ with & square my natal Taurus Sun.. in my 2nd house.. while all also closely square.. forming a ‘Yod’ with & sextile my *Sol-Arc Cancer Nth Node.. in my 3rd house.. while all also closely square.. semi-sextile.. trine & opposing my *Sol-Arc Capricorn Sth Node along with my natal Capricorn Moon & *Venus in Capricorn.. in my 9th house…

Meanwhile it’s now 10.29pm.. & here I am once again back at the website http://whitenoisemp3s.com/sounds-like/space.. listening to some more soundscapes.. with the current recording titled *‘Intergalactic Cruiser’.. sounding somewhat like the Starship Voyager or something like that.. along with also previously listening to a few other recordings in this grouping.. ie. sounds like space.. Meanwhile it also occurs to me that I may have in fact already heard some of these soundscapes before on the Up Late program on ABC Classic Fm… **All this with *the Scorpio Moon.. in my 7th house.. separating from its trine to *Chiron in Pisces.. in my 10th house.. while both also closely opposing & sextile *Jupiter® in Taurus along with my *Sol-Arc Saturn in Taurus.. in my 1st house.. while all also closely sextile.. opposing & trine my natal Virgo Part of Fortune.. in my 4th house.. while all also forming a ‘Yod’ with & semi-sextile *Uranus in Aries along with my *prog Ceres in Aries.. in my 11th house…

Meanwhile it’ snow 2.55pm.. & here I am having just arrived back home again after calling into Mum & Dad’s place on my way downtown.. to go & sit in The Victory Memorial Gardens once again.. however after arriving at my parents place.. to take some of my stuff after Mum had been cleaning out the house etc.. I found myself sitting at Dad’s computer going through all my travel photos’ along with various family photos from Christmas etc from 2004 up until now.. While I also sorted out some of the groups of photos as I went.. along with emailing to myself copies of the photos I didn’t have.. along with also getting a glimpse of myself over the last few years etc.. Meanwhile all this too as I once again resumed listening to the *‘Beach Waves’ sound recording that I bought yesterday & am so seemingly drawn to & mesmerised by at this time.. And all this since about 12.30pm or so… **All this with beginning with *the Pisces Ascendant.. in my 11th house.. moving through to Aries now in my 12th house.. while *the Sagittarian MC.. in my 8th house.. also moving through to Capricorn in my 9th house.. while *the Capricorn Part of Fortune.. in my 9th house.. also moving through to Aquarius in my 10th house.. meanwhile now *the Scorpio Moon.. in my 7th house.. applying to closely sextile my natal Uranus in Virgo.. in my 5th house.. while also applying to & separating from its inconjunct to my natal Venus in Gemini along with my *prog Vesta in Gemini.. in my 2nd house.. while *Mercury in Sagittarius.. in my 8th house.. also moving through its trine to my *Sol-Arc Pallas in Aries.. in my 12th house.. while both also forming a ‘grand fire trine‘ with my *prog Venus-Mercury in Leo.. in my 4th house.. while all also closely opposing & sextile my natal Jupiter in Gemini.. in my 2nd house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. square & forming a ‘Yod‘ with *Pluto in Capricorn.. in my 9th house.. while all also closely inconjunct.. semi-sextile.. square & trine the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Ceres-Chiron in Taurus along with my natal Mercury in Taurus.. in my 1st house.. while *Venus in Aquarius.. in my 9th house.. also applying to closely sextile *Uranus in Aries along with my *prog Ceres in Aries.. in my 11th house.. while all also forming a ‘Yod’ with my natal Virgo Part of Fortune.. in my 4th house.. while all also closely square.. semi-sextile & trine *Jupiter® in Taurus along with my *Sol-Arc Saturn in Taurus.. in my 1st house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. opposed by & sextile *Vesta in Pisces along with *Chiron in Pisces.. in my 10th house.. while *Mars in Virgo.. in my 5th house.. also applying to closely oppose my *prog Saturn® in Pisces along with my *prog Pisces MC.. in my 11th house.. while all also closely square my *prog Jupiter in Gemini.. in my 2nd house.. while all also closely sextile.. trine & inconjunct my *prog Neptune® in Scorpio.. in my 7th house.. while *Saturn in Libra.. in my 6th house.. also applying to closely align with my *Sol-Arc Mars-Pluto in Libra.. while all also remain closely trine *Neptune in Aquarius.. along with my *prog Aquarian Part of Fortune.. in my 10th house.. meanwhile all also remain closely sextile *the Sagittarian Sun.. in my 8th house.. while all also remain closely square & forming a ‘Yod’ with my *Sol-Arc Cancer Nth Node.. in my 3rd house.. while all also remain closely square.. semi-sextile & opposing my *Sol-Arc Capricorn Sth Node along with my natal Capricorn Moon.. in my 9th house.. while all also remain forming a ‘Yod’ with.. square.. sextile & trine my natal Taurus Sun.. in my 2nd house.. while all also remain part of a ‘Yod’ with.. square.. semi-sextile.. trine & sextile my *Sol-Arc Juno in Pisces.. in my 11th house…

Meanwhile it’s now 11.09pm.. & here I am home from work having just started playing the *‘Beach Waves’ recording once again on Media Player once again that I listened to today for about 11 hours or so… **All this with *the Leo Ascendant.. in my 4th house.. separating from it trine to my natal Sagittarian Sth Node along with *the Sagittarian Nth Node.. in my 8th house.. while all also closely sextile my *Sol-Arc Libra Part of Fortune.. in my 6th house.. while all also closely sextile.. opposed by & trine my natal Gemini Nth Node along with *the Gemini Sth Node & my *Sol-Arc Gemini Ascendant.. in my 2nd house.. while all also closely opposing.. sextile & forming a ‘grand air trine’ with my natal Juno in Aquarius.. in my 10th house.. while all also forming a ‘Yod’ with.. square & semi-sextile the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Pisces Moon along with my natal Saturn in Pisces.. in my 11th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. square.. forming a ‘Yod’ with & trine my *prog Cancer Sun.. in my 3rd house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. forming a ‘mutable grand cross’ with.. part of a ‘Yod’ with & sextile my *prog Pluto in Virgo.. in my 5th house.. meanwhile all also closely square.. semi-sextile.. inconjunct.. forming a ‘grand water trine’ & sextile *the Scorpio Moon.. in my 7th house.. while *the Gemini MC.. in my 2nd house.. also separating from a trine to *Venus in Aquarius.. in my 9th house.. while both also closely sextile *Uranus in Aries along with my *prog Ceres in Aries.. in my 11th house.. while all also closely square & forming a ‘Yod’ with my natal Virgo Part of Fortune.. in my 4th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. square & trine *Jupiter® in Taurus along with my *Sol-Arc Saturn in Taurus.. in my 1st house.. while all also closely square.. semi-sextile.. opposed by & sextile *Vesta in Pisces along with *Chiron in Pisces.. in my 10th house.. while *the Virgo Part of Fortune.. in my 5th house.. also separating from its trine to my *Sol-Arc Capricorn Sth Node along with my natal Capricorn Moon.. in my 9th house.. while all also forming a ‘grand earth trine’ with my natal Taurus Sun.. in my 2nd house.. while all also closely opposing.. sextile & trine my *Sol-Arc Juno in Pisces.. in my 11th house.. while all also forming a ‘Yod’ with.. semi-sextile & square *Neptune in Aquarius along with my *prog Aquarian Part of Fortune.. in my 10th house.. while all also closely square.. semi-sextile.. forming a ‘Yod’ with & sextile *the Sagittarian Sun.. in my 8th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. square.. forming a ‘Yod’ with.. trine & sextile the midpoint of *Saturn in Libra & my *Sol-Arc Mars-Pluto in Libra along with my natal Libra Descendant…

22/12/11 Meanwhile it’s now 8.29am.. & here I am once again reading about the film *‘Cast Away’ from wikipedia as I also once again find myself listening to & mesmerised by the mp3 I bought a couple of days ago titled *‘Beach Waves’.. as I feel myself being drawn back into the mystery of life at this time.. as opposed to thinking rationally about everything etc.. And all this too as I also find myself looking at the astro chart for the premiere of this one of my favourite films.. while also at work last night.. at Tolland.. where I began at Eagle Boys just over 7 years ago.. I also found myself feeling profoundly like I didn’t belong there anymore.. as it just all feels like I am back at high school again.. although perhaps is a reason I have needed to do that.. along with allowing my to work part time, allowing myself time to "play," write.. reflect & study etc.. While I also noticed once again the boxes of aluminium containers at work with the brand name “Castaway”.. written in green print on the boxes.. And all this too as I continue listen to the sounds of the waves continually crashing onto the beach & receding back into the ocean again.. with the sounds of the waves symbolising a search for a much deeper truth within me.. ie. that which normally seems ever illusive & ineffable.. And so once again I turn to *the Sabian Oracle to ask what *the Universe wants to say to me about all these thoughts of leaving Eagle Boys.. & perhaps selling my car & or stuff etc & setting off into the unknown of life again.. I got *9degCap..

AN ANGEL COMES CARRYING A HARP.. You may feel that you are able to 'tune in' & radiate harmony around you. This pictures a situation of caring for others, of generosity & a fulfilled Selfhood. Inspiring people to do their best can bring rewards to all concerned.

Messages of peace from the other side. Being in tune, Spiritually. Having an elevated view of humanity. Creating harmony. Pulling on the heartstrings. Redemption.

The Caution: Having a holier-than-thou attitude. Losing oneself in fantasy. Tricking people with soothing words that mean nothing.

While here is astrologer Dane Rudhyar's interpretation of the same symbol..

AN ANGEL CARRYING A HARP.. The revelation of the Spiritual meaning & purpose at the core of any life situation.. This picture simply says that “Heaven is within us”.. All we have to do is to be open & listen to the total harmony of life.. to surrender our separative Ego-Consciousness & flow with the Universal current.. ie. the Will of God.. ATTUNEMENT…

And so I also ask then are these “signs”.. ie. the film ‘Cast Away’ & the sounds of the ocean trying to give me a sign that it is time to leave Wagga etc again.. I got *2degLeo..

AN EPIDEMIC OF MUMPS.. There is something affecting everyone that probably started with just one person. This can be about news or gossip, or it can be about ill feelings or ill will. Whether this is you or someone else in the group, it is likely to be spreading nonetheless. There needs to be a separation or isolation to halt the spread of infection & then a time spent in recovery.

Hysteria of feelings or ideas or immunity. Things getting out of control. Viruses & bacterial diseases. Rumours & innuendo.

The Caution: Fear of bad health. Hypochondria. Rampaging gossip.

While here is Dane Rudhyar's take on the same symbol..

AN EPIDEMIC OF MUMPS.. The spreading power of individual crises through a Collectivity.. a childhood issue is implied.. Leo represents, at least potentially, rebirth - at the level of the Conscious & mind-based individuality.. Thus in Leo we, in this sense, are yet only a “little child” - ie. a would-be initiate, an infant in Spirit.. What was an individual issue is now seen as a Collective danger.. THE INFECTIOUS SPREAD OF INDIVIDUAL EXPERIENCES…

While I also ask then what if I stay at Eagle Boys.. but just take some time off instead of leaving etc.. ie. so what does the Universe want to say to me about this idea.. I got *26degVir..

A BOY WITH A CENSER SERVES NEAR THE PRIEST AT THE ALTAR.. It doesn't matter whether what you are doing is inconsequential, because even the smallest contribution is an important part of the whole. Give reverence & respect to your everyday routines, & find hope renewed through the promise of what's to come in the future. Your time will come as you grow & mature & you'll be able to take the higher position in life.

Doing what's simple, with silence & devotion. Participating in the toil, but not the glory. Altars & shrines. Incense & candles. Passing down wisdom & knowledge. Looking up to those in power.

The Caution: Being dominated by Spiritual hierarchy. Doing 'lesser things' to avoid responsibility. An imbalance of rewards and responsibilities. Abuse of power. Taking advantage of the innocent.

While here is Dane Rudhyar's take on the same symbol..

A BOY WITH A CENSER SERVES THE PRIEST NEAR THE ALTAR.. The first stage of actual participation in the great ritual of planetary evolution.. The individual is “e-ducated,” ie. led out into the world of transcendent activity, the world of archetypal performance.. He or she must learn to serve, humbly & with intense attention, in what is yet beyond his or her Spiritual understanding.. ie. to perform every action super-personally.. PRACTICE IN THE PRESENCE OF GOD…

While I also ask once again.. ie. looking at the notes I wrote on the sheet of paper I stuck to the kitchen cupboard door a while ago.. that if I am to write My Story or Book.. what is it to be all about then.. I got *18degCan..

A HEN IS SCRATCHING FOR HER CHICKS.. The essential need for nourishment must be satisfied in order to proceed in life. There are those around you who also depend on your ability to provide nourishment - both the literal - food, & the symbolic, Spiritual caring. Getting down to business & finding what nourishes will bring improvement & growth.

Searching for sustenance. Being devoted to the nurturing of small beginnings. Concern for the essential, small details. Repetitive cycles of things that have to be done.

The Caution: Pointless searching where there is no nourishment left. Fussing around. Not letting people grow up & take responsibility for themselves.

While here is Dane Rudyar's interpretation of the same symbol..

A HEN SCRATCHING THE GROUND TO FIND NOURISHMENT FOR HER PROGENY.. The practical concern for everyday nourishment necessary to sustain ones outreaching activities.. Every mother is originally responsible for the feeding of her progeny, & all activities into which a person has poured his or her energy are their symbolic children.. Seed, germ & the growing plant requiring the chemicals of the soil for its daily growth form a clear sequence.. FULFILLING OF LIFE’S RESONSIBILITIES…

While here is also the astro chart for the film 'Cast Away' on its premiere, ie. its birth, on Dec 7, 2000 in the US.. the time is unknown so I use a midday chart..

And so with the Sun in the sign of Sagittarius, the sign of the Gypsy' or the Philospher' I also once again turn to *the Sabian Symbol for the Sun's degree at the time of this films premiere.. as the core symbol of what this film is all about for us all.. ie. beyond just the obvious symbol of the films subject matter itself.. And so with the Sun at 16deg01.. it is in the 17th degree.. & so at *17degSag..

AN EASTER SUNRISE SERVICE DRAWS A LARGE CROWD.. The Culturally stimulated longing for group participation in a process of rebirth.. Easter is the Christan way of celebrating the coming of Spring & the rebirth of life on Earth after the hardships of winter.. discovering in nature's cycles great movements that stimulate the Spiritual quest for the psychic & mental equivalent of Solar light & warmth.. REBIRTH...

While the Sagittarian Sun is also closely aligned with Chiron & Pluto in Sagittarius, along with Ceres & Mercury in Sagittarius.. And Sagittarius, as the sign of the Gypsy & the Philosopher is always about broadening one's horizons indeed.. ie. getting outside one's comfort zone's etc.. While this 'stellium' or group of planets is also all closely sextiles Uranus in Aquarius.. along with Neptune, Vesta & Juno in Aquarius.. another 'stellium' of 'planets'.. And so Uranus, as the ruler of the sign of Aquarius, is also the planet of "individuation" & rebellion against all the taken for granted values & assumptions of so-called 'normal' Society.. ie. our family & community etc.. While also with Neptune's involvement in this aspect, as symbol of the Sea.. the great mysterious depths..
And as ruler of the sign Pisces, the sign of the Fishes.. the archetypes of Neptune/Pisces also symbolise a desire to return to 'the Source,' ie. the Sea, & or intergalactic Space.. & or the Source of all life, both Spiritually & literally according to the deep mystery of 'evolutiuon'...

Sagittarius, The Archer
Element: Fire
Mode: Mutable
Archetypes: The Gypsy, The Student, The Philosopher.

It is not entertainment I am seeking. It is
understanding. Understanding, understanding,
& more understanding. I will stuff myself with
it, sniff it up with every pore, cram it into every
orifice. Someday it will pay off. Everything
will fall into its proper place, & I will, at
last, understand.

Laurel Goldman

The Symbol
Not the archer but the arrow. Fingers quivering with tension, the marksman releases the taut string. The curve of the bow snaps back, sending the feathered shaft darting into space.

The arrow. It flies faster than sight, whipping through the air, speeding towards the clouds. If it had eyes, it would see the archer's form grow tiny, fading to an insignificant speck in the landscape laid out like a map, simple & schematic.

If that arrow were suddenly given a mind, what thoughts would occupy it? Like a man on mountain peak, it would think thoughts of perspective & experience, driven by exuberance. Who fired me into this luminous sky & for what purpose? What is my place here? Where am I Going? What is the reason for my existence?

Endpoint
The Archer's endpoint is perhaps the most difficult of the twelve to define at a practical level. For Sagittarius there is no clear ending, only an endless process. It is a moving, fluid state of being. An image of life as a perpetual quest. A recognition that the elemental human task is the search for meaning - & the realisation that in this world of impermanence, no sacrifice of safety or security counts for anything if it stands between any of us & that unceasing quest.

Aquarius, The Water Bearer
Element: Air
Mode: Fixed
Archetypes: The Genius, The Revolutionary, The Truth Sayer, The Scientist, The Exile.

If you meet the Buddha
in the road, kill him.

Zen Buddhist saying

The Symbol
The Aquarian glyph - a pair of parallel wavy lines - is often mistaken for water. That is not the case. Those lines are serpents, symbols of knowledge.

In Eden, the serpent tempted Eve to eat of the fruit of the Tree of Knowledge. She did, & God threw her & Adam out of the garden for it, setting into motion the history of the world.

But in acquiring that knowledge Eve did something more. In that single rebellious Aquarian act, she gave birth to a quality far more precious than safety, far more precious even than wisdom.

She gave birth to human freedom.

Endpoint
Freedom that is the Aquarian endpoint. What is it? Individuality. The ability to choose one's own Path. To do what we want to do. Take orders from no one, be that person, father, mother, president, priest, or any other authority figure.
Easier said than done.

Enormous forces are massed against our individuality, forces that can steamroller us if we let them, turn us into dancing monkeys. Peer pressure. Conformity. Socialisation. The desire to be accepted. Let them take hold, & we serve two masters: our own nature & the vagaries of those around us. Immediately, our freedom is compromised.

For Aquarius, that compromise is anathema. The Water-Bearer's mortal enemy is the tribal instinct. If he or she succumbs all is lost. He or she becomes just one more familiar character in the endless sitcom of daily existence.

To conquer that tribal instinct, the Water-Bearer must cultivate an absolute loyalty to truth. He or she must say what they say, regardless of the consequences. He or she must stand firm when their freedom is challenged, whether by direct coercion or by insidious persuasion. He or she must accept willingly their destiny: that of exile, forever ordained to be out of sync with the values & motivations of their community.

The Aquarian endpoint? The flawless, uncompromising expression of Self, individuality perfected.

While these two stelliums of planets also form a 'Yod' or a 'Finger of Fate' aspect with the Nth Node of the Moon.. in the sign of Cancer.. the sign of one's deepest roots, relating to home & family.. ie. & finding one's true home in the world, beyond the mere familial, biological one that is.. While the Nth Node of the Moon always relates to the 'evolutionary' way forward...

Cancer, The Crab
Element: Water
Mode: Cardinal
Archetype: The Mother, The Healer, The Invisible One.

Those for whom not to be seen is non-
existence are not alive; & the kind of
existence they seek, the immortality they
seek, is spectral; to be seen is the ambition
of ghosts, & to be remembered the
ambition of the dead.

Norman O. Brown

The Symbol
The Crab. A vulnerable creature. A succulent piece of meat. The food of gulls. How can he survive? What hope is there for him? He is only a morsel awaiting the predator's mouth.

To live, the Crab must grow a shell. He must grow a wall between himself & nature. He is too delicate to protect himself in any other way.

With his armor, the Crab endures. He is at peace with his environment. But that success holds the seeds of a perilous transformation. The Crab eats. He matures. And soon he outgrows his shell. It must be shed. If he is cunning & lucky, he may live to grow another one. One that is larger, more suited to his expanded state. But only if he is cunning & lucky.

Endpoint
Dizzied by Gemini's spinning carousel, confused by the chaos of life on the midway, awareness now turns inward, towards its roots. To the Twins, truth is "out there" somewhere. They search the world, filling the psyche with alertness & wonder. And yet the search yields nothing. Life is more mysterious than ever, more full of loose ends & undigested details.

Cancer sets out in a new direction. Instead of rifling through the Universe, the Crab reaches tendrils of Consciousness inward, probing deeply into the underpinnings of experience, pressing towards the heart.

The fabric of the world to Cancer is feelings. A mammoth subjectivity animates this phase of the zodiac. The terse, journalistic awareness of Gemini gives way to a tapestry of impressions, of personal responses. There is no longer an objective Universe. All that remains is a pattern of reactions.

Those who are born under the mark of the Crab have come here to penetrate the dimensions of inner life inaccessible to any previous sign. They arrive fluent in the language of the deep Self, the language of emotion. Fascinated by the reactive, subjective aspects of the mind, their lifeblood is a protracted process of psychoanalysis, usually Self-administered.

To feel Consciousness. To feel every nuance of life. To shed the shell of numbness that armors us against this slaughterhouse of a world. All that is the Crab's work.

Cancers endpoint? To see the hellish discord of life. To see the cauldron within. And, against all common sense, to love, trust, & accept all that existence offers.

Meanwhile I also turn to note *the Sabian Symbol for the Cancer Nth Node in this chart of the films premiere as part of the main evolutionary intent suggested in the Nth Node of the Moon.. And so with the Nth Node in the 16th degree.. I read at *16degCan..

A MAN STUDYING A MANDALA IN FRONT OF HIM, WITH THE HELP OF A VERY ANCIENT BOOK.. A deep concern for the problems raised by the process of personality integration.. a deep effort on the part of the individualised Consciousness to reach a solid basis of understanding that will allow it to perceive the structural relationship of every part of the personality to every other part.. a mental process implying study & an inward-turning of the attention.. of developing a profound & stabilised sense of form, ie. one's own individual form, & not an external Sociocultural pattern.. CONCENTRATION...

**NB: Sabian Oracle used is at http://www.sabiansymbols.com/pagea7a7.html.. along with secondary or shorter interpretations by Dane Rudhyar from his book 'An Astrological Mandala: The Cycle of Transformation & Its 360 Symbolic Phases'.. While all astrological aspects as usual are within about 1 degree of exact.. Along with notes on the signs Pisces, Sagittarius, Aquarius.. & Cancer from Steven Forrest's book 'The Inner Sky'.. And here's a link to the film 'Cast Away' at http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cast_away...

Iraq War Officially Ends 2011

2011-12-16T12:43:00.050+11:00

Meanwhile here are some more notes from my ongoing seemingly never ending journal.. leading up to the official end to the US War in Iraq.. ie. It's time says the Universe.. which includes the astrological symbols & positions of the planets etc.. as I later go on to note with great interest.. While also of some note in the 'coincidence' of my reading a book about "life" in the "afterlife" in relation to the official ending of the Iraq War yesterday on Dec 15.. Since life & death is obviously the main theme of any war.. Yes, & how rather appropriate that this blog also follows on from my last blog about the TV series 'M*A*S*H' at the time of Col. Potter's death, ie. the actor Harry Morgan.. And I am sure he, along with Hawkeye & all the others from 'MASH' would be most definitely approve of the ending of this war...

Iraq
Historically, Iraq was known in Europe by the Greek toponym 'Mesopotamia,' ie. Land between the rivers. Iraq has been home to continuous successive Civilizations since the 6th millennium BC. The region between the Tigris & Euphrates rivers is identified as the cradle of civilization & the birthplace of writing & the wheel. At different periods in its history, Iraq was the center of the indigenous Akkadian, Sumerian, Assyrian, Babylonian, & Abbasid empires. It was also part of the Achaemenid, Hellenistic, Parthian, Sassanid, Roman, Rashidun, Umayyad, Mongol, Safavid, Afsharid, & Ottoman empires, & under British control as a League of Nations mandate.

16/12/11 Meanwhile it’s now 8.42am.. & here I am having just listened to the end of the song *‘Return to Innocence’ on my MP3 player from the album *‘The Cross of Changes’ by Enigma once again.. And all this too after I have been up in my room having a bit of a sleep in while listening to this album once again over the last hour & a half or so.. with my for some reason returning to listening to this album once again after not listening to it for a long time.. And all this too with my waking up fully again & the words of this song really resonating deep within me at this time… **All this with *the Capricorn Ascendant.. in my 9th house.. separating from my *Sol-Arc Capricorn Sth Node along with my natal Capricorn Moon.. in my 9th house.. while both also closely trine my natal Taurus Sun.. in my 2nd house.. while all also closely opposing & sextile my *Sol-Arc Cancer Nth Node.. in my 3rd house.. while all also closely sextile & trine my *Sol-Arc Juno in Pisces.. in my 11th house.. while all also closely semi-sextile.. square & inconjunct *Vesta in Aquarius along with *Neptune in Aquarius along with my *prog Aquarian Part of Fortune.. in my 10th house.. while all also closely square.. forming a ‘Yod’ with & trine the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Mars-Pluto in Libra along with my natal Libra Descendant.. while all also forming a ‘cardinal grand cross’ with.. semi-sextile & sextile my natal Aries Ascendant.. while *the Libra MC.. in my 6th house.. also closely aligned at the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Libra Part of Fortune & my *prog Libra Moon.. while both also closely aligned at the focal point of a ‘Yod’ with my natal Vesta in Taurus.. in my 1st house.. along with the midpoint of my *prog Saturn® in Pisces & my *prog Pisces MC along with *Ceres in Pisces.. in my 11th house.. while *the Libra Part of Fortune.. in my 5th house.. also applying to closely align with my *prog Mars in Libra.. while both also closely trine my natal Aquarian MC.. while both also closely sextile *Mercury in Sagittarius.. in my 8th house.. while all also closely square & semi-sextile my *Sol-Arc Neptune in Capricorn.. in my 9th house.. while all also closely square.. forming a ‘Yod’ with & opposing my *Sol-Arc Vesta in Cancer.. in my 3rd house.. meanwhile *the Leo Moon.. in my 4th house.. also closely sextile the midpoint of my *Sol-Arc Uranus-Mars-Pluto in Libra along with *Saturn in Libra.. in my 6th house.. while both also forming a ‘Yod’ with the midpoint of my *prog Chiron® in Pisces along with my *Sol-Arc Juno in Pisces.. in my 11th house…

Meanwhile it’s now 9.38am.. & here I am back downstairs again awake & showered listening to the tail end of the song *‘Out From the Deep’ from the same album by Enigma on my MP3 player once again.. And with the kettle also whistling as it boils.. the words from this song still ringing through my head.. ie. "That’s why we are here.. to avoid the mistakes we made".. in this lifetime & others that is.. ie. including our past lives.. Which we may get into a habit of repeating in this life if we don’t break the cycle that is.. Although this thinking also seems to go against the seemingly bright & rosy.. almost carefree story painted of the afterlife by the psychic medium who wrote that book I bought the other day on the ‘Afterlives of the Rich & Famous’.. And so yes it seems as there is a certain amount of "Fate" or "Fated" events in one's life.. ie. catalysts to move us into a certain state of Consciousness etc.. although all this also co-existing with our "Free Will" also too.. ie. "Life" as a whole it seems is not just a "either or equation".. While I also decide to ask *the Sabian Oracle what *the Universe wants to say to me about this book.. ie. is it all really true what is says about life & death & the afterlife etc.. ie. that this is not our real "home," etc.. rather it is the non-material realm of the Spirit world that is our true home.. And this life on Earth, or other places is where we come to have a different experience & or evolve further Spiritually, or in greater Concsiousness, as we go from lifetime to lifetime & from the non-material to the material realms & back again etc.. ie. "All the world's a stage.. et al etc".. And so I got *9degSco.. And rather interestingly this is also the main 'Halloween' degree symbol.. Halloween being a time when the 'veils' between this world & the Spirit worlds are beleived to be almost non-existent or transparent.. & we are given an opportunity to pause to reflect upon & connect with etc..

A DENTIST IS HARD AT WORK.. Reaching a point of Ego-awareness & the ability to nourish oneself is also the point where you are able to be affected or damaged by Society. It is then that Society needs to invent a way of repairing this false & probably unnecessary damage. You may find that you need some help at this time to cope with some of these difficulties e.g. finance, health, stress etc.

Repairing the damage. The relief of getting things fixed. Improving one's bite.

The Caution: Getting further into a hole by using more & more Social solutions against your better judgment. Causing more pollution & damage when one should be honouring & fixing the situation.

A DENTIST AT WORK.. Overcoming the negative results of Social practices & Ego-cravings.. Life in Society both perverts & repairs, destroys & rebuilds - a truly vicious cycle.. Mankind is compelled by Social needs to display inventiveness.. INVENTIVENESS…

Meanwhile it’s now 10.10am.. & here I am listening to the song *‘The Eyes of Truth’ by Enigma once again on my Mp3 player while I also just looked at a NASA SOHO video image of a large comet, named Lovejoy, heading towards the Sun at http://www.spaceweather.com/images2011/15dec11/lovejoy_anim.gif?PHPSESSID=pk0gk81u6mbsvpc9saoblscf76 ...

Meanwhile it’ snow 10.59am.. & here I am having just read a news story at http://www.stripes.com/news/panetta-declares-iraq-war-end-of-mission-for-u-s-troops-1.163568 .. on the official end to the Iraq War on Thursday with an official ceremony being held in Baghdad.. And all this too while I of course looked at the transits on Thursday at Noon Baghdad time for the official ending of the war to the chart on the beginning of the war back on Mar 20, 2003.. with the major transits being *Chiron in Pisces.. at 1deg13.. also separating from the ‘Iraq War’ *Sol-Arc Venus in Pisces.. at 0deg44, & *prog Uranus in Pisces.. at 0deg59.. While all also closely trine the ‘Iraq War’ *Sol-Arc Saturn in Cancer.. at 1deg27.. While all closely sextile *Jupiter® in Taurus.. at 0deg33.. while all also closely semi-sextile & square *Uranus in Aries, at 0deg39.. along with the ‘Iraq War’ Aries Sun.. at 0deg05.. While all also closely square.. forming a ‘Yod’ with & sextile the ‘Iraq War’ *prog Sagittarian Sth Node.. at 0deg48.. While all also closely square.. semi-sextile.. sextile & opposed by the ‘Iraq War’ *prog Gemini Nth Node.. at 0deg48.. Meanwhile *the Leo Moon.. at midday on Thurday in Baghdad, at 19deg21.. also applying to closely trine the ‘Iraq War’ Pluto in Sagittarius.. at 19deg56.. While both also closely square & semi-sextile the ‘Iraq War’ *prog Juno® in Scorpio.. at 19deg11…

Meanwhile I also decide to ask *the Sabian Oracle what *the Universe wants to say to us all about this official ending of the War in Iraq.. I got *7degVir..

A HAREM.. There may be a feeling of being dominated, but being part of a group where you must compete for whatever small benefits may be available. Perhaps you are not taken seriously enough. There is a need to use your charm & appealing aspects of your nature to succeed.

Rising above jealousy, arrogance & passion. Waiting to be bestowed with the gift of being 'chosen'. Women's groups. Working together & sharing women's rituals or stories.

The Caution: Believing in the right to dominate those in less powerful Social circumstances OR not giving oneself a sense of importance in the situation.

While here is Dane Rudhyar's interpretation of the same symbol..

A HAREM.. A fateful, even if sought after, subservience to the vagaries or desires of the emotional nature.. a deeply contrasting phase of the emotional & Cultural life..the motive power is exterior to the experiencer, who is caught in a pattern over which he or she has no control.. one may become addicted to the excitement of the merry-go-round of vital emotions & may become a slave to the hope of recapturing the exultation of the initial experiences; yet one may learn how to put to use even the emptiness of waiting.. EMPTINESS IN WAITING...

While I also go back to note *the Sabian Symbol for the Suns degree at the beginning of the War in Iraq back on Mar 20, 2003.. with the Sun being the most important symbol in astrology as it is literally the giver of all "life".. ie. "As above.. So below".. And so I go on to note the symbol for the Aries Sun at 0deg05.. so I note the symbol at *1degAri..

A WOMAN JUST RISEN FROM THE SEA, A SEAL IS EMBRACING HER.. Emergence of new forms & of the potentiality of Consciousness.. the Consciousness of being an individual person with a place & a function, ie. a "destiny" in the planetary organism of the Earth, & in a particular type of human Society & Culture.. The possibility of success & that of failure is implied throughout the entire process of actualisation.. IMPULSE TO BE...

While here are some notes on the meaning of the Sun & the sign of Aries from Steven Forrest's book 'The Inner Sky'..

The Sun
The Gift: The ability to alter basic values & priorities, thereby allowing one’s actual behavior to reflect developments in his or her evolving inner life.
The Challenge: Are you strong enough to change the very basis of your identity, allowing yourself the freedom to become what you have never been before?
Key Questions: Who am I? What kinds of experiences help me strengthen & clarify my Self-image? Where can I find & expand my personal power? What unconscious biases shape my worldview?

Aries, The Ram
Element: Fire
Mode: Cardinal
Archetypes: The Warrior, The Pioneer, The Daredevil, The Survivor.

Love God, & do what you will.

St Augustine.

The Symbol
The Ram. Horns down, charging. Fierce. Unyielding. Will the Ram crack his skull? He doesn't care. Nothing can intimidate him. Nothing can force him to swerve. Victory - or Self-destruction in the effort to attain it: two destinies. One will claim him.

Aries is the life force, the will to exist. First there is nothing. Then there is something. Life thrusts itself out of nowhere, claiming a place in the void. The tone of the process is unflinching, explosive, violent. It conjures up pictures of volcanoes of white-hot Stars bursting into tattered nebula's.

A rabid dog backs you up to a precipice, fangs bared, mouth foaming. You have a hunting knife in your hand. He moves in, growling, eyes glaring red. You brace yourself. No more veneer of gentility & education. No more language. Nothing left but the animal rage to survive. You scream. You drive for the throat.

You have found Aries.

Endpoint
Aries teaches courage. It represents the ability of the will to triumph over any intimidation, any obstacle, any doubt. The Ram is the part of us that does exactly what it wants to do. It chooses & it acts. Nothing else matters. Wrestling crocodiles blindfolded? Yes - if that is what we want. But that kind of activity is beside the point. Aries is the sign of daring, of any act of sheer adventurousness, regardless of how smart the act might be. But its real meaning is deeper. It refers to existential courage.

What is that word? In a word it is Selfishness. A delicate art. Not insensitivity. Not narrowness. Not manipulation. But the ability to say: "This is my life. I have a right to seek whatever experiences I need to have. Nothing will stand between me & my growth. Not another person. Not any circumstance. Not even my own fears."

The endpoint for Aries is the perfect mating of our desires & our actions. It is freedom. No getting lost in feelings. No fascination with the psychological underpinnings of our decisions. All that binds the Ram's attention is the power of the will to shape a life.

Meanwhile the other symbol of equal importance is the Moon.. as the symbol that appears as exactly the same size as the Sun in the sky.. although it is 400 times closer.. a remarkable co-inidence indeed.. And so astrologically this also tells us of it's equal status of importance.. although it is the ruler of the night sky.. rather than the day.. as well as being responsible for the movement of the tides in our oceans.. ie. "As above.. So below".. And at the beginning of the Iraq War I also turn to *the Sabian Symbol for the Scorpio Moon.. at 7deg50.. so I note the symbol for the 8th degree.. at *8degSco..

A CALM LAKE BATHED IN MOONLIGHT.. A quiet openness to higher inspiration.. Man strives hard to achieve great things through daring adventures, but a moment comes when all that really matters is to present a calm mind upon which a supernal light may be reflected.. It tells us that beyond all efforts lies the need for peace & the readiness to accept the illumination from above.. QUIESSENCE...

While here are some notes on the meaning of the Moon along with the sign of Scorpio also from the same book 'The Inner Sky'..

The Moon
The Gift: The capacity to feel & respond emotionally. The development of subjectivity, impressionability & sensitivity. The development of what we might call the Soul.
The Challenge: Can you allow repressed or misunderstood emotions that demand expression & inclusion… into your conscious awareness & to act accordingly?
Key Questions: What kinds of experiences are most essential to my happiness? When moodiness & irrationality overtake me, how are they expressed? What unconscious emotional needs motivate my behavior?

Scorpio, The Scorpion
Element: Water
Mode: Fixed
Archetypes: The Detective, The Scorcerer, The Hypnotist

The ally we must cultivate is the part of
our enemy that knows the truth.

Mohannes K. Ghandi

The Symbol
You lie in your sleeping bag, rigid as a corpse. The desert Sun creeps higher, threatening to turn the fillings in your teeth to molten gold.

One move & you die: a scorpion stands motionless on your belly.

Tension in your marriage. Critical politicking in your profession. Yesterday those thoughts crowded your world. Today, with that scorpion standing there, they seem as irrelevant as a dim red Star in a distant galaxy.

With that scorpion on your belly, only the awesome intensity of the present moment remains. Everything else - all pretense, all vanity, all ambition - is ripped away. Only essentials remain. And mind, naked & alert, focused sharp as a cut gem, stands ready to live or die.

That attitude or state of Consciousness is Scorpio.

Endpoint
Here you sit reading an astrology book. Your mind is intent on it. Presumably you are calm, reasonably comfortable. You forget your birth. Your death is an abstraction down the road. Somewhere between the two, you are floating along, taking what comes & making the best of it.

But think, you live on a planet hurtling around a gargantuan nuclear bomb. Million-ton stones blast randomly around you at hundreds of miles per second. You are protected only by a thin haze of gas. And within that airy shield, you share living quarters with madmen bent on destruction. Some have .38s. Some have neutron bombs. And even if you escape them, it does not matter: you are bound to a physical body as doomed & fragile as an orchid in a buffalo stampede.

That knowledge frightens us. We would rather not look at it. So we make our plans, buy our life insurance policies, & avoid thinking the unthinkable. But what if we dare to think it? What if we have the courage to undo the taboo surrounding death? What happens then?

Like the person sharing a sleeping bag with a scorpion, our priorities are clarified. The future disappears. The past evaporates. We are utterly focused on the present moment. Nothing else matters. And in that present moment, all our posturing & politeness, all our phony, comfortable answers, are stripped away. Only truth remains. Like never before, we know who we are & what we want.

Should that scorpion crawl out of the bag & off into the desert, maybe the nightmare turns out to be a blessing. Maybe we carry some of that honesty & intensity & clarity forward into our lives. Maybe we are less likely to get strung out over an irredeemable past & a chimerical future.

That is the Scorpion's endpoint. To live with that kind of intensity. To burn away all pretense. To let nothing be hidden behind walls of fear. To make the unconscious Conscious.

The aim of the Scorpion, is to live each moment as if it were the last.

While here is the 'birthchart' of the start of the 'War in Iraq' on Mar 20, 2003.. followed by the chart at Noon in Baghdad for the day of the official end of the war on Dec 15, 2011..

While I also go on to note *the Sabian Symbol for the zodiac degree in which the Sth & Nth Nodes of ther Moon was also transiting at the start of this war.. And with the nodes of the Moon resenting ones karmic past .. ie. the Sth Node.. along with the karmic or evolutionary way forward out of the past.. ie. the Nth Node.. with the nodes of th Moon always being exactly opposite each other in the zodiac.. And so beginning with the Sagittarian Sth Node at 1deg14.. so in the 2nd degree.. so at *2degSag..

WHITE CAPPED WAVES DISPLAY THE POWER OF WIND OVER SEA.. The mobilisation of unconscious energies under the pressure of superpersonal motives.. a picture which contrasts the powerful storms of nature with the often gory & hysterical crises of a Civilisation which progresses through war.. SUBTLISATION THROUGH RHYTHMIC INTENSITY...

While the evolutionary way forward is suggested by the Nth Node.. in Gemini.. at 1deg14.. ie. in the 2nd degree.. And so the symbol at *2degGem reads..

SANTA CLAUS FURTIVELY FILLING STOCKINGS HANGING IN FRONT OF THE FIREPLACE.. A rewarded faith in Spiritual blessings.. In order to discover the wonders of the normally unconscious depths of the Collective psyche, the individual has to build the proper kind of vehicle, ie. "a glass bottomed boat," but the reception of new blessings from the Spiritual realm above, ie. the Superconscious, requires mostly faith & purity of heart, & common type of understanding, ie. a state of innocence.. INNOCENCE...

Meanwhile also from these charts above I note that the War in Iraq began with *the Scorpio Moon closely aligned at the focal point of a 'Yod,' ie. maximum point of tension, with *the Aries Sun sextile, ie. in favourable aspect, with *the Gemini Nth Node.. With the 'Yod' also otherwise known as 'the finger of fate' aspect.. While this same Scorpio Moon also closely aligned at the focal point of a 'T-square' between *Jupiter in Leo opposing *Neptune in Libra.. While also looking at the chart for the end of the war I also note that *the Leo Moon also applying to closely oppose, ie. in tension with, *Neptune in Aquarius.. while both also closely trine & sextile, both in favorable aspect with, *the Sagittarian Sun.. while all also closely sextile & trine, ie. in favourable aspect with, *Saturn in Libra..

While I also turn to *the Sabian Symbol for *the Sagittarian Sun at the time of the official ending of this war on Dec 15.. at *23deg01.. ie. in the 24th degree.. And so I note the symbol at *24degSag..

A BLUEBIRD PERCHED ON THE GATE OF A COTTAGE.. The reward which meets every effort at integration into a Social environment for those who remain true to their own Selves.. The bluebird is a well known symbol of happiness, but also it refers to what one might call a Spiritually orientated mind.. the essential technique for successful living is the development of a Consciousness in which peace & heppiness dwell.. also a hint that good fortune is going to bles your life.. GOOD FORTUNE...

While here are some notes on the meaning of the sign of Sagittarius in which *the Sun was transiting at this time..

Sagittarius, The Archer
Element: Fire
Mode: Mutable
Archetypes: The Gypsy, The Student, The Philospher.

It is not entertainment I am seeking. It is
understanding. Understanding, understanding,
& more understanding. I will stuff myself with
it, sniff it up with every pore, cram it into every
orifice. Someday it will pay off. Everything
will fall into its proper place, & I will, at
last, understand.

Laurel Goldman

The Symbol
Not the archer but the arrow. Fingers quivering with tension, the marksman releases the taut string. The curve of the bow snaps back, sending the feathered shaft darting into space.

The arrow. It flies faster than sight, whipping through the air, speeding towards the clouds. If it had eyes, it would see the archer's form grow tiny, fading to an insignificant speck in the landscape laid out like a map, simple & schematic.

If that arrow were suddenly given a mind, what thoughts would occupy it? Like a man on mountain peak, it would think thoughts of perspective & experience, driven by exuberance. Who fired me into this luminous sky & for what purpose? What is my place here? Where am I Going? What is the reason for my existence?

Endpoint
The Archer's endpoint is perhaps the most difficult of the twelve to define at a practical level. For Sagittarius there is no clear ending, only an endless process. It is a moving, fluid state of being. An image of life as a perpetual quest. A recognition that the elemental human task is the search for meaning - & the realisation that in this world of impermanence, no sacrifice of safety or security counts for anything if it stands between any of us & that unceasing quest.

While I also note the Moon also transiting through the sign of Leo at this moment of officially ending this war.. So what does Leo signify.. the Moon reprsenting the irrational feeling nature within us all.. the heart & our feeling or our mood.. be that in an individual or a nation etc..

Leo, The Lion
Element: Fire
Mode: Fixed
Archetypes: The King or The Queen, The Performer, The Child, The Clown.

We are what we pretend to be.

Kurt Vonnegut, Jr.

The Symbol
Not a Lion, but a rock band from Sioux City, Iowa. Six kids long on energy, short on experience. Lightning strikes. They get a recording contract. In two months they have an album rocketing up the charts.

They open in Madison Square Garden. The house is packed. Thousands of eyes rake the stage. In the dressing room, the band is terrified. Butterflies. Stage fright. They step out into the lights, knees weak. Eyes rivet them. They strike the power chords. The sound man redlines the volume controls. The audience is on its feet, cheering, clapping hands.

Eyes wide as saucers, the band gets the message: everybody loves them. They play harder & tighter. The audience goes wild. The band picks up the juice, blasts it back. Pretty soon nobody is thinking about Sioux City, Iowa.

Endpoint
In Cancer, the preceding sign, the veil is drawn aside to reveal the glittering, shifting depths of the mind. Consciousness is mesmerized. It cannot turn away. The mirages of the inner eye fascinate awareness, collapsing inward upon itself. Attention turns away from outward activity, dissolving into passivity, watching & feeling, projecting very little.

Leo is a reaction against the inwardness of the Crab. Fertilised, enriched by its encounter with the roots of Consciousness, life now seeks a more palpable expression. Blazing magma may have flowed beneath Cancer's shell. But in Leo it roars forth with all the grandeur of a volcano. And sometimes with as much subtly.

Expression - that is the key to understanding the Lion. The contents of the mind are made visible. Nothing is chained in the dungeons of the imagination. Everything is given form. Everything is expressed. Leo must leave tangible evidence of its internal processes in the hands of the world. Cancer needs secrets. For the Lion, they are anathema.

Leo's endpoint? The development of personality.

Meanwhile in light of all this from the point of view of the constant synchronicity of "sign" & symbols in the world I also note with interest that the comet 'Lovejoy,' ie. 'Love-Joy'.. that I referred to earlier actually survived it's close encounter with the Sun, much to the surprise of the worlds astronomers etc..

Comet Lovejoy Survives
Incredibly, sungrazing Comet Lovejoy has survived its close encounter with the Sun. Lovejoy flew only 140,000 km over the stellar surface during the early hours of Dec. 16th. Experts expected the icy sundiver to be destroyed. Instead, NASA's Solar Dynamics Observatory caught the comet emerging from perihelion, ie. closest approach, apparently intact.. And here is a NASA video showing the comet approaching the Sun & then emerging from its close encounter with the Sun & emerging again from behind the Sun.. at http://www.spaceweather.com/images2011/16dec11/lovejoy_c3_anim2.gif?PHPSESSID=1mc9j07r7bdnvik3pr78qoc141

**NB: Sabian Oracle at http://www.sabiansymbols.com/pagea7a7.html?id=968.. along with secondary interpretations from Dane Rudhyar's book 'An Astrological Mandala: The Cycle of Transformation & Its 360 Symbolic Phases'.. While all astrological aspects mentioned are as usual within about 1 degree of exact.. And notes on Iraq, ie. ancient Mesopotamia, from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Iraq...

MAS*H.. Colonel Potter, Goodbye, Farewell & Armen 2011...

2011-12-09T10:20:00.024+11:00

9/12/11 Meanwhile it’s now 8.29am.. & here I am downstairs awake & showered having just logged on for another day on this planet Earth.. While I also earlier found myself laying in my room bringing in another day while listening to my *‘Tibetan Ritual’ Cd on my MP3 player.. Meanwhile I also found myself at work last night listening to a tribute & memories from one of the greatest loved TV shows of all time.. ie. ‘M*A*S*H’.. after it was announced yesterday that the actor who played Colonel Potter, ie. Harry Morgan died aged 96.. also he was an Aries Sun, Aries being the sign of 'the Warrior' pr
the Survivor'.. but he also had a Pisces Moon, the sign of 'the Mystic' or 'the Poet'.. born on Apr 10, 1915, in Detroit Michigan…

Meanwhile it’s now 8.59am.. & here I am having just posted a mini tribute on my Facebook Wall to ‘MASH’ after listening to a tribute to & discussion of peoples favourite episodes from the series after ‘Colonel Potter,’ ie. Harry Morgan died yesterday.. While I also decided to ask *the Sabian Oracle what the Universe wants to say to us all about this much loved show.. I got *27degLeo..

DAYBREAK - THE LUMINESCENCE OF DAWN IN THE EASTERN SKY.. You may feel that there is finally a chance for a new beginning. Things have been sacrificed & there may be a certain emptiness, but you will see the light of day & move forward again. This is a transition time of letting go of operating in the dark. New ideas, new opportunities, new perspectives & new realizations are emerging.

Gradual realizations of opportunities. New cycles beginning. Leaving the past behind.

The Caution: Being fearful & distrusting of new experiences or situations OR thinking that everything will be O.K. 'tomorrow', but not today.

While here is Dane Rudhyar's interpretation of the same symbol..

THE ILLUMINESCENCE OF DAWN IN THE EASTERN SKY.. The exalting challenge of new opportunities at the threshold of a new cycle.. In the Biblical symbolism Noah plants his "vineyard" - he begins to teach the "secret doctrine" which he inherited from those 'sons of God' who had not been sucked down into whirlpools of materiality.. After the “peak experience” in which we touch our “Divine” potentialities comes the struggle with everyday problems.. But at first the state of deep inner exultation remains within us.. We are aglow with its promise.. The crisis & the blessings brought to us are relatively unusual events; every day has its dawn, which we should meet with a pure heart & a clear mind.. ILLUMINATION…

M*A*S*H is an American television series developed by Larry Gelbart, adapted from the 1970 feature film MASH, & which was itself based on the 1968 novel MASH: A Novel About Three Army Doctors, by Richard Hooker. The series is a medical drama/black comedy that was produced in association with 20th Century Fox Television for CBS. It follows a team of doctors & support staff stationed at the "4077th Mobile Army Surgical Hospital" in Uijeongbu, South Korea, during the Korean War. M*A*S*H's title sequence featured an instrumental version of the song "Suicide Is Painless", which also appears in the original film. The show was created after an attempt to film the original book's sequel, M*A*S*H Goes to Maine, failed. It is the most well known version of the M*A*S*H works.

The series premiered in the US on September 17, 1972, & ended February 28, 1983, with the finale becoming the most watched television episode in U.S. television history at the time, with a record breaking 125 million viewers, according to the New York Times. Despite the high turnout for the final episode of M*A*S*H, it struggled in its first season & was at risk of being canceled. However, season two of M*A*S*H placed it in a better time slot, airing after the popular 'All in the Family,' & the show became one of the top ten programs of the year & stayed in the top twenty programs for the rest of its eleven-season run. The show is still broadcast in syndication on various television stations. The series, which covered a three-year military conflict, spanned 251 episodes & lasted eleven seasons.

Many of the stories in the early seasons are based on real-life tales told by real MASH surgeons who were interviewed by the production team. Like the movie, the series was as much an allegory about the Vietnam War, still in progress when the show began, as it was about the Korean War.

Meanwhile I also found myself last night also looking at the Sabian Symbols in the birth chart for the first episode of the M.A.S.H shown on TV.. ie. on Sept 17, 1972.. And so I begin with the symbol for the Virgo Sun.. at *26degVir.. ie. with *the Virgo Sun between the 25th & 26th degrees.. And so I begin with the symbol for *25degVir..

A FLAG AT HALF-MAST IN FRONT OF A PUBLIC BUILDING.. The Social acknowledgment of a job well done & a destiny fulfilled.. As an individual who has accepted any significantly met public responsibilities reaches the end of his service to his community or to mankind as a whole, he or she gains Social immortality.. an image of the end results of the individuals service to mankind.. His or her personal failings may be forgotten but their achievements remain.. PUBLIC RECOGNITION...

While the next symbol or evolutionary step reads.. at *26degVir..

A BOY WITH A CENSER SERVES THE PRIEST NEAR THE ALTAR.. The first stage of actual participation in the great ritual of planetary evolution.. Whether we think of ancient mysteries, or of a Catholic Mass, or of some still more transcendent ceremony in which great beings are charged with planetary responsibilities are involved, we are dealing with an archetypal form of activity.. The individual is "e-ducated," ie. led out into the world of transcendent activity, the world of archetypal performance.. He or she must learn to serve, humbly & with intense attention, in what is yet beyond his or her Spiritual understanding.. PRACTICE IN THE PRESENCE OF GOD...

While here is the astro chart for the series premiere.. with the Virgo Sun, conjunct Mercury & Mars in Virgo.. And with Mercury & Mars in Virgo together also beautifully symbolising 'the Surgeon'.. Mercury symbolising the hands.. Mars relating to war & the sword.. as the ruler of Aries.. a fire sign.. with Mars also being associated with the scalpel.. Virgo being an Earth sign.. the sign of 'the Servant,' 'the Analyst' or 'the Critic'.. also relating to complex systems & the body.. also being ruled by Mercury.. While all also closely trine, a supportive aspect, *the Capricorn Moon, conjunct *the Capricorn Nth Node, ie. the node of the Moon.. Capricorn being the sign of 'the Hermit,' 'the Father,' or 'the Elder'.. While the Sun & the Moon being the most important symbols of life.. as so in the Spirit of "As above.. So below".. so too in one's birth chart..

The Sun
The Gift: The ability to alter basic values & priorities, thereby allowing one’s actual behavior to reflect developments in his or her evolving inner life.
The Challenge: Are you strong enough to change the very basis of your identity, allowing yourself the freedom to become what you have never been before?
Key Questions: Who am I? What kinds of experiences help me strengthen & clarify my Self-image? Where can I find & expand my personal power? What unconscious biases shape my worldview?

Virgo, The Virgin
Element: Earth
Mode: Mutable
Archetypes: The Servant, The Martyr, The Perfectionist, The Analyst.

One can give nothing whatever without
giving oneself - that is to say, risking
oneself. If one cannot risk oneself, then
one is simply incapable of giving.

James Baldwin

The Symbol
The Virgin. Of all symbols, the most difficult to grasp. We think of virginity & inexperience. But this in not a symbol of inexperience. Nor prudery. Nor any flight from passion.

The Virgin is an image of purity. Nothing has possessed her. She is attached to nothing, wants nothing, fears nothing. Nothing holds her. She is free, unbound by any Earthly drama.

Yet, she is here, on the Earth. What does the world offer one who seeks nothing but perfection? What can she do? She waits, aloof as Madonna. She works on herself. And to pass the time, she helps out where she can.

The Moon
The Gift: The capacity to feel & respond emotionally. The development of subjectivity, impressionability & sensitivity. The development of what we might call the Soul.
The Challenge: Can you allow repressed or misunderstood emotions that demand expression & inclusion… into your conscious awareness & to act accordingly?
Key Questions: What kinds of experiences are most essential to my happiness? When moodiness & irrationality overtake me, how are they expressed? What unconscious emotional needs motivate my behavior?

Capricorn, The Seagoat
Element: Earth
Mode: Cardinal
Archetypes: The Hermit, The Father, The Prime Minister.

You thought, as a boy, that a mage
is one who can do anything. So I
thought, once. So did we all. And
the truth is that as a man's real
power grows & his knowledge
widens, ever the way he can follow
grows narrower: until at last he
chooses nothing, but does only
& wholly what he must do.

Ursula K. LeGuin

The Symbol
The Sea-Goat. A mountain goat with a fishes tail; an impossible creature. A dog paddler at sea & a waddler on land - except in the world of symbolism. There, the Sea-Goat loses all his clumsiness & vulnerability. He becomes a symbol of ultimate & absolute power.

He is the master of two worlds: the sea & the stony heights. The Sea-Goat scales the most treacherous peaks, breathes the most rarefied air. He swims the widest oceans. Nothing can stop him. Once his mighty will is fixed on a goal, he is invincible.

He must only choose. Nothing can stand against him.

While here is a link to a story about Harry Morgan along with some selected Col Potter moments from this much loved series.. http://www.inquisitr.com/166127/harry-morgan-colonel-potter-dies-at-96/.. While here I am having just watched the end of a moving You Tube tribute to ‘M*A*S*H’ at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XbrZY4mordU&feature=related.. featuring music along with scenes from the final episode.. A very appropriate end to this blog…

**NB: Sabian Oracle at http://www.sabiansymbols.com/page11bd.html?id=974.. along with secondary interpretation from Dane Rudhyar's 'An Astrological Mandala: The Cycle of Transformation & Its 360 Symbolic Phases'.. Along with notes on the series from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/M*A*S*H_(TV_series) along with notes on the Sun & the Moon along with the signs Virgo & Capricorn from Steven Forrests book 'The Inner Sky'...